13 Planet of the Arts -Vol 4-No.4-1989. BY LORNA BOSCHMAN hisis my power chant. This is me, talk- ing about love. Love and power and passion and sex. To bea lesbian, here and now, isto be sexually defined. Sex. It’s the act that made lesbians famous. It’s set up that way. Like the idea that love and sex go together. Like the idea that love is exalted. And me? Iam a romantic junkie. I live from fix to fix of being in love. And that’s why I need a power chant. I need a power chant about love and power and passion and sex. One part of me thinks I’ve got to please everybody. Make them all happy. Never think bad thoughts about anyone. Oh, I know. I got brainwashed as a child, and I’ve still got that here, someplace in- side of me. And sometimes, when I want to fight, I become totally fro- zen. I think about the risk, the risk of losing love. But through struggle comes the chance to change. The potential gain over-rides the pain. So you look at it. What do I get by surren- dering to love? I never have to fight. I can live in euphoria all the time, survive the most vividly inside of my own mind, all the time knowing it takes more love to fight than to be nice. And at the end ofall that euphoria, Iam left with a parcel of memories ofa love that came and went before I had a chance to understand it. That’s why I need a power chant. I need a power chant about love and power and passion and sex. My imagination is so strong, I can convince myself of almost any- thing. But what kind of love is that to live up to? The kind you find in books written about somebody else’s life. The kind of love that picks you up, and sets you down hard. It’s a trap for someone like me who hastrouble telling fact from fiction anyway. I never expected to find this kind of passivity inside of myself, but it’s true. It’s so easy for me to give my power up, to give it all away. It’s like a compulsion. Why? Why do I fall in love so easily? You look at it close. You see pain, inse- curity. You see someone saying that love is an escape from pain. Momentarily. But there’s more to love than simply avoiding pain. This is why I need a power chant. I need a power chant about love and power and passion and sex. O.K. Let’s talk about love. One time, I took too many little mush- rooms. I felt totally alone. Unloved by anyone. But then, when I came down, I realized the power of my friends. They surround me in this net of influence, this net of love, they love me. This romantic love. It’s not that I want it out of my life, but I want different terms with the universe. I get to say what I think. Feel what I feel. I begin to unthaw. That’s where power comes in. Part of the the power comes from deep down inside us, comes from self-love, self-respect, self-dignity. Another part ofthe power is usasa social force, a collective force. We are bound to change the world. Passion. It’s that part of the being not hypnotized by TV, the factory line, the unemployment line or valium. It’s that part that will resist, the part that always lives, the part that thinks sex is wonderful. Sex. It’s those times when I leave my human form and throw myself into it like an animal. Passion. Lust. Sex. It throws off the chains of culture. Momentarily, we have total control of the universe. Like the psychic vibrations spreading from our beds. We are the radi- cal perverts. We are the sexual outlaws. Power. Power is power to be alive. To be free. To make our lives our power chant. Make your life your power chant about love and power and passion and sex. Love and power and passion and sex IO HEP G _ ~ 7 : oS 7 LZ VS U/ Be —S — << os SE ae = She recently collaborated with poet Judy Radul on a volume of experimental text and images entitled Rotating Bodies. Y HAD COMPLETELY INDEPENDANT. PERSONALITIES ‘AND Ep A CERES VILLI BECAME A HARDLING GUUNDO SUPPORTED MISSIONS IN AFRICA . SVAN SEIWITSCHO 1933 Carel Moiseiwitech is a graphic artist whose scratchboard and pastel works have appeared in mainstream, alternate and underground publications internationally. She teaches a part-time course at ECCAD and is currently having a solo show in Regina, In August her work will appear at the VAG. (Lorna Boschman is a 4th year Media student. She has made a 16 mm erotic film, “Butch/Femme In Paradise” in 1988, and is currently working on a video, “Drawing the Line”, which deals with lesbian B Planet of the Arts Gl HAD LETELY INDEPENDANT PERSONALITIES AND FOE ee OER EN ha Ek RaRb UNE amma AND SUPPORTED. MiSSIONS IN AFRICA Lorna Boschman is a 4th year Media student. She has made a 16 mm erotic film, “Buteh/Femme In Paradise” in 1988, and is currently working on a video, ‘Drawing the Line”, which deals with lesbian BY LORNA BOSCHMAN hisis my power chant. This is me, talk- ing about love. Love and power and passion and sex. Tobea lesbian, hereand now, isto be sexually defined. 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