A THESIS PAPER TO FULFILL THE REQUIREMENTS FOR THE DEGREE OF MASTER OF DESIGN BY CHLOE D’LEEN BETTS A CRITICAL AND PROCESS DOCUMENTATION THESIS PAPER SUBMITTED IN PARTIAL FULFILLMENT OF THE REQUIREMENTS FOR THE DEGREE OF MASTER OF DESIGN EMILY CARR UNIVERSITY OF FART + DESIGN 2022 © CHLOE D’LEEN BETTS 2022 FOR MORE INFORMATION REGARDING THE FORMATTING OF THIS DOCUMENT VISIT: https://drive.google.com/drive/ folders/1lj2FWXt9Y1xrX14stQw6fXR24IeO6xL2?usp=sharing If you are viewing this document digitally, click this text to visit the link above FOR AN ACCESSIBLE VERSION OF THIS DOCUMENT PLEASE EMAIL: dleenchloe@gmail.com (dleen chloe at gmail dot com) OR VISIT: https://drive.google.com/drive/ folders/19v6H7ebCzV8T1Br6p5A0WkiEK2mHidEG?usp=sharing If you are viewing this document digitally, click this text to visit the link above A 2 THESIS 3 PAPER 4 TO 5 FULFILL 6 THE 7 REQUIREMENTS 8 FOR 9 THE 10 DEGREE 11 OF 12 MASTER 13 OF 14 DESIGN 15 BY 16 CHLOE 17 D’LEEN 18 BETTS 19 A 20 CRITICAL 21 AND 22 PROCESS 23 DOCUMENTATION 24 THESIS 25 PAPER 26 SUBMITTED 27 IN 28 PARTIAL 29 FULFILLMENT 30 OF 31 THE 32 REQUIREMENTS 33 FOR 34 THE DEGREE 35 OF 36 MASTER 37 OF 38 DESIGN EMILY 39 CARR 40 UNIVERSITY 41 OF 42 ART 43 + 44 DESIGN 2022 45 © 46 CHLOE 47 D’LEEN 48 BETTS 49 2022 50 AN 51 INSTITUTIONAL 52 CRITIQUE 53 EXPLORED 54 THROUGH 55 PERFORMANCE, 56 MOVEMENT, 57 AND 58 WRITING. 59 A 60 CRITIQUE 61 OF 62 ABLEIST 63 AND 64 EXCLUSIONARY 65 HIGHER 66 EDUCATION 67 THROUGH 68 PERFORMANCE, 69 NONSENSE, 70 AND 71 RESISTANCE 72 BASED 73 PRACTICE. 74 A 75 PERFORMATIVE 76 AND 77 MOVEMENT 78 BASED 79 EXPLORATION 80 INTO 81 THE 82 HISTORY 83 AND 84 CONTINUATION 85 OF 86 ABLEISM 87 IN 88 DESIGN. 89 A 90 BEGINNERS 91 GUIDE 92 ON 93 HOW 94 TO 95 DO 96 A 97 BACKFLIP 98 AND 99 IMPRESS 100 YOUR 101 FRIENDS. 102 AN 103 IN-DEPTH 104 ANALYSIS 105 OF 106 MY 107 FAVORITE 108 ANIMAL, 109 THE 110 HORSESHOE 111 CRAB. 112 A 113 PRACTICAL 114 EXPLORATION 115 INTO 116 THE 117 MIND 118 OF 119 A 120 GRADUATE 121 STUDENT 122 EXPERIENCING 123 A 124 GLOBAL 125 PANDEMIC 126 BY 127 SLEEPING 128 THOUGH 129 ZOOM 130 SCHOOL. 131 A 132 DOCUMENT 133 THAT 134 DOCUMENTS 135 THE 136 DOCUMENTATION 137 OF 138 THIS 139 DOCUMENT. 140 A 141 CRITICAL 142 AND 143 PROCESS 144 DOCUMENTATION 145 THESIS 146 PAPER 147 SUBMITTED 148 IN 149 PARTIAL 150 FULFILLMENT 151 OF 152 THE 153 REQUIREMENTS 154 FOR 155 THE 156 DEGREE 157 OF 158 MASTER 159 OF 160 DESIGN 161 162 BEFORE 163 YOU 164 BEGIN THE 165 STRUCTURE 166 OF 167 THIS 168 DOCUMENT This 169 version 170 of 171 the 172 thesis, 173 unlike 174 the 175 formatted 176 PDF, 177 has 178 a 179 clear 180 table 181 of 182 contents 183 and 184 tagging 185 system 186 to 187 ensure 188 easy 189 navigation. 190 If 191 you 192 have 193 the 194 time 195 and 196 energy 197 to 198 engage 199 in 200 some 201 or 202 all 203 of 204 this 205 document 206 today, 207 welcome. 208 If 209 you 210 do 211 not, 212 come 213 back 214 when 215 you 216 have 217 the 218 capacity 219 to 220 engage 221 with 222 the 223 work. 224 A 225 flowchart 226 that 227 provides 228 alternative 229 navigation 230 for 231 the 232 document 233 is 234 available 235 in 236 the 237 appendix. 238 Before 239 each 240 section 241 is 242 a 243 set 244 of 245 information 246 diagrams, 247 tagged 248 “INTRODUCTION 249 AND 250 CONTENT.” 251 These 252 diagrams 253 give 254 context 255 for 256 the 257 section 258 and 259 information 260 on 261 how 262 I 263 looked 264 and 265 felt 266 while 267 writing 268 or 269 creating 270 it. 271 After 272 the 273 introduction 274 diagrams, 275 there 276 are 277 links 278 to 279 audio, 280 video, 281 and 282 ASL 283 translation 284 of 285 the 286 sections. 287 These 288 are 289 tagged 290 “ALTERNATIVE 291 FORMAT 292 LINKS.” 293 If 294 you 295 use 296 the 297 ”audio” 298 link 299 a 300 web 301 page 302 will 303 open 304 with 305 a 306 recording 307 of 308 the 309 text. 310 The 311 same 312 goes 313 for 314 the 315 video 316 and 317 ASL 318 squares. 319 The 320 section 321 content 322 is 323 tagged 324 “SECTION 325 CONTENT”. 326 Sections 327 with 328 video 329 performances 330 have 331 “VIDEO 332 PERFORMANCE” 333 tags. 334 Videos 335 of 336 performance 337 work 338 can 339 be 340 found 341 by 342 using 343 the 344 link 345 provided. 346 There 347 are 348 footnotes 349 throughout 350 this 351 document. 352 Words 353 in 354 red 355 text 356 are 357 defined 358 in 359 the 360 footnotes. 361 Image 362 Descriptions 363 are 364 provided 365 in 366 blue 367 text 368 and 369 are 370 preceded 371 by 372 “[ID]”. 373 There 374 are 375 additional 376 formats 377 of 378 the 379 document 380 in 381 the 382 appendices 383 including 384 a 385 Google 386 Doc 387 that 388 allows 389 you 390 to 391 change 392 the 393 typeface 394 (font), 395 text 396 size, 397 colour, 398 and 399 contrast. 400 I 401 have 402 worked 403 to 404 make 405 this 406 document 407 as 408 accessible 409 as 410 possible, 411 however 412 it 413 is 414 a 415 learning 416 process; 417 it 418 will 419 inevitably 420 fall 421 short 422 of 423 meeting 424 every 425 person’s 426 access 427 needs. 428 If 429 you 430 are 431 having 432 difficulty 433 accessing 434 this 435 content 436 or 437 would 438 prefer 439 an 440 alternative 441 format, 442 please 443 reach 444 out. 445 I 446 am 447 happy 448 to 449 provide 450 it 451 :) My 452 email 453 is 454 dleenchloe@gmail .com 455 (dleen 456 chloe 457 at 458 gmail 459 dot 460 com). 461 ALTERNATIVE 462 FORMAT 463 LINKS VIDEO: 464 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 465 s/1zsgJraS4KR0X bpN4zfuvDCQh3Iy 466 0Z3L?usp=sharing 467 AUDIO: 468 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 469 s/1AmWqmCbp0EJGnZJlCVRy5Gy 470 xA01_o1W?usp=s haring 471 ASL: 472 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 473 s/1zcKb7xbaj21JY rnINA0iLJoIMYV25 474 4VO?usp=sharing 475 476 DEDICATION INTRODUCTION 477 AND 478 CONTEXT TONE 479 / 480 LANGUAGE 481 [ID] 482 This 483 graphic 484 represents 485 the 486 tone 487 or 488 language. 489 A 490 circle 491 with 492 three 493 gradient 494 colours. 495 The 496 left 497 of 498 the 499 circle 500 is 501 yellow 502 with 503 text 504 above 505 it 506 that 507 says 508 “Personal”, 509 the 510 bottom 511 is 512 blue 513 with 514 text 515 that 516 says 517 “Movement”, 518 the 519 right 520 is 521 red 522 with 523 text 524 that 525 says 526 “Academic”. 527 The 528 colors 529 merge 530 between 531 one 532 another. 533 The 534 color 535 chosen 536 here 537 is 538 yellow, 539 indicating 540 this 541 is 542 written 543 in 544 a 545 personal 546 tone. 547 FEELINGS 548 [ID] 549 A 550 gradient 551 bar 552 with 553 two 554 ends. 555 The 556 left 557 is 558 white 559 and 560 says 561 “I 562 love 563 school”, 564 the 565 right 566 is 567 blue 568 and 569 says 570 “I 571 hate 572 school”. 573 The 574 indicator 575 lies 576 in 577 the 578 middle. 579 Neutral 580 feelings 581 about 582 school. 583 [ID] 584 A 585 gradient 586 bar 587 with 588 two 589 ends. 590 The 591 left 592 is 593 white 594 and 595 says 596 “I 597 am 598 hungry”, 599 the 600 right 601 is 602 red 603 and 604 says 605 “I 606 am 607 full”. 608 The 609 indicator 610 is 611 next 612 to 613 the 614 “I 615 am 616 hungry'' 617 end. 618 [ID] 619 A 620 gradient 621 bar 622 with 623 two 624 ends. 625 The 626 left 627 is 628 white 629 and 630 says 631 “I 632 like 633 rain”, 634 the 635 right 636 is 637 yellow 638 and 639 says 640 “I 641 hate 642 rain”. 643 The 644 indicator 645 is 646 next 647 to 648 the 649 “I 650 hate 651 rain” 652 side. SELFIE 653 [ID] 654 Chloe 655 D'Leen, 656 a 657 white 658 person 659 wearing 660 a 661 blue 662 shirt 663 and 664 black 665 hat, 666 is 667 cheesing 668 with 669 a 670 big 671 smile 672 while 673 being 674 licked 675 on 676 the 677 cheek 678 by 679 a 680 cute 681 white 682 dog. 683 The 684 background 685 is 686 a 687 white 688 living 689 room 690 with 691 houseplants. 692 MOOD 693 RING COLOUR 694 : 695 ORANGE angsty, 696 loving, homesick 697 [ID] 698 The 699 back 700 of 701 a 702 white 703 child’s 704 hand 705 with 706 three 707 rings. 708 The 709 thumb 710 and 711 pointer 712 finger 713 have 714 polka 715 dot 716 butterfly 717 shaped 718 rings, 719 the 720 ring 721 finger 722 has 723 a 724 mood 725 ring 726 with 727 an 728 orange 729 ring. 730 There 731 is 732 a 733 box 734 around 735 the 736 ring 737 that 738 highlights 739 its 740 color. 741 ALTERNATIVE 742 FORMAT 743 LINKS VIDEO: 744 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 745 s/1JLgYJ8AWnR9 BX61cMMoXDNHT 746 LSziRV1?usp=sharing 747 AUDIO: 748 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 749 s/1Ug59Jo_Rn4IqL IFwc9I1axmZXZ- 750 h_YKF?usp=shari ng 751 ASL: 752 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 753 s/1DNL77A8uyYHv oRlkUh0Sq7SKs4 754 Dug4FS?usp=shar ing 755 SECTION 756 CONTENT 757 [ID] 758 759 A 760 black 761 outlined 762 pie 763 chart 764 labeled 765 with 766 the 767 following 768 sections: 769 PB&J 770 (38.5%), 771 meat 772 (15.4%), 773 grilled 774 cheese 775 (7.7%), 776 spam, 777 (7.7%), 778 bologna 779 (7.7%), 780 chicken 781 salad 782 (7.7%), 783 tuna 784 (7.7%), 785 and 786 black 787 forest 788 ham 789 (7.7%). 790 791 While 792 reviewing 793 a 794 draft 795 of 796 my 797 thesis 798 an 799 instructor 800 suggested 801 my 802 writing 803 is 804 too 805 casual 806 and 807 includes 808 too 809 many 810 random 811 ideas. 812 “You 813 can’t 814 just 815 write 816 about 817 how 818 your 819 grandmother 820 makes 821 sandwiches.” 822 While 823 this 824 piece 825 of 826 advice 827 was 828 a 829 sincere 830 attempt 831 to 832 make 833 my 834 thesis 835 work 836 more 837 palatable, 838 it 839 got 840 me 841 thinking: 842 I 843 don’t 844 think 845 my 846 grandmother 847 has 848 ever 849 made 850 me 851 a 852 sandwich. 853 Frankly, 854 I 855 don’t 856 know 857 anything 858 about 859 how 860 any 861 of 862 my 863 grandmothers 864 make 865 sandwiches. 866 A 867 clear 868 and 869 concerning 870 hole 871 in 872 my 873 research 874 thus 875 far. 876 It 877 is 878 embarrassing 879 really; 880 I 881 was 882 about 883 to 884 submit 885 the 886 first 887 draft 888 of 889 my 890 thesis 891 and 892 I 893 had 894 not 895 included 896 a 897 single 898 acknowledgment 899 of 900 any 901 of 902 my 903 ancestral 904 bread-based 905 culinary 906 creations. 907 As 908 any 909 good 910 researcher 911 would, 912 I 913 set 914 out 915 to 916 eliminate 917 this 918 clear 919 lack 920 of 921 analysis. 922 I 923 designed 924 and 925 conducted 926 a 927 series 928 of 929 interviews 930 and 931 surveys 932 with 933 various 934 recipients 935 of 936 my 937 grandmother’s 938 sandwiches 939 (primarily 940 parents, 941 aunts, 942 uncles, 943 etc.) 944 and 945 finally 946 with 947 my 948 grandmothers 949 themselves. 950 I 951 am 952 lucky 953 enough 954 to 955 have 956 a 957 group 958 of 959 exceptional 960 grandmothers. 961 With 962 their 963 combined 964 power 965 I 966 am 967 confident 968 they 969 could 970 crochet 971 a 972 blanket 973 large 974 enough 975 to 976 cover 977 the 978 entire 979 North 980 American 981 continent. 982 However, 983 their 984 cozy 985 blanket 986 skills 987 are 988 not 989 the 990 subject 991 of 992 this 993 query 994 - 995 their 996 sandwiches 997 are. 998 During 999 the 1000 preliminary 1001 investigation, 1002 I 1003 sent 1004 out 1005 some 1006 text 1007 messages: 1008 “Did 1009 Grandma 1010 ever 1011 make 1012 you 1013 sandwiches? 1014 Were 1015 they 1016 any 1017 good?” 1018 The 1019 first 1020 responses 1021 went 1022 along 1023 the 1024 lines 1025 of: 1026 “You 1027 know 1028 grandma 1029 isn’t 1030 a 1031 foodie 1032 right?” 1033 and 1034 “Well 1035 you 1036 know 1037 grandma’s 1038 cooking”. 1039 Let’s 1040 just 1041 say, 1042 when 1043 it 1044 comes 1045 to 1046 cooking, 1047 I 1048 take 1049 after 1050 my 1051 grandmas. 1052 For 1053 dinner 1054 yesterday 1055 I 1056 ate 1057 beans 1058 out 1059 of 1060 a 1061 can 1062 after 1063 I 1064 burnt 1065 the 1066 pasta 1067 I 1068 was 1069 making. 1070 All 1071 this 1072 is 1073 to 1074 say, 1075 my 1076 group 1077 of 1078 grandmothers 1079 are 1080 not 1081 known 1082 for 1083 their 1084 love 1085 of 1086 the 1087 culinary 1088 arts. 1089 Nevertheless, 1090 they 1091 persist. 1092 According 1093 to 1094 those 1095 surveyed, 1096 each 1097 and 1098 every 1099 grandmother 1100 in 1101 the 1102 group 1103 made 1104 sandwiches. 1105 The 1106 heavy 1107 hitter 1108 was 1109 the 1110 classic 1111 PB&J, 1112 making 1113 up 1114 a 1115 total 1116 of 1117 38.5% 1118 of 1119 the 1120 sandwiches. 1121 Up 1122 next 1123 was 1124 the 1125 ambiguous 1126 meat 1127 sandwich 1128 coming 1129 in 1130 at 1131 15.4%. 1132 In 1133 addition 1134 to 1135 the 1136 “meat” 1137 sandwich 1138 were 1139 the 1140 bologna, 1141 spam, 1142 tuna, 1143 and 1144 chicken 1145 salad 1146 sandwiches. 1147 This 1148 presents 1149 a 1150 question: 1151 if 1152 the 1153 “meat” 1154 sandwich 1155 is 1156 not 1157 any 1158 of 1159 those 1160 meats, 1161 then 1162 what 1163 exactly 1164 is 1165 it? 1166 Until 1167 further 1168 data 1169 is 1170 collected, 1171 this 1172 will 1173 remain 1174 a 1175 mystery. 1176 Again, 1177 this 1178 is 1179 not 1180 exactly 1181 a 1182 group 1183 of 1184 Julia 1185 Childs. 1186 I 1187 pressed 1188 one 1189 of 1190 my 1191 grandmothers 1192 for 1193 stories 1194 about 1195 her 1196 sandwiches 1197 and 1198 she 1199 replied 1200 “Well, 1201 they 1202 ate 1203 them.” 1204 Fair 1205 enough. 1206 Were 1207 these 1208 the 1209 most 1210 amazing 1211 sandwiches 1212 on 1213 the 1214 face 1215 of 1216 the 1217 planet? 1218 Maybe 1219 not. 1220 Technically, 1221 according 1222 to 1223 the 1224 data 1225 they 1226 averaged 1227 6.5/10. 1228 But, 1229 these 1230 sandwiches 1231 fed 1232 the 1233 people 1234 that 1235 I 1236 loved. 1237 This 1238 thesis 1239 would 1240 not 1241 be 1242 possible 1243 without 1244 the 1245 love 1246 and 1247 support 1248 from 1249 those 1250 people. 1251 It 1252 can 1253 be 1254 concluded 1255 that 1256 without 1257 the 1258 matriarchal 1259 mashups 1260 of 1261 bread, 1262 meat, 1263 and 1264 peanut 1265 butter, 1266 this 1267 document 1268 would 1269 never 1270 have 1271 been 1272 made. 1273 Therefore 1274 I 1275 dedicate 1276 this 1277 to 1278 my 1279 mediocresandwich-making 1280 foremothers, 1281 to 1282 my 1283 parents, 1284 my 1285 family 1286 of 1287 origin, 1288 and 1289 chosen 1290 family. 1291 Grab 1292 two 1293 slices 1294 of 1295 bread 1296 and 1297 enjoy. 1298 1299 1300 1301 1302 INTRODUCTION INTRODUCTION 1303 AND 1304 CONTEXT TONE 1305 / 1306 LANGUAGE 1307 [ID] 1308 This 1309 graphic 1310 represents 1311 the 1312 tone 1313 or 1314 language. 1315 A 1316 circle 1317 with 1318 three 1319 gradient 1320 colours. 1321 The 1322 left 1323 of 1324 the 1325 circle 1326 is 1327 yellow 1328 with 1329 text 1330 above 1331 it 1332 that 1333 says 1334 “Personal”, 1335 bottom 1336 is 1337 blue 1338 with 1339 text 1340 that 1341 says 1342 “Movement”, 1343 the 1344 right 1345 is 1346 red 1347 with 1348 text 1349 that 1350 says 1351 “Academic”. 1352 The 1353 colors 1354 merge 1355 over 1356 top 1357 of 1358 one 1359 another. 1360 The 1361 color 1362 chosen 1363 here 1364 is 1365 orange-peach, 1366 indicating 1367 this 1368 is 1369 written 1370 in 1371 a 1372 space 1373 between 1374 academic 1375 and 1376 personal 1377 language. 1378 FEELINGS 1379 [ID] 1380 A 1381 gradient 1382 bar 1383 with 1384 two 1385 ends. 1386 The 1387 left 1388 is 1389 white 1390 and 1391 says 1392 “I 1393 love 1394 school”, 1395 the 1396 right 1397 is 1398 blue 1399 and 1400 says 1401 “I 1402 hate 1403 school”. 1404 The 1405 indicator 1406 lies 1407 between 1408 the 1409 middle 1410 and 1411 the 1412 “I 1413 love 1414 school” 1415 side. 1416 [ID] 1417 A 1418 gradient 1419 bar 1420 with 1421 two 1422 ends. 1423 The 1424 left 1425 is 1426 white 1427 and 1428 says 1429 “I 1430 am 1431 thirsty”, 1432 the 1433 right 1434 is 1435 red 1436 and 1437 says 1438 “I 1439 am 1440 not 1441 thirsty”. 1442 The 1443 indicator 1444 is 1445 between 1446 the 1447 middle 1448 and 1449 “I 1450 am 1451 not 1452 thirsty” 1453 side. 1454 [ID] 1455 A 1456 gradient 1457 bar 1458 with 1459 two 1460 ends. 1461 The 1462 left 1463 is 1464 white 1465 and 1466 says 1467 “I 1468 like 1469 rain”, 1470 the 1471 right 1472 is 1473 yellow 1474 and 1475 says 1476 “I 1477 hate 1478 rain”. 1479 The 1480 indicator 1481 is 1482 closer 1483 to 1484 the 1485 “I 1486 like 1487 rain” 1488 side. 1489 SELFIE 1490 [ID] 1491 1492 Chloe 1493 D'Leen, 1494 a 1495 white 1496 person 1497 with 1498 gray 1499 tinted 1500 glasses 1501 and 1502 a 1503 black 1504 hat 1505 looks 1506 at 1507 the 1508 camera 1509 holding 1510 a 1511 pen 1512 and 1513 poking 1514 their 1515 cheek. 1516 They 1517 are 1518 outside; 1519 the 1520 background 1521 is 1522 wood 1523 planks. MOOD 1524 RING COLOUR 1525 : 1526 AQUA confused, 1527 confident 1528 [ID] 1529 The 1530 back 1531 of 1532 a 1533 white 1534 child’s 1535 hand 1536 with 1537 three 1538 rings. 1539 The 1540 thumb 1541 and 1542 pointer 1543 finger 1544 have 1545 polka 1546 dot 1547 butterfly 1548 shaped 1549 rings, 1550 the 1551 ring 1552 finger 1553 has 1554 a 1555 mood 1556 ring 1557 with 1558 an 1559 aqua 1560 blue 1561 ring. 1562 There 1563 is 1564 a 1565 box 1566 around 1567 the 1568 ring 1569 that 1570 highlights 1571 its 1572 color. 1573 ALTERNATIVE 1574 FORMAT 1575 LINKS VIDEO: 1576 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 1577 s/1wgBtQg7ZkJgO MVU4DgCrjxdbjO 1578 ETSJ1u?usp=shar ing 1579 AUDIO: 1580 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 1581 s/1amY_hBY_4Dy giS436OBs- 1582 Y4HfgLLST7O?us p=sharing 1583 ASL: 1584 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 1585 s/1aCW_dfYyLazK kh8jhdglkT6ZOhjM 1586 GkLX?usp=sharin g 1587 SECTION 1588 CONTENT I 1589 have 1590 a 1591 body 1592 and 1593 a 1594 mind, 1595 a 1596 1 bodymind . 1 BODYMIND // Margaret Price (2011) defines the term as follows: I use the 1597 term bodymind to emphasize that although “body” and “mind” usually occupy separate conceptual and linguistic territories, they are deeply intertwined. This theory is 1598 drawn in part from Babette Rothschild’s The Body Remembers. Although Rothschild’s usage refers to persons who have experienced trauma, I believe it can 1599 be usefully applied to persons with mental disabilities of all kinds, for—as I argue throughout this book—our problems are in no sense “all 1600 in our minds.” If it weren’t so unwieldy, I would be tempted to use something like psychobiosocialpoliticalbodymind.” 1601 I 1602 find 1603 equilibrium 1604 in 1605 2 movement . 2 The word “movement” is common in this document. I consider movement broadly; movement can 1606 be choreographed dance performances, jumping jacks, and marathon running, or it can be the blood that moves through my body and the breath flowing in and 1607 Walking, out of my lungs. It is all movement, and it is all valuable. 1608 dancing, 1609 and 1610 moving 1611 all 1612 serve 1613 as 1614 a 1615 way 1616 to 1617 reset 1618 and 1619 reflect. 1620 I’m 1621 moving 1622 so 1623 I 1624 can 1625 think. 1626 While 1627 writing 1628 this 1629 document 1630 my 1631 body 1632 was 1633 forced 1634 to 1635 be 1636 still. 1637 I 1638 have 1639 never 1640 been 1641 particularly 1642 good 1643 at 1644 sitting 1645 still 1646 and 1647 this 1648 document 1649 was 1650 no 1651 exception. 1652 While 1653 reading, 1654 writing, 1655 and 1656 researching 1657 I 1658 was 1659 constantly 1660 walking 1661 away 1662 to 1663 move. 1664 I 1665 have 1666 typically 1667 seen 1668 this 1669 need 1670 for 1671 movement 1672 as 1673 an 1674 annoyance. 1675 I 1676 found 1677 ways 1678 to 1679 hide 1680 my 1681 necessity 1682 for 1683 movement. 1684 Growing 1685 up, 1686 I 1687 would 1688 go 1689 to 1690 the 1691 bathroom 1692 and 1693 do 1694 a 1695 “wall-sit” 1696 until 1697 my 1698 legs 1699 were 1700 so 1701 tired 1702 I 1703 collapsed. 1704 The 1705 exhaustion 1706 in 1707 my 1708 legs 1709 meant 1710 I 1711 could 1712 sit 1713 in 1714 class 1715 longer. 1716 I 1717 would 1718 point 1719 and 1720 flex 1721 my 1722 toes 1723 until 1724 my 1725 calf 1726 muscles 1727 stopped 1728 working. 1729 My 1730 whole 1731 life, 1732 I 1733 hid 1734 my 1735 movement 1736 so 1737 I 1738 could 1739 sit 1740 still 1741 and 1742 focus. 1743 My 1744 schooling 1745 taught 1746 me 1747 to 1748 value 1749 stillness 1750 over 1751 movement. 1752 Through 1753 a 1754 revaluation 1755 of 1756 my 1757 academic 1758 experiences 1759 and 1760 explorations, 1761 I 1762 have 1763 come 1764 to 1765 embrace 1766 this 1767 movement. 1768 My 1769 movement 1770 is 1771 sacred, 1772 it 1773 communicates 1774 my 1775 knowledge 1776 and 1777 emotion. 1778 Movement 1779 is 1780 my 1781 way 1782 of 1783 embodying 1784 la 1785 paperson’s 1786 intention 1787 to 1788 “wreck, 1789 scavenge, 1790 retool, 1791 reassemble” 1792 the 1793 machine 1794 of academia 1795 (2017). 1796 1797 Movement 1798 is 1799 liberation. I 1800 don’t 1801 experience 1802 my 1803 bodymind 1804 in 1805 writing. I 1806 experience 1807 it 1808 in 1809 the 1810 ways 1811 it 1812 moves, 1813 dances, 1814 and 1815 aches. 1816 My 1817 movement 1818 is 1819 my 1820 resistance, 1821 my 1822 way 1823 of 1824 listening 1825 to 1826 what 1827 my 1828 bodymind 1829 needs. 1830 These 1831 bursts 1832 of 1833 movement 1834 become 1835 performances 1836 that 1837 guided 1838 this 1839 thesis. 1840 They 1841 are 1842 powerful 1843 expressions 1844 of 1845 care. 1846 Coming 1847 to 1848 accept 1849 them 1850 as 1851 such 1852 was 1853 a 1854 difficult 1855 process, 1856 one 1857 that 1858 can 1859 be 1860 seen 1861 throughout 1862 this 1863 document. 1864 This 1865 document 1866 is 1867 a 1868 performance 1869 of 1870 my 1871 experiences. 1872 It 1873 showcases 1874 my 1875 struggle 1876 with 1877 academia 1878 while 1879 respecting 1880 my 1881 bodymind 1882 and 1883 unlearning 1884 the 1885 need 1886 to 1887 sit 1888 still. 1889 Higher 1890 education 1891 was 1892 designed 1893 to 1894 fit 1895 the 1896 needs 1897 of 1898 students 1899 that 1900 can 1901 sit 1902 still 1903 and 1904 learn 1905 in 1906 one 1907 very 1908 specific 1909 way: 1910 communicating 1911 through 1912 spoken 1913 language 1914 and 1915 writing. 1916 Scholars 1917 such 1918 as 1919 Sara 1920 Ahmed, 1921 Jay 1922 Timothy 1923 Dolmage, 1924 Aimi 1925 Hamarie, 1926 and 1927 Stephanie 1928 Kershbaum 1929 have 1930 “revealed 1931 the 1932 racist, 1933 ableist, 1934 eugenic 1935 character 1936 of 1937 current 1938 academic 1939 culture” 1940 (Dolmage, 1941 2017). 1942 Bodyminds 1943 that 1944 do 1945 not 1946 conform 1947 to 1948 a 1949 narrow 1950 set 1951 of 1952 norms 1953 are 1954 not 1955 set 1956 up 1957 to 1958 “thrive 1959 or 1960 survive’’ 1961 in 1962 higher 1963 education 1964 (Dolmage, 1965 2017). 1966 As 1967 discussed 1968 in 1969 the 1970 section 1971 of 1972 this 1973 thesis 1974 titled 1975 Normate, 1976 this 1977 exclusion 1978 was 1979 designed 1980 into 1981 the 1982 system. 1983 1984 In 1985 this 1986 section, 1987 I 1988 build 1989 on 1990 the 1991 work 1992 of 1993 scholars 1994 seeking 1995 justice 1996 by 1997 resisting systems 1998 of 1999 power 2000 using 2001 movement 2002 as 2003 my 2004 body’s 2005 language. 2006 I 2007 value 2008 this 2009 movement 2010 as 2011 a 2012 form 2013 of 2014 care 2015 and 2016 resistance. 2017 However, 2018 using 2019 movement 2020 as 2021 language 2022 does 2023 not 2024 fulfill 2025 the 2026 written 2027 requirements 2028 of 2029 a 2030 graduate 2031 thesis. 2032 There 2033 is 2034 a 2035 word 2036 count. 2037 I 2038 contemplated 2039 many 2040 questions 2041 while 2042 approaching 2043 these 2044 required 2045 words: 2046 Do 2047 I 2048 use 2049 academic 2050 language 2051 to 2052 give 2053 myself 2054 credibility 2055 and 2056 ensure 2057 the 2058 ideas 2059 I 2060 present 2061 are 2062 respected 2063 by 2064 others 2065 in 2066 the 2067 field? 2068 Do 2069 I 2070 ignore 2071 conventional 2072 academic 2073 writing 2074 and 2075 write 2076 using 2077 sarcasm 2078 to 2079 showcase 2080 my 2081 exhaustion 2082 and 2083 frustration 2084 with 2085 unjust 2086 systems? 2087 Do 2088 I 2089 move 2090 my 2091 body 2092 and 2093 ignore 2094 writing 2095 altogether? 2096 This 2097 tension 2098 is 2099 performed 2100 throughout 2101 this 2102 document 2103 and 2104 reflects 2105 my 2106 struggle 2107 with 2108 using 2109 written 2110 language, 2111 academic 2112 written 2113 language, 2114 and 2115 movement 2116 as 2117 language. 2118 The 2119 document 2120 embraces 2121 all 2122 three 2123 and 2124 aims 2125 to 2126 resist 2127 historic 2128 injustice 2129 against 2130 3 non-conformative 3 Non-conformative and non-conforming are often used when describing gender. A person with 2131 a non-conforming gender identity does not conform to the gendered expectations put upon them. In this case, a non-conformative bodymind is anyone who does not fit 2132 bodyminds. our culture’s expectations of “normal” or “functional” (Sins Invalid, n.d.) 2133 I 2134 explore 2135 the 2136 use 2137 of 2138 various 2139 modes 2140 of 2141 communication 2142 as 2143 tools 2144 to 2145 subvert 2146 the 2147 systemic 2148 barriers 2149 that 2150 sick, 2151 disabled, 2152 neurodivergent, 2153 or 2154 otherwise 2155 non-conforming 2156 folks 2157 often 2158 experience 2159 in 2160 academic 2161 contexts. 2162 Joy 2163 is 2164 part 2165 of 2166 my 2167 practice 2168 of 2169 resistance 2170 and 2171 retooling. 2172 Joy 2173 indicates 2174 self-compassion 2175 and 2176 is 2177 present 2178 in 2179 the 2180 communication 2181 styles 2182 I 2183 choose 2184 to 2185 use. 2186 I 2187 created 2188 pieces 2189 of 2190 this 2191 document 2192 throughout 2193 an 2194 incredibly 2195 difficult 2196 couple 2197 of 2198 years 2199 and 2200 often 2201 found 2202 myself 2203 confronting 2204 an 2205 academia 2206 that 2207 does 2208 not 2209 prioritize 2210 joy. 2211 The 2212 academic 2213 machine 2214 was, 2215 as 2216 my 2217 mother 2218 would 2219 say, 2220 sucking 2221 my 2222 will 2223 to 2224 live. 2225 I 2226 chose 2227 to 2228 resist 2229 this 2230 machine 2231 and 2232 prioritize 2233 the 2234 things 2235 that 2236 allowed 2237 me 2238 to 2239 feel 2240 joy. 2241 I 2242 wrote 2243 things 2244 that 2245 made 2246 me 2247 feel 2248 joy. 2249 I 2250 moved 2251 to 2252 explore 2253 joy. 2254 I 2255 resisted 2256 through 2257 joy. 2258 2259 NONSENSE INTRODUCTION 2260 AND 2261 CONTEXT TONE 2262 / 2263 LANGUAGE 2264 [ID] 2265 This 2266 graphic 2267 represents 2268 the 2269 tone 2270 or 2271 language. 2272 A 2273 circle 2274 with 2275 three 2276 gradient 2277 colours. 2278 The 2279 left 2280 of 2281 the 2282 circle 2283 is 2284 yellow 2285 with 2286 text 2287 above 2288 it 2289 that 2290 says 2291 “Personal”, 2292 bottom 2293 is 2294 blue 2295 with 2296 text 2297 that 2298 says 2299 “Movement”, 2300 the 2301 right 2302 is 2303 red 2304 with 2305 text 2306 that 2307 says 2308 “Academic”. 2309 The 2310 colors 2311 merge 2312 over 2313 top 2314 of 2315 one 2316 another. 2317 The 2318 color 2319 chosen 2320 here 2321 is 2322 red-peach, 2323 indicating 2324 this 2325 is 2326 written 2327 mostly 2328 in 2329 an 2330 academic 2331 tone, 2332 but 2333 with 2334 some 2335 personal 2336 language. 2337 FEELINGS 2338 [ID] 2339 A 2340 gradient 2341 bar 2342 with 2343 two 2344 ends. 2345 The 2346 left 2347 is 2348 white 2349 and 2350 says 2351 “I 2352 love 2353 school”, 2354 the 2355 right 2356 is 2357 blue 2358 and 2359 says 2360 “I 2361 hate 2362 school”. 2363 The 2364 indicator 2365 lies 2366 between 2367 the 2368 middle 2369 and 2370 the 2371 “I 2372 hate 2373 school” 2374 side. 2375 [ID] 2376 A 2377 gradient 2378 bar 2379 with 2380 two 2381 ends. 2382 The 2383 left 2384 is 2385 white 2386 and 2387 says 2388 “I 2389 have 2390 friends”, 2391 the 2392 right 2393 is 2394 red 2395 and 2396 says 2397 “I 2398 don’t 2399 have 2400 friends”. 2401 The 2402 indicator 2403 is 2404 between 2405 the 2406 middle 2407 and 2408 “I 2409 have 2410 friends” 2411 side. 2412 Friends-ish. 2413 [ID] 2414 A 2415 gradient 2416 bar 2417 with 2418 two 2419 ends. 2420 The 2421 left 2422 is 2423 white 2424 and 2425 says 2426 “I 2427 should 2428 get 2429 a 2430 tattoo”, 2431 the 2432 right 2433 is 2434 yellow 2435 and 2436 says 2437 “I 2438 should 2439 not 2440 get 2441 a 2442 tattoo”. 2443 The 2444 indicator 2445 is 2446 100% 2447 on 2448 the 2449 “I 2450 should” 2451 side. SELFIE 2452 [ID] 2453 Chloe 2454 D'Leen, 2455 a 2456 white 2457 person 2458 wearing 2459 dark 2460 round 2461 glasses, 2462 headphones, 2463 and 2464 a 2465 blue 2466 2467 face 2468 mask 2469 flashes 2470 two 2471 thumbs 2472 up 2473 to 2474 the 2475 camera. 2476 The 2477 background 2478 is 2479 the 2480 Emily 2481 Carr 2482 studio 2483 space. MOOD 2484 RING COLOUR 2485 : 2486 FUCHSIA angry, 2487 happy, silly, 2488 angsty? 2489 [ID] 2490 The 2491 back 2492 of 2493 a 2494 white 2495 child’s 2496 hand 2497 with 2498 three 2499 rings. 2500 The 2501 thumb 2502 and 2503 pointer 2504 finger 2505 have 2506 polka 2507 dot 2508 butterfly 2509 shaped 2510 rings, 2511 the 2512 ring 2513 finger 2514 has 2515 a 2516 mood 2517 ring 2518 with 2519 a 2520 fuchsia 2521 purple 2522 ring. 2523 There 2524 is 2525 a 2526 box 2527 around 2528 the 2529 ring 2530 that 2531 highlights 2532 its 2533 color. 2534 ALTERNATIVE 2535 FORMAT 2536 LINKS VIDEO: 2537 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 2538 s/1U0SdQp-lp-iTXrxRwV4m12lEob 2539 E1dT6?usp=sharin g 2540 AUDIO: 2541 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 2542 s/16uoRXbO5zs68 zlDxiY43CfnAmBO 2543 8XxZF?usp=sharin g 2544 SECTION 2545 CONTENT 2546 “We 2547 inflate 2548 our 2549 work 2550 with 2551 theory 2552 and 2553 difficult 2554 language 2555 in 2556 an 2557 effort 2558 to 2559 sound 2560 as 2561 smart 2562 as 2563 possible. 2564 For 2565 disability 2566 studies 2567 researchers, 2568 this 2569 can 2570 mean 2571 that 2572 our 2573 work 2574 actually 2575 excludes 2576 members 2577 of 2578 our 2579 own 2580 communities” 2581 (Dolmage, 2582 2017) 2583 DESCRIPTION 2584 A 2585 few 2586 months 2587 ago 2588 I 2589 was 2590 reflecting 2591 on 2592 my 2593 first 2594 semester 2595 of 2596 graduate 2597 school 2598 with 2599 a 2600 classmate. 2601 We 2602 discussed 2603 a 2604 particularly 2605 complicated 2606 reading 2607 we 2608 were 2609 asked 2610 to 2611 analyze. 2612 My 2613 classmates 2614 admitted 2615 they 2616 spent 2617 hours 2618 trying 2619 to 2620 understand 2621 the 2622 words 2623 on 2624 the 2625 page, 2626 becoming 2627 more 2628 and 2629 more 2630 frustrated 2631 with 2632 the 2633 seemingly 2634 unnecessary 2635 complexity. 2636 I 2637 thought 2638 I 2639 was 2640 the 2641 only 2642 one. 2643 We 2644 laughed 2645 and 2646 played 2647 a 2648 game 2649 we 2650 called 2651 “Who 2652 can 2653 come 2654 up 2655 with 2656 the 2657 most 2658 academicsounding 2659 nonsense?” 2660 We 2661 laughed 2662 until 2663 our 2664 stomachs 2665 hurt. 2666 We 2667 felt 2668 joy 2669 while 2670 reflecting 2671 on 2672 the 2673 academization 2674 of 2675 design. 2676 I 2677 was 2678 inspired 2679 by 2680 our 2681 collective 2682 joy 2683 to 2684 write 2685 this 2686 essay. 2687 One 2688 night, 2689 cuddled 2690 up 2691 with 2692 all 2693 my 2694 most 2695 complicated 2696 design 2697 texts 2698 and 2699 my 2700 thesaurus, 2701 I 2702 got 2703 to 2704 writing. 2705 I 2706 wrote 2707 with 2708 the 2709 cadence 2710 and 2711 appearance 2712 of 2713 logic. 2714 Excited 2715 one 2716 lunch 2717 hour, 2718 I 2719 shared 2720 my 2721 masterpiece 2722 with 2723 my 2724 classmates. 2725 We 2726 laughed. 2727 My 2728 classmates 2729 expressed 2730 how 2731 similar 2732 this 2733 nonsense 2734 text 2735 was 2736 to 2737 their 2738 experiences 2739 reading 2740 our 2741 assignments. 2742 This 2743 essay 2744 recognized 2745 our 2746 collective 2747 experiences 2748 with 2749 academic 2750 language 2751 and 2752 allowed 2753 us 2754 to 2755 make 2756 light 2757 of 2758 a 2759 difficult 2760 situation. 2761 2762 We 2763 continued 2764 to 2765 play. 2766 One 2767 classmate 2768 brought 2769 over 2770 their 2771 computer 2772 with 2773 Open 2774 API’s 2775 playground 2776 4 software . 4 I want to acknowledge that AI software is often given credit for providing resources 2777 for disabled folks and disabled folks are often cheered as early adopters of AI. However, this characterization can fail to recognize “Tech designers’ reliance on their 2778 imagination of what it is to be disabled and keeps the focus on individual functioning and limitation, rather than addressing the larger context — the poor 2779 infrastructure and social stigmas that work against the full participation of Disabled people in society” (Shew, 2020). There is a racist and ableist underbelly to AI 2780 and a powerful group of people working against it, as showcased in the Crip Technoscience Manifesto (2019). Although it is not the central theme of this 2781 This paper, it is nevertheless important to recognize. 2782 software 2783 predicts 2784 text. 2785 If 2786 you 2787 give 2788 it 2789 a 2790 sample 2791 text 2792 it 2793 will 2794 write 2795 more 2796 using 2797 the 2798 style 2799 of 2800 the 2801 sample 2802 text. 2803 We 2804 gave 2805 the 2806 software 2807 sentences 2808 from 2809 my 2810 nonsense 2811 essay 2812 and 2813 had 2814 it 2815 continue 2816 to 2817 write 2818 smart-sounding 2819 nonsense. 2820 The 2821 following 2822 pages 2823 showcase 2824 the 2825 academic 2826 masterpiece. 2827 The 2828 bolded 2829 text 2830 on 2831 the 2832 next 2833 three 2834 pages 2835 was 2836 created 2837 by 2838 the 2839 software. 2840 ACADEMIC 2841 MASTERPIECE 2842 Despite 2843 efforts 2844 to 2845 determine 2846 the 2847 precise 2848 positionality 2849 of 2850 this 2851 work, 2852 its 2853 location 2854 within 2855 a 2856 greater 2857 design 2858 context 2859 remains 2860 undetermined. 2861 Philosophically, 2862 2863 this 2864 disquisition 2865 subsists 2866 among 2867 satisfactorily 2868 patronized 2869 preconceptions 2870 of 2871 future 2872 identity; 2873 the 2874 ways 2875 in 2876 which 2877 environmental 2878 prerequisites 2879 proposition 2880 epistemological 2881 affiliations. 2882 This 2883 necessitates 2884 intellectual 2885 endeavors 2886 as 2887 a 2888 necessary, 2889 a 2890 sufficient, 2891 or 2892 necessary 2893 and 2894 sufficient, 2895 condition. 2896 Distinguishing 2897 the 2898 functional 2899 artifacts 2900 between 2901 the 2902 necessary 2903 and 2904 sufficient 2905 conditionalities 2906 among 2907 intentional 2908 decoctions 2909 disembodies 2910 the 2911 designations. The 2912 functional 2913 artifacts 2914 between 2915 the 2916 necessary 2917 and 2918 sufficient 2919 conditionalities 2920 among 2921 intentional 2922 decoctions 2923 are 2924 the 2925 designations 2926 themselves. 2927 Such 2928 disembodied 2929 appellations 2930 further 2931 dichotomize 2932 institutional 2933 illiteracies. 2934 While 2935 institutional 2936 illiteracy 2937 effectuates 2938 certain 2939 absolute 2940 functions, 2941 it 2942 guarantees 2943 inadequate 2944 stipulations. 2945 This 2946 is 2947 because 2948 institutional 2949 illiteracy 2950 perpetuates 2951 a 2952 state 2953 of 2954 obfuscation 2955 and 2956 ignorance, 2957 which 2958 in 2959 turn, 2960 allows 2961 for 2962 the 2963 continuation 2964 of 2965 oppressive 2966 and 2967 unjust 2968 systems. 2969 The 2970 term 2971 “institutional 2972 illiteracy” 2973 was 2974 first 2975 coined 2976 by 2977 Paulo 2978 Freire 2979 in 2980 his 2981 book, 2982 Pedagogy 2983 of 2984 the 2985 Oppressed. 2986 Freire 2987 defines 2988 institutional 2989 illiteracy 2990 as 2991 “the 2992 inability 2993 of 2994 individuals 2995 to 2996 participate 2997 in 2998 the 2999 decisions 3000 that 3001 shape 3002 their 3003 lives 3004 because 3005 they 3006 do 3007 not 3008 have 3009 the 3010 information 3011 and 3012 critical 3013 skills 3014 to 3015 do 3016 so. 3017 It 3018 is 3019 the 3020 inability 3021 to 3022 use 3023 the 3024 tools 3025 of 3026 reading, 3027 writing, 3028 and 3029 arithmetic 3030 to 3031 make 3032 informed 3033 decisions 3034 about 3035 one’s 3036 life”(2018). 3037 3038 3039 Characterizing 3040 the 3041 philosophy 3042 of 3043 chronicled 3044 pursuits 3045 straightforwardly 3046 modifies 3047 the 3048 aesthetic 3049 decoloniality 3050 of 3051 persistent 3052 notions. 3053 The 3054 chronicler’s 3055 philosophy 3056 is 3057 the 3058 pursuit 3059 of 3060 understanding 3061 the 3062 world 3063 and 3064 its 3065 inhabitants 3066 through 3067 the 3068 collection 3069 and 3070 interpretation 3071 of 3072 data. 3073 Whether 3074 or 3075 not 3076 the 3077 philosophical 3078 means 3079 of 3080 functional 3081 consumerism 3082 exist 3083 is 3084 a 3085 matter 3086 of 3087 commemorated 3088 documentation. 3089 It 3090 can 3091 be 3092 inferred 3093 that 3094 they 3095 may 3096 exist, 3097 as 3098 they 3099 are 3100 not 3101 explicitly 3102 disproven. 3103 A 3104 provocative 3105 reassessment 3106 of 3107 post-modernist 3108 material 3109 agency 3110 does 3111 nothing 3112 to 3113 further 3114 such 3115 consumerist 3116 tendencies. 3117 The 3118 article 3119 provides 3120 a 3121 provocative 3122 reassessment 3123 of 3124 post-modernist 3125 material 3126 agency. 3127 Postmodernist 3128 theory 3129 has 3130 long 3131 proclaimed 3132 the 3133 death 3134 of 3135 the 3136 author, 3137 the 3138 end 3139 of 3140 materiality, 3141 and 3142 the 3143 ascendancy 3144 of 3145 discursive 3146 meaning. 3147 But, 3148 as 3149 this 3150 anthology 3151 shows, 3152 the 3153 author 3154 is 3155 very 3156 much 3157 alive, 3158 and 3159 the 3160 materiality 3161 of 3162 the 3163 book 3164 is 3165 more 3166 important 3167 than 3168 ever. 3169 Editorial 3170 introductions 3171 have, 3172 historically, 3173 ignored 3174 this 3175 debate; 3176 insisting 3177 on 3178 the 3179 perpetuation 3180 of 3181 nonmethodological, 3182 pro-institutional 3183 frameworks. 3184 This 3185 article, 3186 however, 3187 provides 3188 an 3189 overview 3190 of 3191 the 3192 current 3193 methodological 3194 debate 3195 in 3196 higher 3197 education 3198 research 3199 and 3200 argues 3201 that 3202 the 3203 current 3204 methodological 3205 debate 3206 is 3207 important 3208 for 3209 understanding 3210 how 3211 the 3212 research 3213 process 3214 shapes 3215 the 3216 findings 3217 of 3218 studies 3219 and 3220 the 3221 development 3222 of 3223 knowledge 3224 in 3225 the 3226 field. 3227 Such 3228 avoidance 3229 neglects 3230 the 3231 Cartesian 3232 dualisms 3233 present 3234 in 3235 pro-institutional 3236 conditions. 3237 Such 3238 dualisms 3239 produce 3240 a 3241 tension 3242 between 3243 the 3244 individual 3245 and 3246 the 3247 institution 3248 that 3249 can 3250 be 3251 productive 3252 or 3253 destructive. 3254 It 3255 is 3256 productive 3257 when 3258 it 3259 leads 3260 to 3261 questioning 3262 and 3263 critiquing 3264 the 3265 institution 3266 and 3267 an 3268 openness 3269 to 3270 change; 3271 it 3272 is 3273 destructive 3274 when 3275 it 3276 leads 3277 to 3278 conformity 3279 and 3280 a 3281 lack 3282 of 3283 critical 3284 thinking. 3285 The 3286 aforementioned 3287 disembodied 3288 appellations 3289 challenge 3290 the 3291 pro-institutional 3292 methodohistorical 3293 provocations 3294 present 3295 in 3296 the 3297 very 3298 fabric 3299 editorial 3300 introductions. 3301 Despite 3302 this 3303 nonsensical 3304 disquisition, 3305 this 3306 thesis 3307 exists 3308 in 3309 the 3310 non-existent. 3311 It 3312 exemplifies 3313 the 3314 absurd 3315 circular 3316 confabulations 3317 commonplace 3318 within 3319 academia. 3320 Sentences 3321 with 3322 no 3323 point, 3324 words 3325 with 3326 no 3327 value, 3328 and 3329 significance 3330 are 3331 awarded 3332 through 3333 ostentatious 3334 and 3335 convoluted 3336 vocabulary. 3337 Sentences 3338 that 3339 are 3340 difficult 3341 to 3342 read 3343 or 3344 understand 3345 due 3346 to 3347 the 3348 author’s 3349 use 3350 of 3351 big 3352 words 3353 which 3354 have 3355 little 3356 value. 3357 Such 3358 convoluted 3359 vocabulary 3360 exists 3361 to 3362 demonstrate 3363 academic 3364 superiority, 3365 allowing 3366 gasconading 3367 authors 3368 to 3369 prove 3370 their 3371 worth. 3372 To 3373 those 3374 uninvited 3375 to 3376 the 3377 diminutive 3378 circles 3379 of 3380 academic 3381 language, 3382 such 3383 phrasing 3384 may 3385 convey 3386 an 3387 impression 3388 of 3389 incoherent 3390 irrelevance. 3391 But 3392 to 3393 insiders, 3394 these 3395 opaque 3396 locutions 3397 are 3398 a 3399 sign 3400 of 3401 professional 3402 accomplishment. 3403 This 3404 impression, 3405 though 3406 accurate, 3407 disregards 3408 the 3409 sense 3410 of 3411 self-importance 3412 the 3413 author 3414 derives 3415 from 3416 such 3417 grandiloquent 3418 and 3419 ostentatious 3420 terminology. 3421 The 3422 aforementioned 3423 sense 3424 of 3425 self-importance 3426 far 3427 outweighs 3428 the 3429 need 3430 for 3431 plebeian 3432 comprehension. 3433 Such 3434 a 3435 position, 3436 though 3437 pretentious 3438 and 3439 controversial, 3440 is 3441 unconditionally 3442 absolute. 3443 Entirely 3444 accurate. 3445 Unquestionably 3446 turgid. 3447 Thoroughly 3448 tumescent. 3449 My 3450 position 3451 is 3452 that 3453 the 3454 aforementioned 3455 sense 3456 of 3457 self-importance 3458 far 3459 outweighs 3460 the 3461 need 3462 for 3463 plebeian 3464 comprehension. 3465 Despite 3466 this 3467 acknowledgment 3468 of 3469 superfluous 3470 exorbitance, 3471 this 3472 work 3473 will 3474 continue 3475 to 3476 illuminate 3477 the 3478 conceptual 3479 foundations 3480 of 3481 philosophical 3482 models. 3483 Behavioral 3484 phenomena 3485 have 3486 proven 3487 to 3488 be 3489 essential 3490 in 3491 controlling 3492 the 3493 per­formance 3494 of 3495 variables; 3496 both 3497 design-oriented 3498 and 3499 mechanically 3500 focused. 3501 The 3502 systematic 3503 examination 3504 of 3505 the 3506 resultant 3507 data 3508 has 3509 concomitantly 3510 yielded 3511 information 3512 about 3513 the 3514 observer. 3515 This 3516 paper 3517 has 3518 several 3519 important 3520 implications. 3521 The 3522 first 3523 implication 3524 is 3525 methodological. 3526 The 3527 second 3528 implication 3529 is 3530 theoretical. 3531 The 3532 third 3533 implication 3534 is 3535 practical. 3536 The 3537 methodological 3538 implication 3539 is 3540 that 3541 the 3542 study 3543 of 3544 behavior 3545 is 3546 essential 3547 to 3548 the 3549 understanding 3550 of 3551 both 3552 the 3553 observer 3554 and 3555 the 3556 observed. 3557 The 3558 theoretical 3559 implication 3560 is 3561 that 3562 the 3563 study 3564 of 3565 behavior 3566 can 3567 help 3568 us 3569 to 3570 understand 3571 the 3572 nature 3573 of 3574 reality. 3575 The 3576 practical 3577 implication 3578 is 3579 that 3580 the 3581 study 3582 of 3583 behavior 3584 can 3585 help 3586 us 3587 to 3588 improve 3589 the 3590 design 3591 of 3592 both 3593 physical 3594 and 3595 social 3596 systems. 3597 These 3598 implications 3599 suggest 3600 that 3601 the 3602 study 3603 of 3604 behavior 3605 is 3606 a 3607 powerful 3608 tool 3609 for 3610 understanding 3611 and 3612 improving 3613 the 3614 world 3615 in 3616 which 3617 we 3618 live. 3619 Synthesizing 3620 the 3621 pragmatic 3622 predominance 3623 of 3624 the 3625 User 3626 Experience 3627 methods 3628 within 3629 the 3630 design 3631 canon 3632 forces 3633 proactive 3634 reassessment 3635 of 3636 existing 3637 phenomenologies. 3638 Such 3639 phenomenologies 3640 textually 3641 produce 3642 non-compulsory 3643 recapitulation. 3644 Phenomenology 3645 recapitulates 3646 the 3647 lived 3648 experience 3649 of 3650 a 3651 user, 3652 and 3653 is 3654 not 3655 compulsory; 3656 it 3657 is 3658 a 3659 voluntary 3660 act 3661 on 3662 the 3663 part 3664 of 3665 the 3666 researcher. 3667 3668 Even 3669 when 3670 these 3671 non-compulsory 3672 recapitulations 3673 evade 3674 analysis, 3675 they 3676 are 3677 bound 3678 to 3679 produce 3680 certain 3681 scrutiny. 3682 There 3683 is 3684 a 3685 need 3686 for 3687 prudent 3688 consideration 3689 of 3690 possible 3691 consequences 3692 to 3693 the 3694 evasion 3695 of 3696 sufficient 3697 analysis. 3698 The 3699 non-compulsory 3700 recapitulations 3701 in 3702 this 3703 text 3704 are 3705 not 3706 exhaustive. 3707 The 3708 non-compulsory 3709 recapitulations 3710 in 3711 this 3712 text 3713 are 3714 not 3715 without 3716 potential 3717 risks 3718 and 3719 consequences. 3720 The 3721 non-compulsory 3722 recapitulations 3723 in 3724 this 3725 text 3726 may 3727 produce 3728 unintended 3729 consequences. 3730 The 3731 non-compulsory 3732 recapitulations 3733 in 3734 this 3735 text 3736 should 3737 be 3738 given 3739 due 3740 consideration 3741 before 3742 implementation. 3743 The 3744 non-compulsory 3745 recapitulations 3746 in 3747 this 3748 text 3749 warrant 3750 further 3751 analysis. 3752 The 3753 non-compulsory 3754 recapitulations 3755 in 3756 this 3757 text 3758 need 3759 to 3760 be 3761 scrutinized 3762 more 3763 closely. 3764 The 3765 non-compulsory 3766 recapitulations 3767 in 3768 this 3769 text 3770 demand 3771 further 3772 examination. 3773 The 3774 situational 3775 instability 3776 precludes 3777 the 3778 implementation 3779 of 3780 strict 3781 dissolution; 3782 while 3783 remaining 3784 free 3785 from 3786 perlustration 3787 dissection. 3788 This 3789 becomes 3790 problematic 3791 when 3792 considering 3793 the 3794 intersection 3795 of 3796 perlustrational 3797 dissection 3798 and 3799 absurdist 3800 nomenclature. 3801 The 3802 act 3803 of 3804 perlustrational 3805 dissection 3806 is 3807 the 3808 process 3809 of 3810 breaking 3811 down 3812 a 3813 thing 3814 or 3815 concept 3816 into 3817 its 3818 component 3819 parts 3820 for 3821 the 3822 purpose 3823 of 3824 understanding 3825 it. 3826 Absurdist 3827 nomenclature, 3828 on 3829 the 3830 other 3831 hand, 3832 is 3833 the 3834 use 3835 of 3836 absurd 3837 or 3838 nonsensical 3839 words 3840 or 3841 names 3842 to 3843 describe 3844 things 3845 or 3846 concepts. 3847 When 3848 these 3849 two 3850 concepts 3851 intersect, 3852 it 3853 can 3854 be 3855 difficult 3856 to 3857 determine 3858 the 3859 meaning 3860 of 3861 a 3862 thing 3863 or 3864 concept, 3865 as 3866 the 3867 component 3868 parts 3869 may 3870 be 3871 nonsensical, 3872 and 3873 the 3874 name 3875 given 3876 to 3877 it 3878 may 3879 be 3880 absurd. 3881 The 3882 intersection 3883 of 3884 this 3885 nature 3886 bypasses 3887 accountability. 3888 This 3889 further 3890 upholds 3891 the 3892 need 3893 for 3894 critical 3895 mechanisms 3896 to 3897 work 3898 against 3899 traditional 3900 qualitative 3901 methodologies. 3902 In 3903 layman’s 3904 terms, 3905 I 3906 created 3907 an 3908 essay 3909 of 3910 nonsense. 3911 3912 3913 MEDUSA INTRODUCTION 3914 AND 3915 CONTEXT TONE 3916 / 3917 LANGUAGE 3918 [ID] 3919 This 3920 graphic 3921 represents 3922 the 3923 tone 3924 or 3925 language. 3926 A 3927 circle 3928 with 3929 three 3930 gradient 3931 colours. 3932 The 3933 left 3934 of 3935 the 3936 circle 3937 is 3938 yellow 3939 with 3940 text 3941 above 3942 it 3943 that 3944 says 3945 “Personal”, 3946 bottom 3947 is 3948 blue 3949 with 3950 text 3951 that 3952 says 3953 “Movement”, 3954 the 3955 right 3956 is 3957 red 3958 with 3959 text 3960 that 3961 says 3962 “Academic”. 3963 The 3964 colors 3965 merge 3966 over 3967 top 3968 of 3969 one 3970 another. 3971 The 3972 color 3973 chosen 3974 here 3975 is 3976 blue, 3977 indicating 3978 the 3979 work 3980 uses 3981 movement 3982 as 3983 language. 3984 FEELINGS 3985 [ID] 3986 A 3987 gradient 3988 bar 3989 with 3990 two 3991 ends. 3992 The 3993 left 3994 is 3995 white 3996 and 3997 says 3998 “I 3999 love 4000 school”, 4001 the 4002 right 4003 is 4004 blue 4005 and 4006 says 4007 “I 4008 hate 4009 school”. 4010 The 4011 indicator 4012 is 4013 100% 4014 on 4015 the 4016 hate 4017 side. 4018 [ID] 4019 A 4020 gradient 4021 bar 4022 with 4023 two 4024 ends. 4025 The 4026 left 4027 is 4028 white 4029 and 4030 says 4031 “I 4032 am 4033 hungry”, 4034 the 4035 right 4036 is 4037 red 4038 and 4039 says 4040 “I 4041 am 4042 not 4043 hungry”. 4044 The 4045 indicator 4046 is 4047 closer 4048 to 4049 the 4050 not 4051 hungry 4052 side. 4053 [ID] 4054 A 4055 gradient 4056 bar 4057 with 4058 two 4059 ends. 4060 The 4061 left 4062 is 4063 white 4064 and 4065 says 4066 “I 4067 am 4068 cold”, 4069 the 4070 right 4071 is 4072 yellow 4073 and 4074 says 4075 “I 4076 am 4077 warm”. 4078 The 4079 indicator 4080 is 4081 closer 4082 to 4083 the 4084 “I 4085 am 4086 cold” 4087 side. 4088 SELFIE 4089 [ID] 4090 Chloe 4091 D'Leen, 4092 a 4093 white 4094 person 4095 with 4096 long 4097 red 4098 hair 4099 and 4100 a 4101 black 4102 right 4103 eye, 4104 wears 4105 a 4106 yellow 4107 toque 4108 and 4109 black 4110 hoodie. 4111 They 4112 are 4113 holding 4114 up 4115 two 4116 peace 4117 signs. 4118 There 4119 is 4120 a 4121 black 4122 lives 4123 matter 4124 sign 4125 on 4126 the 4127 wall 4128 behind 4129 them. 4130 MOOD 4131 RING COLOUR 4132 : 4133 PURPLE exhaustion, 4134 burnout 4135 [ID] 4136 The 4137 back 4138 of 4139 a 4140 white 4141 child’s 4142 hand 4143 with 4144 three 4145 rings. 4146 The 4147 thumb 4148 and 4149 pointer 4150 finger 4151 have 4152 polka 4153 dot 4154 butterfly 4155 shaped 4156 rings, 4157 the 4158 ring 4159 finger 4160 has 4161 a 4162 mood 4163 ring 4164 with 4165 a 4166 dark 4167 purple 4168 ring. 4169 There 4170 is 4171 a 4172 box 4173 around 4174 the 4175 ring 4176 that 4177 highlights 4178 its 4179 color. 4180 VIDEO 4181 PERFORMANCE 4182 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 4183 s/1dYw6zxhiEwUM bsBpMuig60k1Sf3 4184 uIiNZ?usp=sharin g 4185 SECTION 4186 CONTENT 4187 4188 Two 4189 distorted 4190 black 4191 and 4192 white 4193 images 4194 layered 4195 on 4196 top 4197 of 4198 one 4199 another; 4200 one 4201 image 4202 of 4203 a 4204 rocky 4205 landscape, 4206 the 4207 other 4208 is 4209 a 4210 birds 4211 eye 4212 view 4213 of 4214 a 4215 person 4216 running 4217 through 4218 the 4219 landscape. 4220 4221 An 4222 hourglass 4223 shape 4224 of 4225 craggy 4226 rock 4227 and 4228 shrub 4229 bisects 4230 the 4231 black 4232 and 4233 white 4234 image. 4235 Mirrored 4236 on 4237 both 4238 sides 4239 of 4240 the 4241 hourglass, 4242 a 4243 person 4244 jumps 4245 in 4246 a 4247 flowy 4248 dress. 4249 Their 4250 arms 4251 extend 4252 behind 4253 them, 4254 their 4255 toes 4256 are 4257 pointed. 4258 4259 A 4260 black 4261 and 4262 white 4263 image 4264 of 4265 a 4266 chair. 4267 An 4268 image 4269 of 4270 Chloe 4271 D'Leen’s 4272 face 4273 is 4274 projected 4275 on 4276 the 4277 chair 4278 and 4279 the 4280 cloth 4281 behind 4282 the 4283 chair. 4284 The 4285 cloth 4286 is 4287 wrinkled 4288 and 4289 the 4290 image 4291 is 4292 grainy. 4293 4294 A 4295 grainy 4296 black 4297 and 4298 white 4299 image 4300 of 4301 the 4302 seat 4303 of 4304 a 4305 wooden 4306 chair. 4307 Shadows 4308 dance 4309 over 4310 the 4311 chair 4312 as 4313 a 4314 projector 4315 shines 4316 an 4317 image 4318 of 4319 a 4320 large 4321 rock 4322 onto 4323 the 4324 chair. 4325 4326 A 4327 black 4328 and 4329 white 4330 image 4331 of 4332 Chloe 4333 D'Leen 4334 sitting 4335 on 4336 a 4337 wooden 4338 chair 4339 in 4340 a 4341 long 4342 black 4343 skirt 4344 and 4345 no 4346 shirt. 4347 They 4348 are 4349 twisted 4350 to 4351 look 4352 at 4353 the 4354 wall 4355 behind 4356 them 4357 and 4358 their 4359 long 4360 dark 4361 hair 4362 covers 4363 their 4364 back. 4365 An 4366 image 4367 of 4368 a 4369 dancer 4370 in 4371 the 4372 desert 4373 is 4374 projected 4375 onto 4376 Chloe 4377 D'Leen, 4378 the 4379 chair, 4380 and 4381 a 4382 hanging 4383 piece 4384 of 4385 cloth 4386 beside 4387 them. 4388 NEUTRAL 4389 BODY INTRODUCTION 4390 AND 4391 CONTEXT TONE 4392 / 4393 LANGUAGE 4394 [ID] 4395 This 4396 graphic 4397 represents 4398 the 4399 tone 4400 or 4401 language. 4402 A 4403 circle 4404 with 4405 three 4406 gradient 4407 colours. 4408 The 4409 left 4410 of 4411 the 4412 circle 4413 is 4414 yellow 4415 with 4416 text 4417 above 4418 it 4419 that 4420 says 4421 “Personal”, 4422 bottom 4423 is 4424 blue 4425 with 4426 text 4427 that 4428 says 4429 “Movement”, 4430 the 4431 right 4432 is 4433 red 4434 with 4435 text 4436 that 4437 says 4438 “Academic”. 4439 The 4440 colors 4441 merge 4442 over 4443 top 4444 of 4445 one 4446 another. 4447 The 4448 color 4449 chosen 4450 here 4451 is 4452 red, 4453 indicating 4454 this 4455 is 4456 written 4457 in 4458 academic 4459 language. 4460 FEELINGS 4461 [ID] 4462 A 4463 gradient 4464 bar 4465 with 4466 two 4467 ends. 4468 The 4469 left 4470 is 4471 white 4472 and 4473 says 4474 “I 4475 love 4476 school”, 4477 the 4478 right 4479 is 4480 blue 4481 and 4482 says 4483 “I 4484 hate 4485 school”. 4486 There 4487 are 4488 indicators 4489 evenly 4490 spaced 4491 throughout. 4492 I 4493 span 4494 the 4495 full 4496 love/hate 4497 spectrum. 4498 [ID] 4499 A 4500 gradient 4501 bar 4502 with 4503 two 4504 ends. 4505 The 4506 left 4507 is 4508 white 4509 and 4510 says 4511 “I 4512 am 4513 thirsty”, 4514 the 4515 right 4516 is 4517 red 4518 and 4519 says 4520 “I 4521 am 4522 not 4523 thirsty”. 4524 The 4525 indicator 4526 is 4527 between 4528 the 4529 middle 4530 and 4531 “I 4532 am 4533 not 4534 thirsty” 4535 side. 4536 [ID] 4537 A 4538 gradient 4539 bar 4540 with 4541 two 4542 ends. 4543 The 4544 left 4545 is 4546 white 4547 and 4548 says 4549 “I 4550 know 4551 how 4552 to 4553 fly 4554 a 4555 plane”, 4556 the 4557 right 4558 is 4559 yellow 4560 and 4561 says 4562 “I 4563 don’t 4564 know 4565 how 4566 to 4567 fly 4568 a 4569 plane”. 4570 The 4571 indicator 4572 is 4573 right 4574 in 4575 the 4576 middle. 4577 4578 SELFIE 4579 [ID] 4580 Chloe 4581 D'Leen 4582 has 4583 a 4584 green 4585 hoodie 4586 tied 4587 tightly 4588 over 4589 their 4590 head 4591 so 4592 only 4593 their 4594 white 4595 face 4596 shows. 4597 Their 4598 braided 4599 hair 4600 is 4601 running 4602 across 4603 their 4604 face 4605 like 4606 a 4607 mustache. 4608 They’re 4609 making 4610 two 4611 peace 4612 signs. 4613 The 4614 background 4615 shows 4616 a 4617 mural 4618 of 4619 butts 4620 reminiscent 4621 of 4622 Hieronymus 4623 Bosch. MOOD 4624 RING COLOUR 4625 : 4626 RAINBOW all 4627 emotion 4628 [ID] 4629 The 4630 back 4631 of 4632 a 4633 white 4634 child’s 4635 hand 4636 with 4637 three 4638 rings. 4639 The 4640 thumb 4641 and 4642 pointer 4643 finger 4644 have 4645 polka 4646 dot 4647 butterfly 4648 shaped 4649 rings, 4650 the 4651 ring 4652 finger 4653 has 4654 a 4655 mood 4656 ring 4657 with 4658 a 4659 rainbow 4660 ring. 4661 There 4662 is 4663 a 4664 box 4665 around 4666 the 4667 ring 4668 that 4669 highlights 4670 the 4671 rainbow. 4672 ALTERNATIVE 4673 FORMAT 4674 LINKS VIDEO: 4675 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 4676 s/1H4rEZlp7HnKG 1IYM2OssKi7V3jy 4677 Sisaq?usp=sharin g 4678 AUDIO: 4679 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 4680 s/1cNfw6VxJdA2p TnmvSZ91xSP0bb 4681 f1TlE?usp=sharin 4682 g 4683 ASL: 4684 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 4685 s/1cbsHRVyNQkAIHw2Ym4_ZVd 4686 m1hZcs7c0?usp=s haring 4687 VIDEO 4688 PERFORMANCE 4689 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 4690 s/1RFBmfY5kOzbufWMwBpIj 4691 wAUGgposJUv?u sp=sharing 4692 SECTION 4693 CONTENT DESCRIPTION 4694 I 4695 explore 4696 the 4697 prevailing 4698 history 4699 and 4700 modalities 4701 of 4702 5 disability 5 DISABILITY // Sins Invalid defines disability broadly “to include people with physical impairments, people 4703 who belong to a sensory minority, people with emotional disabilities, people with cognitive challenges, and those with chronic/severe illness. We understand the experience of disability to 4704 occur within any and all walks of life, with deeply felt connections to all communities impacted by the medicalization of their bodies, including trans, gender variant 4705 and intersex people, and others whose bodies do not conform to our culture(s)’ notions of “normal” or “functional.” (Sins Invalid, n.d.) 4706 oppression 4707 in 4708 North 4709 America. 4710 I 4711 begin 4712 by 4713 understanding 4714 the 4715 advent 4716 of 4717 the 4718 “neutral”, 4719 “average”, 4720 or 4721 6 “normate ” 6 NORMATE // Coined by Rosemarie Garland-Thomson in Extraordinary Bodies (1997). Garland-Thomson explains: The normate 4722 represents a “mutually constituting” figure existing opposite the disabled figure. The normate is the veiled subject position of cultural self, the figure outlined by the array 4723 of deviant others whose marked bodies shore up the normate’s boundaries. The term normate usefully designates the social figure through which people can represent themselves as 4724 definitive human beings. Normate, then, is the constructed identity of those who, by way of the bodily configurations and cultural capital they assume, can step into 4725 a position of authority and wield the power it grants them. … The normate subject position emerges … only when we scrutinize the social processes and 4726 discourses that constitute physical and cultural otherness”. Aimi Hamraie showcases the phenomenon of the universal body that has served as the template for design and 4727 architecture. This normate is “not a neutral body but rather a particular white, European, nondisabled, youthful, often masculine figure whose features remain unmarked‘’. The normate is 4728 body seen as the benchmark for good design (2017). 4729 and 4730 tracing 4731 the 4732 continuity, 4733 transformations, 4734 and 4735 ramifications 4736 of 4737 eugenic 4738 and 4739 hereditarian 4740 movements. 4741 Research 4742 from 4743 Rosemarie 4744 Garland-Thomson, 4745 Jay 4746 Timothy 4747 Dolmage, 4748 and 4749 Aimi 4750 Hamraie 4751 demonstrates 4752 how 4753 much 4754 of 4755 the 4756 oppression 4757 and 4758 exclusion 4759 of 4760 sick, 4761 disabled, 4762 and 4763 neurodivergent 4764 folks 4765 is 4766 rationalized 4767 through 4768 the 4769 guise 4770 of 4771 scientific 4772 validity. 4773 This 4774 science 4775 was 4776 built 4777 on 4778 flawed 4779 and 4780 biased 4781 data 4782 collected 4783 from 4784 anthropometric 4785 and 4786 psychological 4787 written 4788 and 4789 drawn 4790 tests. 4791 These 4792 tests 4793 had, 4794 and 4795 continue 4796 to 4797 have, 4798 catastrophic 4799 effects 4800 on 4801 people 4802 outside 4803 of 4804 the 4805 “normate” 4806 body. 4807 This 4808 project 4809 aims 4810 to 4811 deconstruct 4812 the 4813 compulsory 4814 nature 4815 of 4816 the 4817 “average” 4818 body 4819 and 4820 reflect 4821 on 4822 universal 4823 expectations 4824 through 4825 choreographed 4826 performance. 4827 LANGUAGE 4828 ACKNOWLEDGME NT 4829 Disability 4830 language 4831 is 4832 culturally 4833 situated, 4834 complex, 4835 and 4836 largely 4837 influenced 4838 by 4839 systems 4840 of 4841 power 4842 (Disabled 4843 Hikers, 4844 2021). 4845 Person-first 4846 language 4847 (“person 4848 with 4849 a 4850 disability”) 4851 is 4852 predominantly 4853 used 4854 in 4855 academia, 4856 social 4857 work, 4858 and 4859 universal 4860 7 design 7 This project discusses Universal Design and Universalism. Despite their linguistic similarities, these terms describe 4861 very different ideologies. Universalism in the Modernist Design movement shares much of its rationale with colonialism, one size fits all. Universal Design (UD), on the other 4862 hand, is an approach to the design of the built environment that aims to create spaces as accessible as possible, for the most diverse set of 4863 bodies possible, from the outset. Contemporary UD is focused on collective access, social sustainability, interdependence, and intersectionality (Hamarie 2013 & Crenshaw 1989). 4864 (Eiler, 4865 2020); 4866 identity-first 4867 language 4868 (“disabled 4869 person”) 4870 is 4871 more 4872 commonly 4873 used 4874 by 4875 disability 4876 activists. 4877 Those 4878 against 4879 person-first 4880 language 4881 argue 4882 that 4883 it 4884 separates 4885 individuals 4886 from 4887 their 4888 disabling 4889 experiences 4890 and 4891 the 4892 disability 4893 community 4894 as 4895 a 4896 whole 4897 (Theodosia, 4898 2019). This 4899 can 4900 be 4901 understood 4902 when 4903 compared 4904 to 4905 language 4906 regarding 4907 queer 4908 identity, 4909 a 4910 queer 4911 person 4912 is 4913 a 4914 “queer 4915 person”, 4916 not 4917 a 4918 “person 4919 with 4920 homosexuality.” 4921 In 4922 the 4923 book, 4924 Design 4925 Meets 4926 Disability, 4927 Graham 4928 Pullin 4929 asserts, 4930 “In 4931 the 4932 context 4933 of 4934 an 4935 environment 4936 or 4937 society 4938 that 4939 takes 4940 little 4941 or 4942 no 4943 account 4944 of 4945 impairment, 4946 people’s 4947 activities 4948 can 4949 be 4950 limited 4951 and 4952 their 4953 social 4954 participation 4955 restricted. 4956 People 4957 are 4958 therefore 4959 disabled 4960 by 4961 the 4962 society 4963 they 4964 live 4965 in, 4966 not 4967 directly 4968 by 4969 their 4970 impairment, 4971 which 4972 is 4973 an 4974 argument 4975 for 4976 using 4977 the 4978 term 4979 Disabled 4980 people, 4981 rather 4982 than 4983 people 4984 with 4985 disabilities…” 4986 4987 (2009) 4988 I 4989 follow 4990 Pullin 4991 and 4992 Disability 4993 Justice 4994 organizations, 4995 such 4996 as 4997 Sins 4998 Invalid 4999 (2019), 5000 using 5001 identity-first 5002 language. 5003 This 5004 is 5005 not 5006 to 5007 say 5008 that 5009 language 5010 is 5011 stagnant; 5012 it 5013 is 5014 not. 5015 The 5016 terms 5017 used 5018 in 5019 this 5020 project will 5021 remain 5022 fluid 5023 as 5024 language 5025 changes 5026 in 5027 the 5028 future. 5029 Additionally, 5030 I 5031 acknowledge 5032 the 5033 inaccessibility 5034 of 5035 this 5036 format. 5037 This 5038 text 5039 will 5040 inevitably 5041 fall 5042 short 5043 of 5044 meeting 5045 every 5046 person’s 5047 access 5048 needs. 5049 Writing 5050 is 5051 only 5052 one 5053 mode 5054 of 5055 communication. 5056 There 5057 is 5058 an 5059 immense 5060 ecosystem 5061 of 5062 communication 5063 outside 5064 of 5065 writing. 5066 I 5067 value 5068 allowing 5069 my 5070 bodymind 5071 to 5072 explore 5073 all 5074 avenues 5075 of 5076 this 5077 multimodal 5078 ecosystem 5079 and 5080 make 5081 space 5082 for 5083 movement-based 5084 storytelling. 5085 I 5086 struggle 5087 with 5088 the 5089 need 5090 to 5091 write 5092 and 5093 the 5094 desire 5095 to 5096 move 5097 beyond 5098 writing. 5099 How 5100 do 5101 I 5102 create 5103 a 5104 practice 5105 that 5106 cares 5107 for 5108 my 5109 bodymind? What 5110 importance 5111 does 5112 writing 5113 play? Does 5114 this 5115 writing 5116 have 5117 to 5118 be 5119 academic? 5120 BACKGROUND 5121 Sick, 5122 disabled, 5123 and 5124 neurodivergent 5125 activists, 5126 artists, 5127 writers, 5128 designers, 5129 makers, 5130 and 5131 scholars 5132 have 5133 put 5134 their 5135 lives 5136 at 5137 risk 5138 to 5139 dismantle 5140 capitalist 5141 forms 5142 of 5143 disability 5144 oppression. 5145 This 5146 oppression 5147 has 5148 been 5149 justified 5150 through 5151 legislation, 5152 as 5153 Leah 5154 Lakshmi 5155 PiepznaSamarasinha 5156 (2018) 5157 notes: 5158 “the 5159 state 5160 was 5161 built 5162 on 5163 racist, 5164 colonialist 5165 8 ableism 8 ABLEISM // As defined in Multimodality In Motion (2013) “The relationship between disability 5166 discourse and dominant culture is consistent with any subaltern discourse: power elides its functioning and those on the dominant side are unable to 5167 see their privilege. White privilege, male privilege, middle-class values, “normal” bodies all share the privileged space of default status. In the Differend, Jean 5168 Francois Lyotard (1988) articulated this gulf of language that changes perception between the powerful and the powerless, mentioning the challenges of labor in 5169 discussion with capital, brown bodies in discussion with white, female representing their experience to male, queer to straight. Interestingly, Lyotard omitted disability discourse. 5170 Ableism defines “normal” narrowly, and provides an important position from which to shine light on gaps in language and power. It is at 5171 the site of ableism where power reveals itself.” ABLEISM // As defined by Talia “TL’’ Lewis, in collaboration with Disabled Black and other 5172 negatively radicalized people (2021) “A system that places value on people’s bodies and minds based on societally constructed ideas or normality, 5173 intelligence, excellence, desirability, and productivity. These constructed ideas are deeply rooted in anti-blackness, eugenics, misogyny, colonialism, imperialism, and capitalism. This form of systematic 5174 oppression leads to people and society determining who is valuable and worth based on a person’s language, appearance, religion, and/or ability to satisfactorily 5175 [re]produce, excel, and “behave”. You do not have to be disabled to experience ableism.” (Lewis, 2021) 5176 and 5177 will 5178 not 5179 save 5180 us, 5181 because 5182 it 5183 was 5184 created 5185 to 5186 kill 5187 us.” 5188 PiepznaSamarasinha 5189 is 5190 one 5191 of 5192 many 5193 sick, 5194 disabled, 5195 neurodivergent 5196 9 QTBIPOC 9 QTBIPOC // Queer/Trans/Two Spirit who are also Black/Indigenous/People of Colour. This term acknowledges and 5197 encompasses the most marginalized members of the queer community that exist “at the intersection of racism, ethnocentrism, xenophobia, queerphobia, and transphobia” who often face multiple forms 5198 who of oppression (Salisbury Pride Society, n.d). 5199 are 5200 part 5201 of 5202 the 5203 Disability 5204 Justice 5205 movement, 5206 a 5207 framework 5208 for 5209 demanding 5210 radical 5211 change. 5212 Patty 5213 Berne, 5214 executive 5215 and 5216 artistic 5217 director 5218 of 5219 Sins 5220 Invalid, 5221 writes 5222 that 5223 this 5224 framework 5225 began 5226 in 5227 2005 5228 when 5229 “disabled 5230 queers 5231 and 5232 activists 5233 of 5234 color 5235 began 5236 discussing 5237 a 5238 ‘second 5239 wave’ 5240 of 5241 disability 5242 rights” 5243 (2015). 5244 Anti-capitalist 5245 and 5246 intersectional 5247 work 5248 by 5249 disability 5250 justice 5251 activists 5252 has 5253 challenged 5254 previously 5255 understood 5256 ideas 5257 of 5258 accessibility, 5259 design, 5260 and 5261 community. 5262 I 5263 create 5264 in 5265 solidarity 5266 with 5267 this 5268 framework 5269 and 5270 aim 5271 to 5272 create 5273 a 5274 design 5275 practice 5276 that 5277 puts 5278 Disability 5279 Justice 5280 principles 5281 in 5282 the 5283 forefront. 5284 Disability 5285 Justice 5286 is 5287 urgent. 5288 Under 5289 capitalism, 5290 human 5291 bodies 5292 are 5293 “valued 5294 for 5295 their 5296 ability 5297 to 5298 function 5299 like 5300 machines’’ 5301 (Russell, 5302 2019). 5303 Bodies 5304 that 5305 work 5306 like 5307 machines 5308 maximize 5309 profit; 5310 the 5311 failure 5312 to 5313 do 5314 so 5315 “is 5316 constructed 5317 as 5318 disability” 5319 (Eiler, 5320 2020). 5321 The 5322 social 5323 category 5324 of 5325 disability 5326 then 5327 justifies 5328 exclusion 5329 from 5330 “not 5331 only 5332 the 5333 workforce 5334 but 5335 from 5336 all 5337 participation 5338 in 5339 the 5340 basic 5341 units 5342 of 5343 the 5344 economy: 5345 the 5346 community 5347 and 5348 family” 5349 (Eiler, 5350 2020). 5351 Capitalism’s 5352 focus 5353 on 5354 non-disabled 5355 workers 5356 justified 5357 the 5358 institutionalization 5359 of 5360 Disabled 5361 people 5362 as 5363 a 5364 way 5365 to 5366 exclude 5367 them 5368 from 5369 the 5370 workforce 5371 and 5372 everyday 5373 life 5374 (Nielsen, 5375 2012). 5376 Institutions 5377 were 5378 created 5379 to 5380 isolate 5381 Disabled 5382 people. 5383 These 5384 exclusionary 5385 institutions, 5386 such 5387 as 5388 the 5389 “Provincial 5390 Asylum 5391 for 5392 the 5393 Insane” 5394 in 5395 so-called 5396 British 5397 Columbia, 5398 Canada, 5399 were 5400 constructed 5401 to 5402 keep 5403 the 5404 public 5405 out 5406 and 5407 to 5408 keep 5409 imprisoned 5410 people 5411 in. 5412 Sick, 5413 disabled, 5414 and 5415 neurodivergent 5416 people 5417 were 5418 sent 5419 to 5420 these 5421 places 5422 to 5423 ensure 5424 they 5425 were 5426 not 5427 “mixing” 5428 with 5429 others 5430 in 5431 society 5432 (Dolmage, 5433 2017). 5434 These 5435 institutionalization s 5436 were 5437 part 5438 of 5439 a 5440 broader 5441 ideology 5442 that 5443 took 5444 hold 5445 in 5446 the 5447 20th 5448 century: 5449 eugenics. 5450 5451 The 5452 eugenics 5453 movement 5454 in 5455 the 5456 so-called 5457 United 5458 States 5459 and 5460 Canada 5461 aimed 5462 to 5463 improve 5464 genetic 5465 composition 5466 and 5467 eradicate 5468 “undesirable” 5469 traits 5470 from 5471 the 5472 human 5473 race. 5474 At 5475 congressional 5476 hearings 5477 beginning 5478 in 5479 1920, 5480 Henry 5481 Laughlin, 5482 a 5483 prominent 5484 American 5485 eugenicist, 5486 suggested 5487 that 5488 the 5489 “socially 5490 inadequate” 5491 were 5492 diluting 5493 the 5494 gene 5495 pool 5496 and 5497 legislative 5498 action 5499 must 5500 be 5501 taken 5502 to 5503 ensure 5504 the 5505 future 5506 of 5507 the 5508 American 5509 race. 5510 In 5511 the 5512 American 5513 Journal 5514 of 5515 Sociology 5516 in 5517 1921, 5518 Laughlin 5519 defines 5520 the 5521 socially 5522 inadequate 5523 as 5524 the 5525 “feebleminded, 5526 the 5527 insane, 5528 the 5529 criminalistic, 5530 the 5531 epileptic, 5532 the 5533 inebriate, 5534 the 5535 diseased— including 5536 those 5537 with 5538 tuberculosis, 5539 leprosy, 5540 and 5541 syphilis—the 5542 blind, 5543 the 5544 deaf, 5545 the 5546 deformed, 5547 the 5548 dependent, 5549 chronic 5550 recipients 5551 of 5552 charity, 5553 paupers, 5554 and 5555 ‘ne’er-do-wells.” 5556 The 5557 legislation 5558 rooted 5559 in 5560 the 5561 eugenics 5562 movement 5563 was 5564 aimed 5565 at 5566 immigration 5567 control, 5568 marriage 5569 restrictions, 5570 forced 5571 sterilization, 5572 and 5573 murder 5574 of 5575 Disabled 5576 people 5577 (Spektorowski 5578 & 5579 Ireni-Saban, 5580 2013). 5581 Researcher 5582 Alex 5583 Stern, 5584 the 5585 author 5586 of 5587 Eugenic 5588 Nation: 5589 Faults 5590 and 5591 Frontiers 5592 of 5593 Better 5594 Breeding 5595 in 5596 America, 5597 writes 5598 that 5599 “such 5600 legislation 5601 was 5602 motivated 5603 by 5604 crude 5605 theories 5606 of 5607 human 5608 heredity 5609 that 5610 posited 5611 the 5612 wholesale 5613 inheritance 5614 of 5615 traits 5616 associated 5617 with 5618 a 5619 panoply 5620 of 5621 feared 5622 conditions 5623 such 5624 as 5625 criminality, 5626 feeblemindedness , 5627 and 5628 sexual 5629 deviance. 5630 Many 5631 sterilization 5632 advocates 5633 viewed 5634 reproductive 5635 surgery 5636 as 5637 a 5638 necessary 5639 public 5640 health 5641 intervention 5642 that 5643 would 5644 protect 5645 society 5646 from 5647 deleterious 5648 genes 5649 and 5650 the 5651 social 5652 and 5653 economic 5654 costs 5655 of 5656 managing 5657 ‘degenerate 5658 stock’. 5659 “ 5660 (2005) 5661 As 5662 a 5663 result, 5664 30 5665 states 5666 and 5667 2 5668 provinces 5669 created 5670 sterilization 5671 legislation. 5672 These 5673 policies 5674 were 5675 created 5676 under 5677 the 5678 guise 5679 of 5680 mainstream 5681 scientific 5682 validity. 5683 Eugenics 5684 was 5685 taught 5686 and 5687 studied 5688 in 5689 universities 5690 (Faber, 5691 2008 5692 & 5693 Dolmage, 5694 2017). 5695 Here, 5696 eugenicists 5697 began 5698 to 5699 collect 5700 statistical 5701 data 5702 to 5703 justify 5704 their 5705 work 5706 and 5707 determine 5708 averages 5709 for 5710 bodily 5711 functions. 5712 Physicians 5713 often 5714 used 5715 “anthropometric 5716 and 5717 physiological 5718 instruments 5719 that 5720 measured 5721 lung 5722 capacity, 5723 visual 5724 acuity, 5725 and 5726 thorax 5727 to 5728 lumbar 5729 ratios, 5730 whereas 5731 others, 5732 predominantly 5733 psychologists, 5734 employed 5735 written 5736 and 5737 drawing 5738 tests” 5739 (Stern, 5740 2005). 5741 This 5742 data 5743 was 5744 collected 5745 inconsistently 5746 and 5747 was 5748 full 5749 of 5750 bias 5751 (Allen, 5752 2011). 5753 Nevertheless, 5754 it 5755 created 5756 a 5757 previously 5758 unknown 5759 phenomenon: 5760 the 5761 “normal” 5762 body 5763 (Davis, 5764 2014) 5765 – 5766 or, 5767 as 5768 historian 5769 Aimi 5770 Hamraie 5771 calls 5772 it, 5773 the 5774 “normate 5775 template” 5776 (2017). 5777 This 5778 average, 5779 neutral, 5780 normal 5781 body 5782 was 5783 that 5784 of 5785 a 5786 youthful, 5787 non-disabled, 5788 white, 5789 cis, 5790 male. 5791 This 5792 body 5793 became 5794 the 5795 standard 5796 and 5797 eugenicists 5798 studied 5799 the 5800 biotypological 5801 “variations’’ 5802 from 5803 this 5804 body. 5805 The 5806 normate 5807 was 5808 and 5809 is 5810 used 5811 in 5812 medicine, 5813 industrial 5814 design, 5815 and 5816 architecture. 5817 However, 5818 the 5819 advent 5820 of 5821 the 5822 “normal” 5823 created 5824 the 5825 abnormal, 5826 or 5827 non-normate, 5828 which 5829 had 5830 severe 5831 consequences 5832 for 5833 non-normate 5834 populations. 5835 In 5836 the 5837 United 5838 States, 5839 where 5840 the 5841 “overlapping 5842 demographics 5843 of 5844 people 5845 of 5846 color, 5847 women, 5848 and 5849 Disabled 5850 people 5851 faced 5852 discrimination 5853 and 5854 segregation, 5855 the 5856 normate 5857 template 5858 reinforced 5859 the 5860 effects 5861 of 5862 Jim 5863 Crow 5864 laws, 5865 immigration 5866 policies, 5867 gender 5868 discrimination, 5869 and 5870 institutionalization .” 5871 (Hamraie, 5872 2017) 5873 Abnormal 5874 bodies 5875 were 5876 institutionalized, 5877 brutalized, 5878 hidden 5879 away, 5880 sterilized, 5881 and 5882 murdered 5883 throughout 5884 the 5885 late 5886 19th 5887 - 5888 20th 5889 century 5890 and 5891 beyond. 5892 The 5893 normate 5894 template 5895 has 5896 not 5897 only 5898 been 5899 adopted 5900 in 5901 medicine 5902 but 5903 also 5904 in 5905 design. 5906 At 5907 a 5908 time 5909 of 5910 widespread 5911 eugenics, 5912 “streamline 5913 designers 5914 approached 5915 products 5916 the 5917 same 5918 way 5919 eugenicists 5920 approached 5921 bodies. 5922 Both 5923 considered 5924 themselves 5925 to 5926 be 5927 reformers 5928 advancing 5929 evolutionary 5930 progress 5931 through 5932 increased 5933 efficiency, 5934 hygiene, 5935 and 5936 the 5937 creation 5938 of 5939 a 5940 utopian 5941 “ideal 5942 type” 5943 (Cogdell, 5944 2010). 5945 The 5946 modernist 5947 design 5948 movement 5949 that 5950 developed 5951 rejected 5952 previously 5953 used 5954 technology 5955 in 5956 favor 5957 of 5958 these 5959 utopian 5960 universalisms. 5961 These 5962 eugenic 5963 attitudes 5964 aimed 5965 to 5966 “cull 5967 supposedly 5968 defective 5969 bodies 5970 from 5971 the 5972 population, 5973 [which] 5974 also 5975 changed 5976 the 5977 nature 5978 of 5979 spatial 5980 inhabitation: 5981 public 5982 space, 5983 often 5984 associated 5985 with 5986 freedom, 5987 became 5988 a 5989 site 5990 of 5991 management, 5992 surveillance, 5993 and 5994 control 5995 for 5996 vulnerable 5997 populations” 5998 (Hamraie, 5999 2017). 6000 Although 6001 the 6002 science 6003 upholding 6004 eugenics 6005 has 6006 been 6007 entirely 6008 discredited, 6009 people 6010 outside 6011 of 6012 the 6013 dominant 6014 cultural 6015 narrative 6016 are 6017 still 6018 living 6019 with 6020 continued 6021 surveillance 6022 and 6023 exclusion. 6024 The 6025 catastrophic 6026 effects 6027 on 6028 non-normative 6029 bodies 6030 include 6031 inaccessible 6032 built 6033 environments, 6034 products, 6035 and 6036 social 6037 systems. 6038 The 6039 ideology 6040 that 6041 streamline 6042 designers 6043 used, 6044 and 6045 the 6046 positioning 6047 of 6048 medicine 6049 and 6050 science 6051 as 6052 all-knowing, 6053 is 6054 still 6055 present 6056 in 6057 design. 6058 In 6059 a 6060 2010 6061 6062 article 6063 titled 6064 Doctoral 6065 Education 6066 in 6067 Design: 6068 Problems 6069 and 6070 Prospects, 6071 design 6072 historian 6073 Victor 6074 Margolin 6075 suggested 6076 that 6077 the 6078 body 6079 “is 6080 essentially 6081 stable” 6082 and 6083 that 6084 “there 6085 is 6086 a 6087 broad 6088 consensus 6089 on 6090 what 6091 constitutes 6092 a 6093 healthy 6094 body.” 6095 It 6096 is 6097 impossible 6098 to 6099 ignore 6100 the 6101 bias 6102 coded 6103 within 6104 the 6105 phrase, 6106 “what 6107 constitutes 6108 a 6109 healthy 6110 body” 6111 (2010). 6112 The 6113 normate 6114 template 6115 created 6116 the 6117 “broad 6118 consensus” 6119 that 6120 the 6121 white, 6122 non-disabled, 6123 cis-man 6124 was 6125 a 6126 healthy 6127 body. 6128 Ableism, 6129 both 6130 explicit 6131 and 6132 implicit, 6133 plagues 6134 design 6135 and 6136 dismissal 6137 of 6138 diverse 6139 bodyminds 6140 remains 6141 commonplace. 6142 In 6143 Universal 6144 Design: 6145 an 6146 Evolving 6147 Paradigm, 6148 Elaine 6149 Ostroff 6150 explains 6151 that 6152 if 6153 design 6154 continues 6155 in 6156 this 6157 manner, 6158 the 6159 “attitudes 6160 of 6161 designers 6162 will 6163 limit 6164 their 6165 understanding 6166 and 6167 appreciation 6168 of 6169 diversity. 6170 They 6171 will 6172 continue 6173 to 6174 shape 6175 their 6176 designs 6177 for 6178 a 6179 mythic 6180 average 6181 norm, 6182 creating 6183 barriers 6184 that 6185 exclude 6186 the 6187 contributions 6188 and 6189 participation 6190 of 6191 people 6192 all 6193 over 6194 the 6195 world” 6196 (Ostroff, 6197 2009). There 6198 are, 6199 however, 6200 radical 6201 and 6202 transformative 6203 scholars, 6204 artists, 6205 and 6206 designers, 6207 challenging 6208 the 6209 historical 6210 narrative. 6211 As 6212 the 6213 author 6214 of 6215 Design 6216 Justice 6217 (2020), 6218 Sasha 6219 Costanza-Chock, 6220 has 6221 said 6222 “one 6223 of 6224 the 6225 big 6226 problems 6227 we 6228 are 6229 facing 6230 now 6231 is 6232 a 6233 normalization 6234 and 6235 elimination 6236 of 6237 anything 6238 that 6239 doesn’t 6240 fit 6241 normative 6242 models. 6243 Design 6244 Justice 6245 as 6246 a 6247 proposal 6248 and 6249 as 6250 a 6251 set 6252 of 6253 practices 6254 is 6255 about 6256 challenging 6257 that: 6258 saying 6259 no 6260 and 6261 pushing 6262 back 6263 to 6264 say 6265 that 6266 there 6267 are 6268 a 6269 lot 6270 of 6271 different 6272 types 6273 of 6274 knowledge, 6275 there 6276 are 6277 a 6278 lot 6279 of 6280 different 6281 types 6282 of 6283 design” 6284 (Imagine 6285 Otherwise, 6286 2020). 6287 Design 6288 on 6289 the 6290 fringe 6291 is 6292 moving 6293 to 6294 acknowledge 6295 the 6296 diversity 6297 and 6298 beauty 6299 of 6300 all 6301 bodies 6302 and 6303 reject 6304 eugenic 6305 normate 6306 ideologies. 6307 Aurora 6308 Levins 6309 Morales, 6310 the 6311 author 6312 of 6313 Kindling 6314 (2013) 6315 describes 6316 it, 6317 “There 6318 is 6319 no 6320 neutral 6321 body 6322 from 6323 which 6324 our 6325 bodies 6326 deviate. 6327 Society 6328 has 6329 written 6330 deep 6331 into 6332 each 6333 strand 6334 of 6335 tissue 6336 of 6337 every 6338 living 6339 person 6340 on 6341 earth. 6342 What 6343 it 6344 writes 6345 into 6346 the 6347 heart 6348 muscles 6349 of 6350 five-star 6351 generals 6352 is 6353 distinct 6354 from 6355 what 6356 it 6357 writes 6358 in 6359 the 6360 pancreatic 6361 tissue 6362 and 6363 intestinal 6364 tracts 6365 of 6366 Black 6367 single 6368 mothers 6369 in 6370 Detroit, 6371 of 6372 Mexicana 6373 migrants 6374 in 6375 Fresno, 6376 but 6377 no 6378 body 6379 stands 6380 outside 6381 the 6382 consequences 6383 of 6384 injustice 6385 and 6386 inequality...What 6387 our 6388 bodies 6389 require 6390 in 6391 order 6392 to 6393 thrive, 6394 is 6395 what 6396 the 6397 world 6398 requires. 6399 If 6400 there 6401 is 6402 a 6403 map 6404 to 6405 get 6406 there, 6407 it 6408 can 6409 be 6410 found 6411 in 6412 the 6413 atlas 6414 of 6415 our 6416 skin 6417 and 6418 bone 6419 and 6420 blood, 6421 in 6422 the 6423 tracks 6424 of 6425 neurotransmitters 6426 and 6427 antibodies’’ 6428 (2013). 6429 There 6430 is 6431 no 6432 neutral 6433 body. 6434 PERFORMANCE 6435 I 6436 engage 6437 in 6438 a 6439 critical 6440 dialogue 6441 with 6442 design 6443 scholarship 6444 and 6445 disability 6446 through 6447 the 6448 traditional 6449 means 6450 (academic 6451 research 6452 and 6453 writing) 6454 and 6455 performance. Morales, 6456 Costanza-Chock, 6457 and 6458 Hamaie 6459 have 6460 put 6461 forward 6462 methodologies 6463 for 6464 examining 6465 the 6466 fundamental 6467 absurdity 6468 of 6469 a 6470 “normal” 6471 body. 6472 Morales’ 6473 work 6474 explores 6475 disability, 6476 sickness, 6477 and 6478 societal 6479 expectations 6480 by 6481 expressing 6482 the 6483 story 6484 her 6485 body 6486 tells. 6487 In 6488 Kindling, 6489 Morales 6490 uses 6491 poetry, 6492 performance, 6493 and 6494 writing 6495 to 6496 situate 6497 herself 6498 in 6499 the 6500 history 6501 of 6502 pleasure 6503 and 6504 pain 6505 (2013). 6506 Morales 6507 demonstrates 6508 how 6509 critiques 6510 and 6511 explorations 6512 do 6513 not 6514 need 6515 to 6516 be 6517 restrained 6518 to 6519 academic 6520 language 6521 to 6522 be 6523 powerful. 6524 Costanza-Chock 6525 examines 6526 the 6527 role 6528 that 6529 systems 6530 of 6531 power 6532 play 6533 in 6534 design 6535 and 6536 how 6537 they 6538 negatively 6539 affect 6540 people 6541 outside 6542 of 6543 the 6544 dominant 6545 cultural 6546 paradigm. 6547 6548 Using 6549 technology 6550 to 6551 drive 6552 inclusivity, 6553 they 6554 work 6555 with 6556 the 6557 transformative 6558 futuring 6559 of 6560 design 6561 and 6562 the 6563 social 6564 justice 6565 work 6566 needed 6567 to 6568 build 6569 these 6570 worlds 6571 (2020). 6572 Hamraie 6573 blends 6574 the 6575 work 6576 of 6577 disability 6578 studies, 6579 crip 6580 and 6581 queer 6582 theories, 6583 and 6584 traditional 6585 design 6586 scholarship 6587 in 6588 their 6589 work 6590 by 6591 building 6592 “critical 6593 access 6594 studies” 6595 (2017). 6596 I 6597 value 6598 and 6599 build 6600 from 6601 their 6602 work. 6603 Additionally, 6604 I 6605 use 6606 Allison 6607 Kafer’s 6608 Feminist 6609 Queer 6610 Crip 6611 (2013) 6612 framework 6613 to 6614 perform 6615 a 6616 new 6617 future 6618 for 6619 non-conforming 6620 bodies 6621 that 6622 combats 6623 able-bodymindedness. 6624 Kafers 6625 work 6626 envisions 6627 a 6628 future 6629 of 6630 feminist, 6631 queer, 6632 and 6633 crip 6634 theories 6635 and 6636 methodologies 6637 that 6638 intersect. 6639 This 6640 work 6641 builds 6642 on 6643 that 6644 principle. 6645 While 6646 reading 6647 and 6648 investigating 6649 the 6650 frameworks 6651 from 6652 all 6653 of 6654 these 6655 authors, 6656 I 6657 began 6658 to 6659 introduce 6660 movement: 6661 dance 6662 and 6663 choreography 6664 as 6665 reflection. 6666 The 6667 frameworks 6668 put 6669 forth 6670 by 6671 other 6672 scholars 6673 question 6674 how 6675 the 6676 use 6677 of 6678 the 6679 imaginary 6680 “neutral” 6681 body 6682 and 6683 the 6684 normate 6685 has 6686 constructed 6687 the 6688 built 6689 environment 6690 and 6691 shaped 6692 design. 6693 I 6694 build 6695 upon 6696 this 6697 work 6698 in 6699 a 6700 non-literary 6701 way. 6702 These 6703 authors 6704 explore 6705 other, 6706 non-written 6707 ways 6708 to 6709 critique 6710 the 6711 systems 6712 of 6713 power. 6714 While 6715 using 6716 writing 6717 as 6718 a 6719 tool 6720 to 6721 interrogate 6722 these 6723 norms 6724 is 6725 vital, 6726 so 6727 is 6728 exploring 6729 performative 6730 ways 6731 of 6732 resistance 6733 that 6734 move 6735 beyond 6736 written 6737 language. 6738 I 6739 have 6740 analyzed 6741 my 6742 own 6743 body 6744 in 6745 comparison 6746 to 6747 the 6748 normate. 6749 The 6750 implementation 6751 of 6752 the 6753 normate 6754 created 6755 not 6756 only 6757 compulsory 6758 able-bodyminds, 6759 but 6760 compulsory 6761 heterosexuality, 6762 and 6763 gender 6764 conformity. 6765 Where 6766 do 6767 I 6768 lay 6769 in 6770 this 6771 field 6772 of 6773 the 6774 compulsory? 6775 How 6776 am 6777 I 6778 complicit 6779 in 6780 it, 6781 and 6782 how 6783 does 6784 it 6785 inform 6786 how 6787 I 6788 interact 6789 with 6790 society? 6791 These 6792 questions 6793 have 6794 no 6795 answers. 6796 They 6797 are 6798 a 6799 rhetorical 6800 starting 6801 point 6802 for 6803 movement 6804 exploration. 6805 The 6806 performances 6807 I 6808 share 6809 here 6810 are 6811 curated, 6812 ambiguous, 6813 and 6814 intend 6815 to 6816 mirror 6817 the 6818 absurdity 6819 of 6820 the 6821 “average” 6822 body 6823 with 6824 the 6825 absurdity 6826 of 6827 performance. 6828 These 6829 curations 6830 contain 6831 secrets. 6832 I 6833 question 6834 the 6835 bodily 6836 idealisms 6837 used 6838 to 6839 build 6840 our 6841 world 6842 by 6843 materializing, 6844 performing, 6845 and 6846 reflecting 6847 through 6848 my 6849 bodymind; 6850 and 6851 I 6852 chose 6853 only 6854 to 6855 share 6856 bits 6857 and 6858 pieces. 6859 There 6860 is 6861 no 6862 neutral 6863 body. 6864 6865 [ID] 6866 A 6867 black 6868 and 6869 white 6870 photo 6871 of 6872 Chloe 6873 D'Leen 6874 dancing. 6875 Their 6876 hair 6877 is 6878 pulled 6879 back 6880 into 6881 a 6882 tight 6883 pony 6884 tail 6885 and 6886 they 6887 are 6888 wearing 6889 a 6890 black 6891 long 6892 sleeve 6893 shirt. 6894 They 6895 are 6896 twisting 6897 their 6898 left 6899 arm 6900 forward 6901 and 6902 looking 6903 behind 6904 their 6905 left 6906 shoulder. 6907 6908 A 6909 full 6910 screen 6911 grid 6912 of 6913 black 6914 and 6915 white 6916 photos 6917 of 6918 Chloe 6919 D'Leen 6920 dancing 6921 in 6922 a 6923 long 6924 black 6925 shirt. 6926 The 6927 grid 6928 shows 6929 the 6930 movement 6931 of 6932 the 6933 dance. 6934 They 6935 are 6936 circling 6937 two 6938 bent 6939 elbows 6940 and 6941 looking 6942 at 6943 their 6944 left 6945 one. 6946 6947 [ID] 6948 A 6949 small 6950 grid 6951 of 6952 black 6953 and 6954 white 6955 photos 6956 of 6957 Chloe 6958 D'Leen 6959 dancing 6960 in 6961 a 6962 long 6963 black 6964 shirt. 6965 The 6966 grid 6967 shows 6968 the 6969 movement 6970 of 6971 the 6972 dance. 6973 Their 6974 arms 6975 are 6976 stretched 6977 straight 6978 in 6979 front 6980 of 6981 them 6982 and 6983 they 6984 are 6985 rotating 6986 their 6987 shoulders 6988 to 6989 move 6990 their 6991 hands 6992 in 6993 and 6994 out. 6995 6996 [ID] 6997 A 6998 small 6999 grid 7000 of 7001 black 7002 and 7003 white 7004 photos 7005 of 7006 Chloe 7007 D'Leen 7008 dancing 7009 in 7010 a 7011 long 7012 black 7013 shirt. 7014 The 7015 grid 7016 shows 7017 the 7018 movement 7019 of 7020 the 7021 dance. 7022 They 7023 are 7024 raising 7025 their 7026 arms 7027 in 7028 a 7029 o 90 7030 angle 7031 above 7032 their 7033 head. 7034 Chloe 7035 D'Leen’s 7036 looking 7037 down 7038 at 7039 the 7040 floor. 7041 7042 7043 [ID] 7044 A 7045 small, 7046 slightly 7047 blurry, 7048 grid 7049 of 7050 black 7051 and 7052 white 7053 photos 7054 of 7055 Chloe 7056 D'Leen 7057 dancing 7058 in 7059 a 7060 long 7061 black 7062 shirt. 7063 The 7064 grid 7065 shows 7066 the 7067 movement 7068 of 7069 the 7070 dance. 7071 They 7072 are 7073 rotating 7074 their 7075 bent 7076 elbows 7077 around 7078 each 7079 other. 7080 They 7081 have 7082 a 7083 straight 7084 face. 7085 7086 A 7087 full 7088 screen 7089 grid 7090 of 7091 black 7092 and 7093 white 7094 photos 7095 of 7096 Chloe 7097 D'Leen 7098 dancing 7099 in 7100 a 7101 long 7102 black 7103 shirt. 7104 The 7105 grid 7106 shows 7107 the 7108 movement 7109 of 7110 Chloe 7111 D'Leen 7112 raising 7113 their 7114 hands 7115 to 7116 the 7117 sky, 7118 palms 7119 facing 7120 in 7121 toward 7122 their 7123 face. 7124 They 7125 have 7126 a 7127 straight, 7128 almost 7129 sad, 7130 face. 7131 7132 PROCRASTINATE INTRODUCTION 7133 AND 7134 CONTEXT TONE 7135 / 7136 LANGUAGE 7137 [ID] 7138 This 7139 graphic 7140 represents 7141 the 7142 tone 7143 or 7144 language. 7145 A 7146 circle 7147 with 7148 three 7149 gradient 7150 colours. 7151 The 7152 left 7153 of 7154 the 7155 circle 7156 is 7157 yellow 7158 with 7159 text 7160 above 7161 it 7162 that 7163 says 7164 “Personal”, 7165 bottom 7166 is 7167 blue 7168 with 7169 text 7170 that 7171 says 7172 “Movement”, 7173 the 7174 right 7175 is 7176 red 7177 with 7178 text 7179 that 7180 says 7181 “Academic”. 7182 The 7183 colors 7184 merge 7185 over 7186 top 7187 of 7188 one 7189 another. 7190 The 7191 color 7192 chosen 7193 here 7194 is 7195 yellow, 7196 indicating 7197 this 7198 is 7199 written 7200 in 7201 a 7202 personal 7203 tone. 7204 FEELINGS 7205 [ID] 7206 A 7207 gradient 7208 bar 7209 with 7210 two 7211 ends. 7212 The 7213 left 7214 is 7215 white 7216 and 7217 says 7218 “I 7219 love 7220 school”, 7221 the 7222 right 7223 is 7224 blue 7225 and 7226 says 7227 “I 7228 hate 7229 school”. 7230 The 7231 indicator 7232 is 7233 between 7234 the 7235 middle 7236 and 7237 hate 7238 side. 7239 [ID] 7240 A 7241 gradient 7242 bar 7243 with 7244 two 7245 ends. 7246 The 7247 left 7248 is 7249 white 7250 and 7251 says 7252 “I 7253 ate 7254 today”, 7255 the 7256 right 7257 is 7258 red 7259 and 7260 says 7261 “I 7262 forgot”. 7263 The 7264 indicator 7265 is 7266 100% 7267 on 7268 the 7269 forgot 7270 side. 7271 [ID] 7272 A 7273 gradient 7274 bar 7275 with 7276 two 7277 ends. 7278 The 7279 left 7280 is 7281 white 7282 and 7283 says 7284 “I 7285 like 7286 Vancouver”, 7287 the 7288 right 7289 is 7290 yellow 7291 and 7292 says 7293 “I 7294 hate 7295 Vancouver”. 7296 The 7297 indicator 7298 is 7299 closer 7300 to 7301 the 7302 hate 7303 side. 7304 SELFIE 7305 [ID] 7306 Chloe 7307 D'Leen 7308 is 7309 bundled 7310 up 7311 in 7312 a 7313 yellow 7314 puffy 7315 coat 7316 and 7317 pink 7318 hoodie. 7319 Only 7320 their 7321 eyes 7322 and 7323 a 7324 bit 7325 of 7326 red 7327 hair 7328 are 7329 poking 7330 out. 7331 They 7332 look 7333 cold. 7334 The 7335 background 7336 is 7337 white 7338 with 7339 thick 7340 black 7341 lines 7342 criss-crossing. 7343 MOOD 7344 RING COLOUR 7345 : 7346 PURPLE exhaustion, 7347 burnout 7348 [ID] 7349 The 7350 back 7351 of 7352 a 7353 white 7354 child’s 7355 hand 7356 with 7357 three 7358 rings. 7359 The 7360 thumb 7361 and 7362 pointer 7363 finger 7364 have 7365 polka 7366 dot 7367 butterfly 7368 shaped 7369 rings, 7370 the 7371 ring 7372 finger 7373 has 7374 a 7375 mood 7376 ring 7377 with 7378 a 7379 dark 7380 purple 7381 ring. 7382 There 7383 is 7384 a 7385 box 7386 around 7387 the 7388 ring 7389 that 7390 highlights 7391 its 7392 color. 7393 ALTERNATIVE 7394 FORMAT 7395 LINKS VIDEO: 7396 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 7397 s/1Fn7oc0MN0Lrc SJIoHC7h9gKU9n 7398 Ku0nNV?usp=shar ing 7399 AUDIO: 7400 7401 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 7402 s/196rjJBIQ5YcJE y97xkFftIa8Dt3PJ 7403 K9w?usp=sharing 7404 ASL: 7405 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 7406 s/1EqgkUNg3S48E LS4jAbwKLpNmFI 7407 13qlAD?usp=shari ng 7408 SECTION 7409 CONTENT 7410 PROCRASTINATE 10 10 “Procrastination” is a 7411 byproduct of the socioeconomic system we live in. It is a capitalist version of time that values work and productivity; activities that do 7412 not benefit the system are coded as “procrastination.” This system is built to exploit the bodyminds that are a part of it in 7413 order to maximize profit. I value and love the time I spend that is coded as procrastination. It is a restorative and contemplative 7414 element in my design practice, plus I am an incredible procrastinator (is that braggy? It seems braggy). 7415 Maybe 7416 if 7417 I 7418 just 7419 go 7420 to 7421 a 7422 coffee 7423 shop 7424 rather 7425 than 7426 my 7427 desk 7428 I 7429 will 7430 be 7431 productive. 7432 Maybe 7433 if 7434 I 7435 just 7436 go 7437 take 7438 a 7439 nap 7440 and 7441 then 7442 do 7443 my 7444 work 7445 after 7446 that 7447 I 7448 will 7449 be 7450 productive. 7451 Maybe 7452 if 7453 I 7454 just 7455 take 7456 a 7457 break 7458 and 7459 look 7460 at 7461 my 7462 Instagram 7463 posts 7464 for 7465 the 7466 next 7467 hour Maybe 7468 if 7469 I 7470 just 7471 go 7472 eat 7473 a 7474 11 snack 11 Just checking in here, do you need a snack? I often forget 7475 to eat and it is helpful to have a reminder. You can use this footnote as an intermission. 7476 Maybe 7477 if 7478 I 7479 just 7480 go 7481 take 7482 a 7483 shower Maybe 7484 if 7485 I 7486 just 7487 have 7488 another 7489 snack 7490 I 7491 am 7492 going 7493 to 7494 come 7495 out 7496 and 7497 say 7498 it. 7499 I 7500 am 7501 a 7502 connoisseur 7503 of 7504 the 7505 procrastinative 7506 12 arts . 12 I have had some incredible timesi “procrastinating” over the past few 7507 years. iFor example, I have: Flew a tiny airplane (shout out to Lish, Gui, and the Squamish Municipal Airport) Went on walks. 7508 A lot of walks. (Oh hey there Marg. Cheers to you. Also can’t forget about Jess and Josette, my two heros) Crawled up 7509 some big mountains (looking at you Colin; sorry about all the crying, but also nevermind whatever you weren't always great either) Gossiped (Ethan, 7510 boo, you know what it do) Given my mom an anxiety attack (Sorrrrryyyyyyy, that wasn’t on purpose. I will answer my phone. I 7511 love you) Made sushi (haawa Julia and Nadja) Mailed postcards (Hi grandma! Hi grandma! I hope my last one arrived safely) Built a 7512 sickass snowfort, enjoyed that fresh pow, swam across little lakes and big oceans, made endless cups of tea, had crushes, fallen in love, 7513 broke folks hearts, had my heart broken, cuddled with puppies, and built a freakin’ qajaq. aa Technically I haven’t built the kayak 7514 yet. I also have not ever gone kayaking. But, I am building it next week but I assume by the time you read 7515 this I will have built it and become a kayak master. I hope “I built a kayak” becomes my entire personality. 7516 I 7517 could 7518 teach 7519 a 7520 13 class . 13 I actually do teach a class. Every Tuesday. You’re welcome to join. 7521 Shoot me an email and I will send you the zoom link. dleenchloe@gmail.com (dleen chloe at gmail dot com) 7522 I 7523 have 7524 the 7525 techniques 7526 and 7527 strategies 7528 for 7529 delaying 7530 14 success 14 To clarify I am delaying a capitalist definition of success. My procrastination 7531 is itself very successful. Through procrastination I learned how to whistle with my hands. Here is a video I just took of me 7532 dialed doing it: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1MW-p450aIjdmcYw5SiLnP7_Iad6NcnVD/view?usp=sharing 7533 in. 7534 This 7535 very 7536 essay 7537 is 7538 an 7539 expression 7540 of 7541 my 7542 skilled 7543 15 procrastination . 15 If you're not satisfied with the way this essay is going and 7544 are looking for an academic explanation of why on earth this essay is in here; firstly, simmer down. Secondly, this is an autoethnographic 7545 Did exercise in finding patterns through a deeply reflective practice. 7546 you 7547 know, 7548 according 7549 to 7550 thesaurus.com, 7551 the 7552 closest 7553 word 7554 to 7555 “procrastination” 7556 is 7557 “dawdle”? 7558 Well, 7559 I 7560 did. 7561 Because 7562 rather 7563 than 7564 writing 7565 the 7566 rest 7567 of 7568 that 7569 last 7570 sentence 7571 I 7572 procrastinated 7573 and 7574 went 7575 down 7576 a 7577 dawdling-induced 7578 internet 7579 rabbit 7580 hole, 7581 a 7582 DIRH 7583 for 7584 short. 7585 Know 7586 what 7587 you 7588 can 7589 find 7590 at 7591 dirh.com? 7592 Nothing 7593 good. 7594 I 7595 16 checked . 16 Lol. My stomach just growled so loudly. I wish you could have 7596 We’ve heard it. Anyway, carry on. 7597 got 7598 a 7599 strange 7600 conglomeration 7601 of 7602 news 7603 articles. 7604 Nothing 7605 of 7606 note. 7607 Know 7608 what 7609 you 7610 can 7611 do 7612 rather 7613 than 7614 hanging 7615 out 7616 on 7617 dirh.com? 7618 Anything 7619 else. 7620 Don’t 7621 waste 7622 your 7623 time. 7624 2/10 7625 website. 7626 You 7627 may 7628 refresh 7629 the 7630 little 7631 Croatian 7632 you 7633 know 7634 by 7635 visiting 7636 dirh.gov.hr. 7637 Did 7638 you 7639 know 7640 that 7641 the 7642 Croatian 7643 Chief 7644 State 7645 Inspector 7646 is 7647 Dr. 7648 Sc. 7649 Andrija 7650 Miklić? 7651 Well, 7652 if 7653 you 7654 would 7655 have 7656 properly 7657 procrastinated 7658 you 7659 would. 7660 Here 7661 is 7662 a 7663 list 7664 of 7665 my 7666 proven 7667 procrastination 7668 techniques: 1. 7669 Sorry, 7670 I’m 7671 going 7672 to 7673 go 7674 take 7675 a 7676 17 shower . 17 I had this realization today after I showered that I don’t think 7677 I have ever gone through an entire stick of deodorant. I’ve never reached the end of one. I mean I don’t wear it 7678 all that often I guess? Do I smell bad all the time? Something to think about. 7679 I 7680 will 7681 get 7682 back 7683 to 7684 writing 7685 this 7686 18 later . 18 I forgotii to include an acknowledgements section. Thanks to my supervisor Amber, 7687 my internal advisor and dance instructor Bonne, the MDES 22 cohort, and the seal lion that swam next to me in the Átl'ka7tsem 7688 last summer. Couldn’t have done it without y’all ii “Forgot” is the wrong word. I didn’t forget. I wanted to find an alternative to 7689 If the “acknowledgments” section. I suppose this is it. Thank you. 7690 I 7691 go 7692 take 7693 a 7694 bath 7695 I 7696 will 7697 be 7698 much 7699 more 7700 prepared 7701 to 7702 finish 7703 this. 7704 7705 SOME 7706 PEOPLE’S INTRODUCTION 7707 AND 7708 CONTEXT TONE 7709 / 7710 LANGUAGE 7711 [ID] 7712 This 7713 graphic 7714 represents 7715 the 7716 tone 7717 or 7718 language. 7719 A 7720 circle 7721 with 7722 three 7723 gradient 7724 colours. 7725 The 7726 left 7727 of 7728 the 7729 circle 7730 is 7731 yellow 7732 with 7733 text 7734 above 7735 it 7736 that 7737 says 7738 “Personal”, 7739 bottom 7740 is 7741 blue 7742 with 7743 text 7744 that 7745 says 7746 “Movement”, 7747 the 7748 right 7749 is 7750 red 7751 with 7752 text 7753 that 7754 says 7755 “Academic”. 7756 The 7757 colors 7758 merge 7759 over 7760 top 7761 of 7762 one 7763 another. 7764 The 7765 color 7766 chosen 7767 here 7768 is 7769 yellow, 7770 indicating 7771 this 7772 is 7773 written 7774 in 7775 a 7776 personal 7777 tone. 7778 FEELINGS 7779 [ID] 7780 A 7781 gradient 7782 bar 7783 with 7784 two 7785 ends. 7786 The 7787 left 7788 is 7789 white 7790 and 7791 says 7792 “I 7793 love 7794 school”, 7795 the 7796 right 7797 is 7798 blue 7799 and 7800 says 7801 “I 7802 hate 7803 school”. 7804 The 7805 indicator 7806 is 7807 in 7808 the 7809 middle. 7810 [ID] 7811 A 7812 gradient 7813 bar 7814 with 7815 two 7816 ends. 7817 The 7818 left 7819 is 7820 white 7821 and 7822 says 7823 “I 7824 ate 7825 today”, 7826 the 7827 right 7828 is 7829 red 7830 and 7831 says 7832 “I 7833 forgot”. 7834 The 7835 indicator 7836 is 7837 100% 7838 on 7839 the 7840 forgot 7841 side. 7842 [ID] 7843 A 7844 gradient 7845 bar 7846 with 7847 two 7848 ends. 7849 The 7850 left 7851 is 7852 white 7853 and 7854 says 7855 “I 7856 live 7857 in 7858 a 7859 parking 7860 garage”, 7861 the 7862 right 7863 is 7864 yellow 7865 and 7866 says 7867 “I 7868 live 7869 in 7870 a 7871 house”. 7872 The 7873 indicator 7874 is 7875 100% 7876 on 7877 the 7878 house 7879 side. 7880 SELFIE 7881 [ID] 7882 Chloe 7883 D'Leen 7884 is 7885 wearing 7886 a 7887 yellow 7888 hoodie, 7889 red 7890 puffy, 7891 and 7892 brown 7893 glasses. 7894 They 7895 have 7896 straight 7897 face 7898 with 7899 a 7900 pink 7901 nose 7902 from 7903 the 7904 cold. 7905 There 7906 are 7907 blue 7908 skies 7909 and 7910 a 7911 white 7912 house 7913 in 7914 the 7915 background. 7916 MOOD 7917 RING COLOUR 7918 : 7919 GREEN thankful, 7920 loved, cold 7921 [ID] 7922 The 7923 back 7924 of 7925 a 7926 white 7927 child’s 7928 hand 7929 with 7930 three 7931 rings. 7932 The 7933 thumb 7934 and 7935 pointer 7936 finger 7937 have 7938 polka 7939 dot 7940 butterfly 7941 shaped 7942 rings, 7943 the 7944 ring 7945 finger 7946 has 7947 a 7948 mood 7949 ring 7950 with 7951 a 7952 dark 7953 green 7954 ring. 7955 There 7956 is 7957 a 7958 box 7959 around 7960 the 7961 ring 7962 that 7963 highlights 7964 its 7965 color. 7966 ALTERNATIVE 7967 FORMAT 7968 LINKS VIDEO: 7969 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 7970 s/1g7y3lP5WOKxG KSROQ6uCc8jcQc 7971 DZHwa?usp=shari 7972 ng 7973 AUDIO: 7974 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 7975 s/1c0iWAqghS9jb gTfeNICKkMVdg- 7976 Pnrek?usp=sharing 7977 ASL: 7978 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 7979 s/1ZDa3f4CfLv7uQ YjGxnemydnNC0g 7980 HLVE2?usp=shari ng 7981 SECTION 7982 CONTENT SOME 7983 PEOPLES Some 7984 people’s 7985 children... 7986 are 7987 really 7988 great. 7989 She 7990 is 7991 one 7992 of 7993 those 7994 children. 7995 Meet 7996 Elise. 7997 Eleven 7998 years 7999 old, 8000 a 8001 gluten-free 8002 mediocre 8003 scooter-er, 8004 and 8005 a 8006 master 8007 eavesdropper. 8008 We 8009 live 8010 in 8011 a 8012 duplex. 8013 I 8014 am 8015 on 8016 one 8017 side 8018 of 8019 the 8020 house, 8021 she’s 8022 on 8023 the 8024 other. 8025 When 8026 I’m 8027 in 8028 the 8029 kitchen 8030 in 8031 the 8032 afternoon, 8033 I 8034 can 8035 hear 8036 Elise 8037 and 8038 her 8039 family 8040 practicing 8041 piano 8042 through 8043 the 8044 wall. 8045 When 8046 I 8047 leave 8048 my 8049 blinds 8050 open, 8051 Elise 8052 is 8053 always 8054 the 8055 first 8056 to 8057 take 8058 a 8059 look 8060 at 8061 what 8062 I 8063 was 8064 doing, 8065 or 8066 how 8067 I’ve 8068 redecorated 8069 the 8070 walls. 8071 Elise’s 8072 bedroom 8073 window 8074 faces 8075 the 8076 backyard. 8077 From 8078 her 8079 second-floor 8080 vantage 8081 point, 8082 she 8083 has 8084 an 8085 excellent 8086 view 8087 of 8088 our 8089 backyard. 8090 Anytime 8091 we 8092 have 8093 a 8094 barbecue 8095 out 8096 there 8097 or 8098 have 8099 friends 8100 over, 8101 Elise 8102 pops 8103 her 8104 head 8105 out 8106 the 8107 window 8108 and 8109 does 8110 some 8111 snooping. 8112 You 8113 might 8114 think 8115 that 8116 all 8117 this 8118 snooping 8119 would 8120 make 8121 her 8122 a 8123 good 8124 spy, 8125 8126 but 8127 you 8128 would 8129 be 8130 wrong. 8131 You 8132 see, 8133 Elise 8134 is 8135 a 8136 vocal 8137 child 8138 with 8139 a 8140 very 8141 small 8142 (if 8143 any) 8144 filter 8145 between 8146 her 8147 brain 8148 and 8149 her 8150 mouth. 8151 “Jodie, 8152 I 8153 saw 8154 you 8155 yesterday 8156 with 8157 your 8158 feet 8159 on 8160 your 8161 partner’s 8162 lap” “Jess, 8163 who 8164 was 8165 that 8166 boy 8167 who 8168 came 8169 over?” 8170 Elise 8171 has 8172 a 8173 way 8174 of 8175 wrapping 8176 you 8177 up 8178 into 8179 conversations 8180 that 8181 could 8182 last 8183 hours. 8184 I 8185 have 8186 seen 8187 Jess 8188 sitting 8189 on 8190 the 8191 porch 8192 for 8193 what 8194 seems 8195 like 8196 days 8197 on 8198 end 8199 chatting 8200 away 8201 with 8202 this 8203 talkative 8204 Lil 8205 snoop. 8206 To 8207 her 8208 credit 8209 - 8210 it 8211 must 8212 be 8213 exciting 8214 to 8215 have 8216 three 8217 young, 8218 cool, 8219 working 8220 folks 8221 move 8222 in 8223 next 8224 door. 8225 I 8226 mean, 8227 the 8228 rest 8229 of 8230 the 8231 neighborhood 8232 is 8233 full 8234 of 8235 kids, 8236 dogs, 8237 families, 8238 and 8239 old 8240 people. 8241 They 8242 don’t 8243 have 8244 mysterious 8245 boys 8246 coming 8247 to 8248 the 8249 front 8250 door. 8251 They 8252 don’t 8253 put 8254 their 8255 feet 8256 in 8257 their 8258 British 8259 partners’ 8260 laps. 8261 I’ve 8262 never 8263 been 8264 the 8265 cool 8266 one, 8267 but 8268 Elise 8269 makes 8270 me 8271 feel 8272 like 8273 I 8274 am. 8275 Her 8276 interest 8277 in 8278 our 8279 lives 8280 and 8281 her 8282 snoopy 8283 insistence 8284 has 8285 made 8286 her 8287 a 8288 friend. 8289 Elise 8290 cares 8291 about 8292 us, 8293 and 8294 we 8295 care 8296 about 8297 her. 8298 8299 SCONE INTRODUCTION 8300 AND 8301 CONTEXT TONE 8302 / 8303 LANGUAGE 8304 [ID] 8305 This 8306 graphic 8307 represents 8308 the 8309 tone 8310 or 8311 language. 8312 A 8313 circle 8314 with 8315 three 8316 gradient 8317 colours. 8318 The 8319 left 8320 of 8321 the 8322 circle 8323 is 8324 yellow 8325 with 8326 text 8327 above 8328 it 8329 that 8330 says 8331 “Personal”, 8332 bottom 8333 is 8334 blue 8335 with 8336 text 8337 that 8338 says 8339 “Movement”, 8340 the 8341 right 8342 is 8343 red 8344 with 8345 text 8346 that 8347 says 8348 “Academic”. 8349 The 8350 colors 8351 merge 8352 over 8353 top 8354 of 8355 one 8356 another. 8357 The 8358 color 8359 chosen 8360 here 8361 is 8362 yellow, 8363 indicating 8364 this 8365 is 8366 written 8367 in 8368 a 8369 personal 8370 tone. 8371 FEELINGS 8372 [ID] 8373 A 8374 gradient 8375 bar 8376 with 8377 two 8378 ends. 8379 The 8380 left 8381 is 8382 white 8383 and 8384 says 8385 “I 8386 love 8387 school”, 8388 the 8389 right 8390 is 8391 blue 8392 and 8393 says 8394 “I 8395 hate 8396 school”. 8397 The 8398 indicator 8399 is 8400 100% 8401 on 8402 the 8403 hate 8404 side. 8405 [ID] 8406 8407 A 8408 gradient 8409 bar 8410 with 8411 two 8412 ends. 8413 The 8414 left 8415 is 8416 white 8417 and 8418 says 8419 “I 8420 am 8421 hungry”, 8422 the 8423 right 8424 is 8425 red 8426 and 8427 says 8428 “I 8429 am 8430 not 8431 hungry”. 8432 The 8433 indicator 8434 is 8435 100% 8436 on 8437 the 8438 hungry 8439 side. 8440 [ID] 8441 A 8442 gradient 8443 bar 8444 with 8445 two 8446 ends. 8447 The 8448 left 8449 is 8450 white 8451 and 8452 says 8453 “I 8454 like 8455 rain”, 8456 the 8457 right 8458 is 8459 yellow 8460 and 8461 says 8462 “I 8463 hate 8464 rain”. 8465 The 8466 indicator 8467 is 8468 closer 8469 to 8470 the 8471 “I 8472 like 8473 rain” 8474 side. 8475 SELFIE 8476 [ID] 8477 Chloe 8478 D'Leen, 8479 a 8480 white 8481 person 8482 in 8483 a 8484 black 8485 hat 8486 wears 8487 a 8488 pink 8489 hoodie 8490 that 8491 says 8492 “Not 8493 a 8494 girl” 8495 across 8496 the 8497 front. 8498 They 8499 are 8500 crossing 8501 their 8502 eyes 8503 and 8504 sticking 8505 out 8506 their 8507 tongue. 8508 They 8509 are 8510 sitting 8511 on 8512 a 8513 gray 8514 front 8515 seat 8516 of 8517 a 8518 car. 8519 MOOD 8520 RING COLOUR 8521 : 8522 PURPLE exhaustion, 8523 burnout50 8524 [ID] 8525 The 8526 back 8527 of 8528 a 8529 white 8530 child’s 8531 hand 8532 with 8533 three 8534 rings. 8535 The 8536 thumb 8537 and 8538 pointer 8539 finger 8540 have 8541 polka 8542 dot 8543 butterfly 8544 shaped 8545 rings, 8546 the 8547 ring 8548 finger 8549 has 8550 a 8551 mood 8552 ring 8553 with 8554 a 8555 dark 8556 purple 8557 ring. 8558 There 8559 is 8560 a 8561 box 8562 around 8563 the 8564 ring 8565 that 8566 highlights 8567 its 8568 color. 8569 ALTERNATIVE 8570 FORMAT 8571 LINKS VIDEO: 8572 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 8573 s/1sSIVH54zbtjxD NcZqGlEylDsZMhs 8574 o1AP?usp=sharin g 8575 AUDIO: 8576 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 8577 s/1sSIVH54zbtjxD NcZqGlEylDsZMhs 8578 o1AP?usp=sharin g 8579 ASL: 8580 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 8581 s/1ZDa3f4CfLv7uQ YjGxnemydnNC0g 8582 HLVE2?usp=shari ng 8583 SECTION 8584 CONTENT SCONE 8585 I 8586 am 8587 not 8588 a 8589 huge 8590 fan 8591 of 8592 scones, 8593 but 8594 this 8595 one 8596 looked 8597 different. 8598 In 8599 the 8600 row 8601 of 8602 coffee 8603 shop 8604 pastries, 8605 it 8606 just 8607 stood 8608 out. 8609 Its 8610 shiny 8611 top 8612 with 8613 visible 8614 flakey 8615 edges. 8616 A 8617 small 8618 drizzle 8619 of 8620 white 8621 icing 8622 zig-zagging 8623 across 8624 the 8625 top. 8626 It 8627 was 8628 whispering 8629 to 8630 me, 8631 “You 8632 need 8633 me, 8634 I 8635 am 8636 worth 8637 the 8638 $5.00, 8639 look 8640 at 8641 my 8642 delicious 8643 curves 8644 baked 8645 to 8646 perfection.” 8647 The 8648 sconey 8649 whispers, 8650 coupled 8651 with 8652 the 8653 barista 8654 asking 8655 for 8656 my 8657 order 8658 before 8659 I 8660 was 8661 ready, 8662 created 8663 the 8664 perfect 8665 storm. 8666 I 8667 panicked, 8668 and 8669 the 8670 scones 8671 song 8672 took 8673 over 8674 me, 8675 “I’ll 8676 have 8677 a 8678 small 8679 Americano 8680 and 8681 a 8682 scone 8683 please.” 8684 8685 The 8686 barista 8687 presented 8688 the 8689 pretty 8690 scone 8691 on 8692 a 8693 platter, 8694 with 8695 a 8696 little 8697 perfect 8698 plate. 8699 I 8700 plucked 8701 the 8702 plate 8703 off 8704 the 8705 platter 8706 and 8707 took 8708 the 8709 scone 8710 and 8711 my 8712 small 8713 coffee 8714 upstairs 8715 to 8716 enjoy 8717 as 8718 I 8719 sat 8720 down 8721 to 8722 write. 8723 I 8724 opened 8725 a 8726 blank 8727 document 8728 on 8729 my 8730 computer 8731 and 8732 took 8733 a 8734 bite 8735 of 8736 the 8737 beautiful 8738 scone. 8739 The 8740 texture 8741 of 8742 the 8743 scone 8744 hits 8745 first, 8746 a 8747 small 8748 crunch 8749 then 8750 a 8751 soft 8752 interior. 8753 This 8754 is 8755 the 8756 kind 8757 of 8758 scone 8759 that 8760 earns 8761 a 8762 handshake 8763 on 8764 the 8765 Great 8766 British 8767 Baking 8768 Sh…. 8769 Wait 8770 a 8771 second. 8772 What 8773 the. 8774 Did 8775 I 8776 just 8777 bite 8778 into 8779 a 8780 bag 8781 of 8782 potpourri? 8783 Did 8784 they 8785 forget 8786 to 8787 add 8788 sugar 8789 and 8790 instead 8791 pulverize 8792 a 8793 car 8794 air 8795 freshener? 8796 I 8797 can 8798 smell 8799 it 8800 in 8801 my 8802 stomach. 8803 What 8804 is 8805 this? 8806 A 8807 jelly 8808 candied 8809 piece 8810 of 8811 pear? 8812 Why 8813 yes 8814 it 8815 is, 8816 and 8817 it 8818 tastes 8819 as 8820 though 8821 it 8822 has 8823 been 8824 sitting 8825 on 8826 the 8827 floor 8828 of 8829 a 8830 gas 8831 station 8832 for 8833 six 8834 years. 8835 I 8836 sit 8837 there, 8838 with 8839 the 8840 after 8841 taste 8842 of 8843 the 8844 perfume 8845 bottle 8846 that 8847 they 8848 call 8849 a 8850 scone 8851 in 8852 my 8853 mouth 8854 when 8855 the 8856 barista 8857 comes 8858 by 8859 to 8860 check 8861 on 8862 me. 8863 “How 8864 is 8865 the 8866 scone?” 8867 “It’s 8868 delicious. 8869 Thank 8870 you 8871 so 8872 much.” 8873 8874 8875 @moonlightprintin g 8876 INTRODUCTION 8877 AND 8878 CONTEXT TONE 8879 / 8880 LANGUAGE 8881 [ID] 8882 This 8883 graphic 8884 represents 8885 the 8886 tone 8887 or 8888 language. 8889 A 8890 circle 8891 with 8892 three 8893 gradient 8894 colours. 8895 The 8896 left 8897 of 8898 the 8899 circle 8900 is 8901 yellow 8902 with 8903 text 8904 above 8905 it 8906 that 8907 says 8908 “Personal”, 8909 bottom 8910 is 8911 blue 8912 with 8913 text 8914 that 8915 says 8916 “Movement”, 8917 the 8918 right 8919 is 8920 red 8921 with 8922 text 8923 that 8924 says 8925 “Academic”. 8926 The 8927 colors 8928 merge 8929 over 8930 top 8931 of 8932 one 8933 another. 8934 The 8935 color 8936 chosen 8937 here 8938 is 8939 yellow, 8940 indicating 8941 this 8942 is 8943 written 8944 in 8945 a 8946 personal 8947 tone. 8948 FEELINGS 8949 [ID] 8950 A 8951 gradient 8952 bar 8953 with 8954 two 8955 ends. 8956 The 8957 left 8958 is 8959 white 8960 and 8961 says 8962 “I 8963 love 8964 school”, 8965 the 8966 right 8967 is 8968 blue 8969 and 8970 says 8971 “I 8972 hate 8973 school”. 8974 The 8975 indicator 8976 is 8977 in 8978 the 8979 middle. 8980 [ID] 8981 A 8982 gradient 8983 bar 8984 with 8985 two 8986 ends. 8987 The 8988 left 8989 is 8990 white 8991 and 8992 says 8993 “I 8994 ate 8995 today”, 8996 the 8997 right 8998 is 8999 red 9000 and 9001 says 9002 “I 9003 forgot”. 9004 The 9005 indicator 9006 is 9007 100% 9008 on 9009 the 9010 forgot 9011 side. 9012 [ID] 9013 A 9014 gradient 9015 bar 9016 with 9017 two 9018 ends. 9019 The 9020 left 9021 is 9022 white 9023 and 9024 says 9025 “I 9026 live 9027 in 9028 a 9029 parking 9030 garage”, 9031 the 9032 right 9033 is 9034 yellow 9035 and 9036 says 9037 “I 9038 live 9039 in 9040 a 9041 house”. 9042 The 9043 indicator 9044 is 9045 100% 9046 on 9047 the 9048 parking 9049 garage 9050 side. 9051 SELFIE 9052 [ID] 9053 Chloe 9054 D'Leen 9055 is 9056 wearing 9057 a 9058 black 9059 hoodie, 9060 gold 9061 wire 9062 glasses, 9063 and 9064 tiny 9065 pig 9066 tails. 9067 They 9068 have 9069 a 9070 wide 9071 smile 9072 and 9073 are 9074 crossing 9075 their 9076 eyes. 9077 The 9078 background 9079 is 9080 the 9081 front 9082 seat 9083 of 9084 a 9085 car. 9086 MOOD 9087 RING COLOUR 9088 : 9089 BROWN homesickness, 9090 peace 9091 [ID] 9092 The 9093 back 9094 of 9095 a 9096 white 9097 child’s 9098 hand 9099 with 9100 three 9101 rings. 9102 The 9103 thumb 9104 and 9105 pointer 9106 finger 9107 have 9108 polka 9109 dot 9110 butterfly 9111 shaped 9112 rings, 9113 the 9114 ring 9115 finger 9116 has 9117 a 9118 mood 9119 ring 9120 with 9121 a 9122 brown 9123 ring. 9124 There 9125 is 9126 a 9127 box 9128 around 9129 the 9130 ring 9131 that 9132 highlights 9133 its 9134 color. 9135 ALTERNATIVE 9136 FORMAT 9137 LINKS VIDEO: 9138 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 9139 s/1IwEokWy7_0m CU1SxQrtV5vOiG 9140 NxNZBcH?usp=sh aring 9141 AUDIO: 9142 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 9143 s/1IwEokWy7_0m CU1SxQrtV5vOiG 9144 NxNZBcH?usp=sh aring 9145 ASL: 9146 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 9147 s/1qQyK7ux6jaxZkaGaTUDnj2lZ 9148 2i9Z0i2?usp=shari ng 9149 SECTION 9150 CONTENT 9151 @moonlightprintin g 9152 My 9153 Uncle 9154 Kadin 9155 and 9156 I 9157 sent 9158 emails. 9159 Kadin@moonlight printing.com 9160 I 9161 liked 9162 to 9163 send 9164 him 9165 updates, 9166 pictures 9167 I 9168 drew, 9169 things 9170 like 9171 that. 9172 9173 Anytime 9174 I 9175 was 9176 proud 9177 of 9178 something 9179 I 9180 would 9181 send 9182 it 9183 over. 9184 Just 9185 to 9186 share. 9187 Something 9188 funny, 9189 send 9190 it 9191 to 9192 Uncle 9193 Kadin. 9194 I 9195 told 9196 Kadin 9197 how 9198 excited 9199 I 9200 was 9201 to 9202 join 9203 the 9204 climbing 9205 team 9206 and 9207 about 9208 how 9209 I 9210 had 9211 nearly 9212 broken 9213 my 9214 ankle 9215 falling 9216 off 9217 a 9218 climbing 9219 route. 9220 A 9221 few 9222 years 9223 ago 9224 Kadin 9225 died 9226 of 9227 cancer. 9228 It 9229 sucked. I 9230 never 9231 got 9232 to 9233 send 9234 the 9235 email 9236 to 9237 tell 9238 him 9239 that 9240 I 9241 went 9242 to 9243 climbing 9244 nationals, 9245 and 9246 nearly 9247 broke 9248 the 9249 other 9250 ankle. 9251 I 9252 graduated 9253 college! 9254 I 9255 moved 9256 to 9257 an 9258 Island! 9259 All 9260 things 9261 that 9262 would 9263 have 9264 made 9265 excellent 9266 subject 9267 lines. 9268 9269 The 9270 impulse 9271 to 9272 send 9273 him 9274 an 9275 email 9276 hasn’t 9277 stopped. 9278 9279 Today 9280 I 9281 watched 9282 a 9283 video 9284 mashup 9285 someone 9286 on 9287 the 9288 internet 9289 made, 9290 smashing 9291 a 9292 disco 9293 song 9294 and 9295 a 9296 Metallica 9297 song. 9298 I 9299 immediately 9300 copied 9301 the 9302 link 9303 to 9304 send 9305 to 9306 him. 9307 Then 9308 my 9309 throat 9310 got 9311 stuck. 9312 It 9313 is 9314 the 9315 same 9316 feeling 9317 I 9318 got 9319 as 9320 a 9321 kid 9322 when 9323 I 9324 was 9325 crying 9326 really 9327 hard. 9328 My 9329 throat 9330 gets 9331 stuck, 9332 too 9333 tight 9334 to 9335 talk, 9336 the 9337 only 9338 thing 9339 that 9340 can 9341 come 9342 is 9343 tears. 9344 I 9345 think 9346 he 9347 would 9348 have 9349 liked 9350 the 9351 video, 9352 or 9353 at 9354 least 9355 he 9356 would 9357 have 9358 pretended 9359 to 9360 like 9361 the 9362 video 9363 just 9364 for 9365 me. 9366 It 9367 wasn’t 9368 great 9369 big 9370 news 9371 in 9372 my 9373 life, 9374 nothing 9375 grand 9376 or 9377 exciting, 9378 just 9379 a 9380 video 9381 that 9382 reminded 9383 me 9384 of 9385 him. 9386 There 9387 are 9388 so 9389 many 9390 things 9391 about 9392 the 9393 person 9394 I 9395 am 9396 now 9397 that 9398 I 9399 wish 9400 he 9401 could 9402 see, 9403 that 9404 I 9405 wish 9406 I 9407 could 9408 type 9409 out. 9410 Kadin! 9411 I 9412 found 9413 this 9414 video 9415 and 9416 it 9417 made 9418 me 9419 think 9420 of 9421 you. 9422 It’s 9423 a 9424 mashup 9425 of 9426 Metallica 9427 and 9428 disco. 9429 I 9430 think 9431 it 9432 may 9433 be 9434 my 9435 gateway 9436 drug 9437 to 9438 metal… 9439 I 9440 guess 9441 we 9442 will 9443 have 9444 to 9445 see. 9446 Don’t 9447 get 9448 your 9449 hopes 9450 up. ALSO, 9451 guess 9452 what! 9453 I’m 9454 in 9455 Canada. 9456 I’m 9457 going 9458 to 9459 graduate 9460 school, 9461 which 9462 sucks 9463 and 9464 might 9465 be 9466 a 9467 waste 9468 of 9469 my 9470 time 9471 - 9472 but 9473 that’s 9474 a 9475 whole 9476 other 9477 email. 9478 I 9479 am 9480 away 9481 from 9482 the 9483 fam, 9484 which 9485 is 9486 hard. 9487 I 9488 miss 9489 them 9490 all, 9491 basically 9492 all 9493 the 9494 time. 9495 Beatrice 9496 (the 9497 artist 9498 formerly 9499 known 9500 as 9501 Sophie) 9502 is 9503 so 9504 tall 9505 you 9506 wouldn’t 9507 even 9508 believe 9509 it. 9510 She 9511 is 9512 totally 9513 becoming 9514 a 9515 teenager 9516 and 9517 is 9518 very 9519 sassy. 9520 I 9521 was 9522 never 9523 that 9524 sassy….ok 9525 maybe 9526 I 9527 was 9528 but 9529 I 9530 was 9531 way 9532 shorter 9533 than 9534 her. 9535 My 9536 mom 9537 and 9538 dad 9539 are 9540 the 9541 same 9542 as 9543 ever. 9544 Dad’s 9545 still 9546 biking 9547 to 9548 work, 9549 but 9550 now 9551 the 9552 hair 9553 under 9554 his 9555 helmet 9556 is 9557 pretty 9558 gray. 9559 Mom’s 9560 still 9561 posting 9562 on 9563 Facebook 9564 and 9565 looking 9566 at 9567 birds 9568 out 9569 the 9570 window 9571 - 9572 but 9573 now 9574 she 9575 has 9576 binoculars. 9577 Devan 9578 and 9579 Marie 9580 are 9581 married! 9582 They’ve 9583 got 9584 two 9585 puppies 9586 and 9587 a 9588 house 9589 and 9590 the 9591 whole 9592 9 9593 yards. 9594 We 9595 will 9596 all 9597 have 9598 to 9599 go 9600 out 9601 for 9602 a 9603 beer 9604 sometime 9605 and 9606 catch 9607 up 9608 all 9609 the 9610 way. 9611 There 9612 are 9613 some 9614 pretty 9615 ok 9616 breweries 9617 up 9618 here. 9619 We 9620 will 9621 probably 9622 have 9623 to 9624 go 9625 out 9626 for 9627 several 9628 beers 9629 because 9630 hot 9631 damn 9632 there 9633 is 9634 too 9635 much 9636 to 9637 write 9638 in 9639 a 9640 single 9641 email. 9642 Love 9643 you, Chloe 9644 D'Leen Just 9645 once 9646 I’d 9647 like 9648 to 9649 send 9650 that 9651 email 9652 and 9653 see 9654 the 9655 little 9656 notification 9657 symbol, “email 9658 from 9659 Kadin@moonlight printing.com.” 9660 Just 9661 one 9662 more 9663 time. 9664 9665 COURT INTRODUCTION 9666 AND 9667 CONTEXT TONE 9668 / 9669 LANGUAGE 9670 [ID] 9671 This 9672 graphic 9673 represents 9674 the 9675 tone 9676 or 9677 language. 9678 A 9679 circle 9680 with 9681 three 9682 gradient 9683 colours. 9684 The 9685 left 9686 of 9687 the 9688 circle 9689 is 9690 yellow 9691 with 9692 text 9693 above 9694 it 9695 that 9696 says 9697 “Personal”, 9698 bottom 9699 is 9700 blue 9701 with 9702 text 9703 that 9704 says 9705 “Movement”, 9706 the 9707 right 9708 is 9709 red 9710 with 9711 text 9712 that 9713 says 9714 “Academic”. 9715 The 9716 colors 9717 merge 9718 over 9719 top 9720 of 9721 one 9722 another. 9723 The 9724 color 9725 chosen 9726 here 9727 is 9728 blue, 9729 indicating 9730 the 9731 work 9732 uses 9733 movement 9734 as 9735 language. 9736 FEELINGS 9737 [ID] 9738 A 9739 gradient 9740 bar 9741 with 9742 two 9743 ends. 9744 The 9745 left 9746 is 9747 white 9748 and 9749 says 9750 “I 9751 love 9752 school”, 9753 the 9754 right 9755 is 9756 blue 9757 and 9758 says 9759 “I 9760 hate 9761 school”. 9762 The 9763 indicator 9764 is 9765 100% 9766 on 9767 the 9768 love 9769 side. 9770 [ID] 9771 A 9772 gradient 9773 bar 9774 with 9775 two 9776 ends. 9777 The 9778 left 9779 is 9780 white 9781 and 9782 says 9783 “I 9784 am 9785 hungry”, 9786 the 9787 right 9788 is 9789 red 9790 and 9791 says 9792 “I 9793 am 9794 not 9795 hungry”. 9796 The 9797 indicator 9798 is 9799 in 9800 the 9801 middle. 9802 [ID] 9803 A 9804 gradient 9805 bar 9806 with 9807 two 9808 ends. 9809 The 9810 left 9811 is 9812 white 9813 and 9814 says 9815 “I 9816 am 9817 cold”, 9818 the 9819 right 9820 is 9821 yellow 9822 and 9823 says 9824 “I 9825 am 9826 warm”. 9827 The 9828 indicator 9829 is 9830 in 9831 the 9832 middle. 9833 SELFIE 9834 [ID] 9835 Chloe 9836 D'Leen 9837 wears 9838 brown 9839 glasses, 9840 a 9841 black 9842 hoodie, 9843 and 9844 a 9845 black 9846 toque. 9847 One 9848 hand 9849 is 9850 holding 9851 a 9852 blue 9853 coffee 9854 mug, 9855 the 9856 other 9857 is 9858 touching 9859 their 9860 chin. 9861 They 9862 are 9863 making 9864 a 9865 surprised 9866 face 9867 and 9868 there 9869 are 9870 cartoon 9871 hearts 9872 around 9873 their 9874 head. 9875 The 9876 background 9877 is 9878 a 9879 white 9880 classroom. 9881 MOOD 9882 RING COLOUR 9883 : 9884 AQUA confused, 9885 Confident 9886 [ID] 9887 The 9888 back 9889 of 9890 a 9891 white 9892 child’s 9893 hand 9894 with 9895 three 9896 rings. 9897 The 9898 thumb 9899 and 9900 pointer 9901 finger 9902 have 9903 polka 9904 dot 9905 butterfly 9906 shaped 9907 rings, 9908 the 9909 ring 9910 finger 9911 has 9912 a 9913 mood 9914 ring 9915 with 9916 an 9917 aqua 9918 blue 9919 ring. 9920 There 9921 is 9922 a 9923 box 9924 around 9925 the 9926 ring 9927 that 9928 highlights 9929 its 9930 color. 9931 VIDEO 9932 PERFORMANCE 9933 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 9934 s/12p0gSoEq3UHQGxxlgVlBtY 9935 zSRi3gdHq?usp=s haring 9936 SECTION 9937 CONTENT 9938 9939 A 9940 series 9941 of 9942 black 9943 and 9944 white 9945 bust 9946 portraits 9947 of 9948 Chloe 9949 D'Leen 9950 moving 9951 through 9952 a 9953 series 9954 of 9955 facial 9956 expressions. 9957 The 9958 faces 9959 smile, 9960 look 9961 scared, 9962 look 9963 bored, 9964 angry, 9965 annoyed. 9966 The 9967 background 9968 is 9969 pitch 9970 black 9971 and 9972 the 9973 portraits 9974 stand 9975 out 9976 in 9977 high 9978 contrast. 9979 9980 A 9981 bird's 9982 eye 9983 view 9984 of 9985 Chloe 9986 D'Leen 9987 laying 9988 on 9989 a 9990 concrete 9991 floor 9992 wrapped 9993 in 9994 a 9995 dark 9996 cloth, 9997 their 9998 long 9999 hair 10000 covering 10001 their 10002 entire 10003 face. 10004 The 10005 twisted 10006 fabric 10007 is 10008 dark 10009 and 10010 dramatically 10011 stands 10012 out 10013 from 10014 the 10015 concrete 10016 floor. 10017 UBAU INTRODUCTION 10018 AND 10019 CONTEXT TONE 10020 / 10021 LANGUAGE 10022 [ID] 10023 This 10024 graphic 10025 represents 10026 the 10027 tone 10028 or 10029 language. 10030 A 10031 circle 10032 with 10033 three 10034 gradient 10035 colours. 10036 The 10037 left 10038 of 10039 the 10040 circle 10041 is 10042 yellow 10043 with 10044 text 10045 above 10046 it 10047 that 10048 says 10049 “Personal”, 10050 bottom 10051 is 10052 blue 10053 with 10054 text 10055 that 10056 says 10057 “Movement”, 10058 the 10059 right 10060 is 10061 red 10062 with 10063 text 10064 that 10065 says 10066 “Academic”. 10067 The 10068 colors 10069 merge 10070 over 10071 top 10072 of 10073 one 10074 another. 10075 The 10076 color 10077 chosen 10078 here 10079 is 10080 yellow, 10081 indicating 10082 this 10083 is 10084 written 10085 in 10086 a 10087 personal 10088 tone. 10089 FEELINGS 10090 [ID] 10091 A 10092 gradient 10093 bar 10094 with 10095 two 10096 ends. 10097 The 10098 left 10099 is 10100 white 10101 and 10102 says 10103 “I 10104 love 10105 school”, 10106 the 10107 right 10108 is 10109 blue 10110 and 10111 says 10112 “I 10113 hate 10114 school”. 10115 The 10116 indicator 10117 is 10118 between 10119 the 10120 middle 10121 and 10122 the 10123 love 10124 side. 10125 [ID] 10126 A 10127 gradient 10128 bar 10129 with 10130 two 10131 ends. 10132 The 10133 left 10134 is 10135 white 10136 and 10137 says 10138 “I 10139 am 10140 hungry”, 10141 the 10142 right 10143 is 10144 red 10145 and 10146 says 10147 “I 10148 am 10149 not 10150 hungry”. 10151 The 10152 indicator 10153 is 10154 100% 10155 on 10156 the 10157 not 10158 hungry 10159 side. 10160 [ID] 10161 A 10162 gradient 10163 bar 10164 with 10165 two 10166 ends. 10167 The 10168 left 10169 is 10170 white 10171 and 10172 says 10173 “I 10174 live 10175 on 10176 an 10177 island”, 10178 the 10179 right 10180 is 10181 yellow 10182 and 10183 says 10184 “I 10185 live 10186 on 10187 the 10188 mainland”. 10189 The 10190 indicator 10191 on 10192 the 10193 island 10194 side. 10195 SELFIE 10196 [ID] 10197 Chloe 10198 D'Leen, 10199 a 10200 white 10201 person 10202 with 10203 shoulder 10204 length 10205 brown 10206 hair 10207 wears 10208 a 10209 black 10210 hoodie. 10211 They 10212 are 10213 mid-yawn. 10214 The 10215 background 10216 is 10217 a 10218 wall 10219 of 10220 wooden 10221 planks. 10222 MOOD 10223 RING COLOUR 10224 : 10225 YELLOW excited, 10226 happy, 10227 adventurous, 10228 cold 10229 [ID] 10230 The 10231 back 10232 of 10233 a 10234 white 10235 child’s 10236 hand 10237 with 10238 three 10239 rings. 10240 The 10241 thumb 10242 and 10243 pointer 10244 finger 10245 have 10246 polka 10247 dot 10248 butterfly 10249 shaped 10250 rings, 10251 the 10252 ring 10253 finger 10254 has 10255 a 10256 mood 10257 ring 10258 with 10259 a 10260 yellow 10261 ring. 10262 There 10263 is 10264 a 10265 box 10266 around 10267 the 10268 ring 10269 that 10270 highlights 10271 its 10272 color. 10273 ALTERNATIVE 10274 FORMAT 10275 LINKS VIDEO: 10276 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 10277 s/1SBYRk3TwcPin HeubpG6zi_UiPan 10278 1D6TA?usp=shari ng 10279 AUDIO: 10280 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 10281 s/1ZWHjJND3Y7w 0FAp4- 10282 1tDI7qQ093uIiQ3? usp=sharing 10283 ASL: 10284 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 10285 s/1urhfMk_jjGe0Tf wosewRYZcf04y5 10286 UnE1?usp=sharin g 10287 SECTION 10288 CONTENT UBAU 10289 UNPRECEDENTE DLY 10290 BUSINESS 10291 AS 10292 USUAL 10293 I 10294 set 10295 off 10296 for 10297 graduate 10298 school, 10299 as 10300 usual. 10301 With 10302 an 10303 N95 10304 beneath 10305 my 10306 cloth 10307 mask 10308 and 10309 the 10310 federal 10311 aviation 10312 approved 10313 amount 10314 of 10315 surgical 10316 hand 10317 sanitizer. 10318 As 10319 usual. 10320 I 10321 stayed 10322 in 10323 a 10324 room 10325 for 10326 two 10327 weeks, 10328 as 10329 you 10330 do, 10331 and 10332 facetimed 10333 the 10334 life 10335 I 10336 had 10337 just 10338 left. 10339 As 10340 I 10341 paced 10342 around 10343 my 10344 quarantine 10345 room 10346 I 10347 was 10348 notified 10349 that 10350 the 10351 school 10352 had 10353 made 10354 the 10355 switch 10356 to 10357 online 10358 learning. 10359 I 10360 got 10361 this 10362 notification 10363 just 10364 in 10365 time. 10366 Just 10367 in 10368 time 10369 to 10370 move 10371 to 10372 a 10373 different 10374 country 10375 and 10376 realize 10377 I 10378 could 10379 have 10380 stayed 10381 home. 10382 After 10383 moving 10384 out 10385 of 10386 my 10387 quarantine 10388 room, 10389 I 10390 moved 10391 into 10392 a 10393 bedroom. 10394 Or 10395 that 10396 was 10397 how 10398 it 10399 was 10400 advertised. 10401 Technically 10402 it 10403 was 10404 a 10405 living 10406 room 10407 and 10408 my 10409 “bedroom” 10410 walls 10411 were 10412 Ikea 10413 bookshelves 10414 and 10415 assorted 10416 pieces 10417 of 10418 wood 10419 and 10420 cardboard. 10421 It 10422 was 10423 what 10424 I 10425 could 10426 afford, 10427 so 10428 I 10429 made 10430 it 10431 work. 10432 Plus 10433 there 10434 were 10435 10 10436 other 10437 housemates, 10438 ten 10439 new 10440 friends 10441 for 10442 the 10443 new 10444 city. 10445 One 10446 of 10447 my 10448 new 10449 friends, 10450 the 10451 one 10452 I 10453 shared 10454 a 10455 “wall” 10456 with, 10457 was 10458 also 10459 quite 10460 fond 10461 of 10462 sexual 10463 harassment. 10464 Because 10465 our 10466 walls 10467 were 10468 just 10469 bits 10470 of 10471 particleboard, 10472 my 10473 new 10474 BFF 10475 could 10476 hear 10477 anything 10478 and 10479 everything 10480 I 10481 did 10482 in 10483 my 10484 room 10485 and 10486 always 10487 knew 10488 when 10489 I 10490 was 10491 home. 10492 A 10493 real 10494 advantage 10495 for 10496 someone 10497 who 10498 loves 10499 harassment 10500 as 10501 much 10502 as 10503 he 10504 did. 10505 Luckily, 10506 I 10507 was 10508 able 10509 to 10510 practice 10511 my 10512 lease-breaking 10513 skills 10514 and 10515 flex 10516 my 10517 “harassment 10518 paperwork” 10519 muscles. 10520 Even 10521 with 10522 my 10523 new 10524 workout 10525 routine, 10526 nothing 10527 was 10528 done 10529 and 10530 I 10531 was 10532 out 10533 my 10534 deposit. 10535 But 10536 these 10537 are 10538 just 10539 the 10540 things 10541 that 10542 happen 10543 when 10544 you 10545 move 10546 to 10547 a 10548 new 10549 city. 10550 Plus, 10551 I 10552 was 10553 in 10554 this 10555 city 10556 for 10557 a 10558 reason. 10559 I 10560 was 10561 here 10562 to 10563 learn. 10564 Like 10565 a 10566 good 10567 graduate 10568 student, 10569 I 10570 was 10571 zooming 10572 into 10573 class 10574 and 10575 studying 10576 every 10577 hour 10578 of 10579 the 10580 day. 10581 Like 10582 a 10583 good 10584 graduate 10585 student, 10586 after 10587 I 10588 got 10589 hit 10590 by 10591 a 10592 car, 10593 I 10594 made 10595 sure 10596 to 10597 turn 10598 in 10599 my 10600 assignment 10601 on 10602 time. 10603 Like 10604 a 10605 good 10606 graduate 10607 student, 10608 I 10609 was 10610 absolutely, 10611 completely, 10612 and 10613 wholeheartedly, 10614 miserable. 10615 But, 10616 like 10617 a 10618 good 10619 graduate 10620 school, 10621 we 10622 kept 10623 going. 10624 Business 10625 as 10626 usual. 10627 Even 10628 when 10629 my 10630 classmates 10631 were 10632 joining 10633 breakout 10634 rooms 10635 at 10636 2 10637 in 10638 the 10639 morning 10640 because 10641 they 10642 were 10643 not 10644 allowed 10645 to 10646 travel 10647 and 10648 had 10649 to 10650 stay 10651 in 10652 their 10653 home 10654 countries. 10655 Even 10656 when 10657 we 10658 watched 10659 our 10660 families 10661 get 10662 sick. 10663 Even 10664 when 10665 we 10666 mourned. 10667 Even 10668 when 10669 the 10670 wildfires 10671 made 10672 the 10673 air 10674 so 10675 dangerous 10676 to 10677 breathe 10678 that 10679 we 10680 were 10681 told 10682 not 10683 to 10684 go 10685 outside. 10686 Even 10687 when 10688 the 10689 highway 10690 washed 10691 away 10692 and 10693 our 10694 cities 10695 flooded. 10696 Even 10697 when 10698 protests 10699 blockaded 10700 our 10701 roads. 10702 Even 10703 when 10704 we 10705 caught 10706 the 10707 virus. 10708 Even 10709 when 10710 we 10711 sat 10712 at 10713 the 10714 kitchen 10715 table 10716 discussing 10717 how 10718 to 10719 take 10720 in 10721 Ukrainian 10722 refugees 10723 into 10724 our 10725 home. 10726 Like 10727 a 10728 good 10729 school, 10730 they 10731 sent 10732 out 10733 an 10734 email 10735 and 10736 continued. 10737 Business 10738 as 10739 usual. 10740 Things 10741 progressed, 10742 and 10743 after 10744 a 10745 year 10746 and 10747 a 10748 half 10749 I 10750 began 10751 to 10752 get 10753 to 10754 know 10755 my 10756 classmates. 10757 I 10758 was 10759 not 10760 the 10761 only 10762 one 10763 going 10764 to 10765 school 10766 every 10767 day 10768 in 10769 the 10770 middle 10771 of 10772 a 10773 crisis. 10774 We 10775 all 10776 were. 10777 And 10778 we 10779 were 10780 all, 10781 beautifully, 10782 hilariously, 10783 and 10784 lovingly 10785 miserable 10786 together. 10787 I 10788 began 10789 to 10790 find 10791 moments 10792 of 10793 joy 10794 with 10795 my 10796 classmates, 10797 mocking 10798 the 10799 absurdity 10800 of 10801 writing 10802 a 10803 thesis 10804 in 10805 chaos. 10806 I 10807 made 10808 fun 10809 of 10810 our 10811 situation. 10812 I 10813 was 10814 sarcastic. 10815 That 10816 was 10817 the 10818 only 10819 tool 10820 I 10821 had. 10822 Is 10823 it 10824 a 10825 tool 10826 to 10827 bring 10828 down 10829 capitalism 10830 and 10831 the 10832 ableist 10833 foundations 10834 of 10835 our 10836 university? 10837 No. 10838 But 10839 it 10840 made 10841 my 10842 classmates 10843 laugh, 10844 and 10845 that 10846 is 10847 a 10848 form 10849 of 10850 resistance 10851 in 10852 itself. 10853 Joy. 10854 Writing 10855 essays 10856 to 10857 make 10858 my 10859 classmates 10860 smile. 10861 Sending 10862 messages 10863 to 10864 the 10865 zoom 10866 class, 10867 trying 10868 to 10869 make 10870 someone 10871 laugh. 10872 Mocking 10873 this 10874 ridiculous 10875 thing 10876 we 10877 are 10878 all 10879 doing, 10880 while 10881 the 10882 world 10883 is 10884 falling 10885 apart. These 10886 gossip-filled 10887 moments 10888 of 10889 joy 10890 allowed 10891 us 10892 to 10893 connect 10894 and 10895 create, 10896 to 10897 laugh 10898 and 10899 be 10900 joyful 10901 in 10902 a 10903 time 10904 when 10905 it 10906 feels 10907 so 10908 hard 10909 to. 10910 These 10911 moments 10912 of 10913 snide 10914 comments 10915 and 10916 eye-rolling 10917 brought 10918 us 10919 collective 10920 joy. 10921 I 10922 started 10923 this 10924 thesis 10925 process 10926 thinking 10927 I 10928 would 10929 be 10930 able 10931 to 10932 do 10933 what 10934 is 10935 expected. 10936 I 10937 wrote 10938 the 10939 essays 10940 and 10941 did 10942 the 10943 citations 10944 and 10945 wrote 10946 the 10947 way 10948 everyone 10949 else 10950 did. 10951 And 10952 I 10953 was 10954 miserable. 10955 I 10956 hated 10957 all 10958 of 10959 it. 10960 I 10961 hated 10962 school. 10963 I 10964 hated 10965 the 10966 institution 10967 of 10968 higher 10969 education. 10970 I 10971 hated 10972 design. 10973 I 10974 hated 10975 art. 10976 I 10977 hated 10978 zoom. 10979 I 10980 hated 10981 academic 10982 language. 10983 I 10984 hated 10985 being 10986 in 10987 a 10988 city. 10989 I 10990 hated 10991 being 10992 unhappy. 10993 I 10994 could 10995 write 10996 8,000 10997 words 10998 of 10999 all 11000 the 11001 things 11002 I 11003 hated. 11004 I 11005 quit. 11006 It 11007 was 11008 not 11009 worth 11010 my 11011 energy 11012 to 11013 continue 11014 being 11015 miserable. 11016 All 11017 of 11018 this 11019 hate 11020 made 11021 it 11022 hard 11023 to 11024 recognize 11025 the 11026 connections 11027 between 11028 the 11029 moments 11030 of 11031 joy 11032 I 11033 was 11034 having. 11035 I 11036 was 11037 still 11038 finding 11039 joy 11040 in 11041 being 11042 silly 11043 with 11044 my 11045 friends. 11046 I 11047 was 11048 finding 11049 joy 11050 in 11051 making 11052 snide 11053 comments 11054 to 11055 my 11056 classmates 11057 during 11058 class 11059 and 11060 watching 11061 their 11062 faces 11063 as 11064 they 11065 read 11066 the 11067 private 11068 zoom 11069 messages 11070 I 11071 sent. 11072 I 11073 was 11074 finding 11075 joy 11076 through 11077 movement 11078 and 11079 performance. 11080 By 11081 dancing 11082 in 11083 a 11084 staircase 11085 with 11086 my 11087 headphones 11088 on. 11089 By 11090 opening 11091 the 11092 photobooth 11093 app 11094 on 11095 my 11096 computer 11097 and 11098 taking 11099 terrible 11100 selfies. 11101 I 11102 just 11103 couldn’t 11104 connect 11105 this 11106 joy 11107 to 11108 my 11109 thesis 11110 because 11111 I 11112 was 11113 so 11114 busy 11115 trying 11116 to 11117 squeeze 11118 it 11119 into 11120 a 11121 box 11122 that 11123 the 11124 university 11125 needed, 11126 not 11127 one 11128 that 11129 I 11130 needed. 11131 I 11132 needed 11133 a 11134 thesis 11135 that 11136 let 11137 me 11138 learn 11139 and 11140 research, 11141 but 11142 I 11143 also 11144 needed 11145 to 11146 explore 11147 communication 11148 beyond 11149 written 11150 words. 11151 I 11152 needed 11153 my 11154 work 11155 to 11156 be 11157 silly, 11158 full 11159 of 11160 movement. 11161 It 11162 needed 11163 to 11164 reflect 11165 my 11166 struggle 11167 and 11168 frustration 11169 trying 11170 to 11171 do 11172 design 11173 research 11174 when 11175 you 11176 are 11177 preparing 11178 all 11179 of 11180 your 11181 things 11182 in 11183 a 11184 backpack 11185 for 11186 when 11187 you 11188 have 11189 to 11190 evacuate 11191 due 11192 to 11193 wildfire. 11194 On 11195 a 11196 bicycle. 11197 Because 11198 you 11199 don’t 11200 have 11201 a 11202 car. 11203 And 11204 you 11205 just 11206 hope 11207 all 11208 those 11209 youtube 11210 workouts 11211 have 11212 made 11213 your 11214 legs 11215 stronger 11216 so 11217 you 11218 can 11219 bike 11220 faster 11221 than 11222 the 11223 fire. 11224 And 11225 the 11226 fire 11227 probably 11228 doesn’t 11229 skip 11230 the 11231 really 11232 hard 11233 parts 11234 of 11235 the 11236 workout 11237 video 11238 as 11239 you 11240 do. 11241 So 11242 you’re 11243 going 11244 to 11245 burn 11246 to 11247 death, 11248 on 11249 a 11250 bicycle 11251 that 11252 is 11253 dented 11254 from 11255 that 11256 time 11257 you 11258 got 11259 t-boned 11260 by 11261 a 11262 car; 11263 and 11264 all 11265 you 11266 have 11267 in 11268 your 11269 backpack 11270 is 11271 four 11272 granola 11273 bars, 11274 your 11275 computer, 11276 and 11277 a 11278 hard 11279 drive 11280 titled 11281 “thesis 11282 research.” 11283 This 11284 thesis 11285 is 11286 not 11287 what 11288 I 11289 expected 11290 it 11291 to 11292 be 11293 because 11294 I 11295 did 11296 not 11297 have 11298 an 11299 experience 11300 that 11301 I 11302 expected. 11303 My 11304 time 11305 in 11306 school 11307 was 11308 spent 11309 swinging 11310 back 11311 and 11312 forth 11313 between 11314 being 11315 told 11316 this 11317 was 11318 an 11319 “unprecedented 11320 time” 11321 and 11322 being 11323 expected 11324 to 11325 complete 11326 school 11327 “business 11328 as 11329 usual.” 11330 So 11331 I 11332 found 11333 an 11334 unprecedented 11335 way 11336 to 11337 continue 11338 business 11339 as 11340 usual. 11341 I 11342 stopped 11343 writing 11344 the 11345 way 11346 I 11347 hated. 11348 I 11349 put 11350 my 11351 joy 11352 at 11353 the 11354 forefront. 11355 I 11356 wrote 11357 essays 11358 that 11359 made 11360 me 11361 happy. 11362 I 11363 explored 11364 my 11365 relationship 11366 with 11367 academic 11368 writing. 11369 I 11370 wrote 11371 essays 11372 that 11373 allowed 11374 me 11375 to 11376 cry 11377 when 11378 I 11379 needed 11380 to. 11381 I 11382 jumped 11383 into 11384 cold 11385 water 11386 and 11387 played 11388 in 11389 the 11390 mud 11391 and 11392 moved 11393 to 11394 places 11395 that 11396 made 11397 me 11398 happy. 11399 I 11400 want 11401 this 11402 thesis 11403 to 11404 be 11405 a 11406 reflection 11407 and 11408 a 11409 performance 11410 of 11411 my 11412 time 11413 here. 11414 I 11415 was 11416 not 11417 always 11418 focused. 11419 I 11420 procrastinated. 11421 I 11422 was 11423 annoyed. 11424 I 11425 was 11426 spiteful 11427 and 11428 frustrated. 11429 I 11430 was 11431 joyous 11432 and 11433 silly, 11434 and 11435 I 11436 danced 11437 all 11438 the 11439 time. 11440 I 11441 danced 11442 when 11443 I 11444 felt 11445 all 11446 of 11447 those 11448 things. 11449 I 11450 better 11451 understood 11452 the 11453 history 11454 of 11455 oppression 11456 within 11457 academic 11458 institutions. 11459 I 11460 processed 11461 through 11462 movement 11463 and 11464 writing 11465 and 11466 poking 11467 fun 11468 at 11469 the 11470 institution 11471 making 11472 me 11473 miserable. 11474 11475 HOMEGROUND INTRODUCTION 11476 AND 11477 CONTEXT TONE 11478 / 11479 LANGUAGE 11480 [ID] 11481 This 11482 graphic 11483 represents 11484 the 11485 tone 11486 or 11487 language. 11488 A 11489 circle 11490 with 11491 three 11492 gradient 11493 colours. 11494 The 11495 left 11496 of 11497 the 11498 circle 11499 is 11500 yellow 11501 with 11502 text 11503 above 11504 it 11505 that 11506 says 11507 “Personal”, 11508 bottom 11509 is 11510 blue 11511 with 11512 text 11513 that 11514 says 11515 “Movement”, 11516 the 11517 right 11518 is 11519 red 11520 with 11521 text 11522 that 11523 says 11524 “Academic”. 11525 The 11526 colors 11527 merge 11528 over 11529 top 11530 of 11531 one 11532 another. 11533 The 11534 color 11535 chosen 11536 here 11537 is 11538 blue, 11539 indicating 11540 the 11541 work 11542 uses 11543 movement 11544 as 11545 language. 11546 FEELINGS 11547 [ID] 11548 A 11549 gradient 11550 bar 11551 with 11552 two 11553 ends. 11554 The 11555 left 11556 is 11557 white 11558 and 11559 says 11560 “I 11561 love 11562 school”, 11563 the 11564 right 11565 is 11566 blue 11567 and 11568 says 11569 “I 11570 hate 11571 school”. 11572 The 11573 indicator 11574 is 11575 in 11576 the 11577 middle. 11578 [ID] 11579 A 11580 gradient 11581 bar 11582 with 11583 two 11584 ends. 11585 The 11586 left 11587 is 11588 white 11589 and 11590 says 11591 “I 11592 ate 11593 today”, 11594 the 11595 right 11596 is 11597 red 11598 and 11599 says 11600 “I 11601 forgot”. 11602 The 11603 indicator 11604 is 11605 in 11606 the 11607 middle. 11608 [ID] 11609 A 11610 gradient 11611 bar 11612 with 11613 two 11614 ends. 11615 The 11616 left 11617 is 11618 white 11619 and 11620 says 11621 “I 11622 live 11623 in 11624 a 11625 parking 11626 garage”, 11627 the 11628 right 11629 is 11630 yellow 11631 and 11632 says 11633 “I 11634 live 11635 in 11636 a 11637 house”. 11638 The 11639 indicator 11640 is 11641 100% 11642 on 11643 the 11644 house 11645 side. 11646 SELFIE 11647 [ID] 11648 A 11649 black 11650 and 11651 white 11652 photo 11653 of 11654 Chloe 11655 D'Leen 11656 making 11657 a 11658 silly 11659 face; 11660 with 11661 an 11662 “o” 11663 shaped 11664 mouth 11665 and 11666 holding 11667 their 11668 eyebrows 11669 with 11670 their 11671 fingers. 11672 MOOD 11673 RING COLOUR 11674 : 11675 BROWN homesickness, 11676 peace, excitement, 11677 loneliness 11678 [ID] 11679 The 11680 back 11681 of 11682 a 11683 white 11684 child’s 11685 hand 11686 with 11687 three 11688 rings. 11689 The 11690 thumb 11691 and 11692 pointer 11693 finger 11694 have 11695 polka 11696 dot 11697 butterfly 11698 shaped 11699 rings, 11700 the 11701 ring 11702 finger 11703 has 11704 a 11705 mood 11706 ring 11707 with 11708 a 11709 light 11710 brown/tan 11711 ring. 11712 There 11713 is 11714 a 11715 box 11716 around 11717 the 11718 ring 11719 that 11720 highlights 11721 its 11722 color. 11723 VIDEO 11724 PERFORMANCE 11725 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 11726 s/16GFRZHkpLfMo WOC00KJ3BHP5F 11727 KZim3Te?usp=sha ring 11728 SECTION 11729 CONTENT [ID] 11730 Chloe 11731 D'Leen, 11732 a 11733 white 11734 person 11735 with 11736 long 11737 red 11738 hair 11739 flies 11740 high 11741 above 11742 the 11743 ground. 11744 They 11745 are 11746 wearing 11747 a 11748 black 11749 facemask 11750 and 11751 a 11752 gray 11753 layered 11754 dress-like 11755 garment 11756 with 11757 long 11758 wing-like 11759 sleeves. 11760 The 11761 sky 11762 is 11763 white 11764 from 11765 wildfire 11766 smoke. 11767 11768 A 11769 close 11770 up 11771 shot 11772 of 11773 the 11774 garment 11775 Chloe 11776 D'Leen 11777 is 11778 wearing. 11779 The 11780 layers 11781 curve 11782 in 11783 a 11784 “C” 11785 shape 11786 toward 11787 the 11788 right 11789 side 11790 of 11791 the 11792 image. 11793 There 11794 are 11795 thin 11796 long 11797 lines 11798 hand 11799 drawn 11800 on 11801 each 11802 layer 11803 of 11804 the 11805 gray 11806 wrinkled 11807 fabric. 11808 11809 11810 Two 11811 green 11812 grassy 11813 fields 11814 line 11815 the 11816 top 11817 and 11818 bottom 11819 of 11820 the 11821 mirrored 11822 image. 11823 In 11824 the 11825 middle 11826 in 11827 upright 11828 orientation, 11829 Chloe 11830 D'Leen 11831 stands 11832 up 11833 straight 11834 holding 11835 the 11836 sleeve/wing 11837 of 11838 the 11839 gray 11840 garment 11841 and 11842 stares 11843 into 11844 the 11845 camera. 11846 A 11847 black 11848 mask 11849 covers 11850 the 11851 bottom 11852 of 11853 their 11854 face. 11855 On 11856 the 11857 left 11858 side, 11859 a 11860 mirror 11861 of 11862 Chloe 11863 D'Leen 11864 is 11865 flipped 11866 in 11867 upside 11868 down 11869 orientation. 11870 The 11871 sky 11872 is 11873 white 11874 from 11875 smoke. 11876 11877 The 11878 garment 11879 is 11880 hanging 11881 from 11882 a 11883 black 11884 bar, 11885 the 11886 image 11887 is 11888 taken 11889 from 11890 beneath. 11891 The 11892 layers 11893 of 11894 the 11895 garment 11896 curve 11897 in 11898 a 11899 “C” 11900 shape 11901 toward 11902 the 11903 right 11904 side 11905 of 11906 the 11907 image. 11908 You 11909 can 11910 feel 11911 the 11912 texture 11913 of 11914 the 11915 wrinkled 11916 gray 11917 fabric. 11918 CONCLUSION-ISH INTRODUCTION 11919 AND 11920 CONTEXT TONE 11921 / 11922 LANGUAGE 11923 [ID] 11924 This 11925 graphic 11926 represents 11927 the 11928 tone 11929 or 11930 language. 11931 A 11932 circle 11933 with 11934 three 11935 gradient 11936 colours. 11937 The 11938 left 11939 of 11940 the 11941 circle 11942 is 11943 yellow 11944 with 11945 text 11946 above 11947 it 11948 that 11949 says 11950 “Personal”, 11951 bottom 11952 is 11953 blue 11954 with 11955 text 11956 that 11957 says 11958 “Movement”, 11959 the 11960 right 11961 is 11962 red 11963 with 11964 text 11965 that 11966 says 11967 “Academic”. 11968 The 11969 colors 11970 merge 11971 over 11972 top 11973 of 11974 one 11975 another. 11976 The 11977 indicator 11978 box 11979 is 11980 in 11981 the 11982 middle 11983 of 11984 the 11985 circle 11986 and 11987 is 11988 a 11989 white-ish 11990 color. 11991 It 11992 indicates 11993 a 11994 mix 11995 of 11996 all 11997 three 11998 communication 11999 styles. 12000 12001 FEELINGS 12002 [ID] 12003 A 12004 gradient 12005 bar 12006 with 12007 two 12008 ends. 12009 The 12010 left 12011 is 12012 white 12013 and 12014 says 12015 “I 12016 love 12017 school”, 12018 the 12019 right 12020 is 12021 blue 12022 and 12023 says 12024 “I 12025 hate 12026 school”. 12027 The 12028 indicator 12029 is 12030 between 12031 the 12032 middle 12033 and 12034 the 12035 love 12036 [ID] 12037 A 12038 gradient 12039 bar 12040 with 12041 two 12042 ends. 12043 The 12044 left 12045 is 12046 white 12047 and 12048 says 12049 “I 12050 have 12051 clean 12052 feet”, 12053 the 12054 right 12055 is 12056 red 12057 and 12058 says 12059 “I 12060 have 12061 muddy 12062 feet”. 12063 The 12064 indicator 12065 is 12066 100% 12067 on 12068 the 12069 muddy 12070 side. 12071 [ID] 12072 A 12073 gradient 12074 bar 12075 with 12076 two 12077 ends. 12078 The 12079 left 12080 is 12081 white 12082 and 12083 says 12084 “I 12085 live 12086 on 12087 an 12088 island”, 12089 the 12090 right 12091 is 12092 yellow 12093 and 12094 says 12095 “I 12096 live 12097 on 12098 the 12099 mainland”. 12100 The 12101 indicator 12102 on 12103 the 12104 island 12105 side. 12106 SELFIE 12107 [ID] 12108 Chloe 12109 D'Leen, 12110 a 12111 white 12112 person 12113 with 12114 shoulder 12115 length 12116 brown 12117 hair 12118 and 12119 gold 12120 glasses, 12121 is 12122 wrapped 12123 in 12124 a 12125 white 12126 blanket. 12127 They 12128 are 12129 holding 12130 up 12131 a 12132 “thumbs 12133 up”. 12134 The 12135 background 12136 is 12137 a 12138 room 12139 made 12140 of 12141 wood 12142 with 12143 a 12144 bright 12145 white 12146 window. MOOD 12147 RING COLOUR 12148 : 12149 YELLOW excited, 12150 happy, 12151 adventurous, 12152 cold 12153 [ID] 12154 The 12155 back 12156 of 12157 a 12158 white 12159 child’s 12160 hand 12161 with 12162 three 12163 rings. 12164 The 12165 thumb 12166 and 12167 pointer 12168 finger 12169 have 12170 polka 12171 dot 12172 butterfly 12173 shaped 12174 rings, 12175 the 12176 ring 12177 finger 12178 has 12179 a 12180 mood 12181 ring 12182 with 12183 a 12184 yellow 12185 ring. 12186 There 12187 is 12188 a 12189 box 12190 around 12191 the 12192 ring 12193 that 12194 highlights 12195 its 12196 color. 12197 ALTERNATIVE 12198 FORMAT 12199 LINKS VIDEO: 12200 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 12201 s/1422maMGklFiW npcXo6- 12202 j_GI1GCIlOQFu?u sp=sharing 12203 AUDIO: 12204 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 12205 s/11_2Y41z8sT_TJ BXE9r1eiW9W65y 12206 xIshn?usp=sharin g 12207 ASL: 12208 https://drive.googl e.com/drive/folder 12209 s/1UNTFnljNTubsr lcCSYT0_gB35FW 12210 EGUlK?usp=shari ng 12211 SECTION 12212 CONTENT CONCLUSION 12213 NOW 12214 WHAT 12215 There 12216 are 12217 countless 12218 ways 12219 to 12220 investigate, 12221 critique, 12222 and 12223 resist. 12224 This 12225 document 12226 is 12227 a 12228 collection 12229 of 12230 some 12231 of 12232 the 12233 modes 12234 I 12235 have 12236 explored. 12237 12238 I 12239 write. 12240 I 12241 read. 12242 12243 I 12244 dance. 12245 12246 I 12247 ignore. 12248 12249 I 12250 cry. 12251 12252 I 12253 move. 12254 12255 12256 12257 12258 I 12259 seek 12260 joy. 12261 12262 This 12263 thesis 12264 demonstrates 12265 the 12266 ways 12267 in 12268 which 12269 I 12270 have 12271 respected 12272 my 12273 bodymind 12274 and 12275 the 12276 care 12277 I 12278 have 12279 taken. 12280 The 12281 end 12282 of 12283 this 12284 thesis 12285 does 12286 not 12287 mark 12288 the 12289 end 12290 of 12291 this 12292 work. 12293 There 12294 are 12295 more 12296 modes 12297 of 12298 resistance 12299 to 12300 explore. 12301 There 12302 is 12303 more 12304 joy 12305 to 12306 be 12307 found. 12308 There 12309 is 12310 more 12311 care 12312 to 12313 be 12314 taken. 12315 This 12316 work 12317 is 12318 fluid 12319 and, 12320 like 12321 me, 12322 it 12323 will 12324 continue 12325 to 12326 move. 12327 Thank 12328 you 12329 for 12330 engaging 12331 in 12332 this 12333 work. 12334 If 12335 you 12336 would 12337 please 12338 excuse 12339 me, 12340 I 12341 am 12342 going 12343 to 12344 play 12345 in 12346 the 12347 mud. 12348 [ID] 12349 Next 12350 to 12351 the 12352 “I” 12353 statements, 12354 there 12355 are 12356 two 12357 squares 12358 that 12359 match 12360 the 12361 mixed 12362 colour 12363 swatches 12364 on 12365 the 12366 previous 12367 page. 12368 12369 REFERENCE 12370 LIST Allen, 12371 G. 12372 E. 12373 (2011). 12374 Eugenics 12375 and 12376 Modern 12377 Biology: 12378 Critiques 12379 of 12380 Eugenics, 12381 1910-1945. 12382 Annals 12383 of 12384 Human 12385 Genetics. 12386 Berne, 12387 P. 12388 (2015). 12389 Disability 12390 Justice 12391 - 12392 a 12393 working 12394 draft 12395 by 12396 Patty 12397 Berne 12398 — 12399 Sins 12400 Invalid. 12401 Sins 12402 Invalid; 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12893 didn’t 12894 read.”, 12895 and 12896 is 12897 used 12898 “by 12899 someone 12900 who 12901 wrote 12902 a 12903 large 12904 post/article/whate ver 12905 to 12906 show 12907 a 12908 brief 12909 summary 12910 of 12911 their 12912 post 12913 as 12914 it 12915 might 12916 be 12917 too 12918 long” 12919 (urban 12920 dictionary). 12921 These 12922 are 12923 short 12924 summaries 12925 of 12926 each 12927 section: 1. Dedication 12928 (500 12929 words). 12930 This 12931 section 12932 tells 12933 a 12934 story 12935 about 12936 my 12937 grandmothers 12938 making 12939 sandwiches. 12940 The 12941 story 12942 is 12943 light 12944 and 12945 silly 12946 and 12947 does 12948 not 12949 use 12950 academic 12951 language. 12952 It 12953 dedicates 12954 this 12955 document 12956 to 12957 my 12958 grandmothers, 12959 family 12960 of 12961 origin, 12962 and 12963 chosen 12964 family. 2. Introduction 12965 (661 12966 words). 12967 This 12968 section 12969 introduces 12970 the 12971 project; 12972 investigating 12973 the 12974 eugenic 12975 history 12976 of 12977 the 12978 university 12979 and 12980 using 12981 performance 12982 (movement, 12983 dance, 12984 etc) 12985 as 12986 a 12987 form 12988 of 12989 resistance 12990 against 12991 it. 12992 3. Nonsense 12993 ( 12994 words). 12995 A 12996 story 12997 about 12998 my 12999 classmates 13000 and 13001 I 13002 discussing 13003 a 13004 difficult 13005 assignment; 13006 one 13007 that 13008 used 13009 overly 13010 academic 13011 and 13012 complex 13013 language. 13014 We 13015 then 13016 played 13017 a 13018 game 13019 of 13020 “who 13021 can 13022 make 13023 up 13024 the 13025 most 13026 academic 13027 sounding 13028 nonsense”. 13029 I 13030 then 13031 wrote 13032 a 13033 long 13034 essay 13035 with 13036 the 13037 tone 13038 and 13039 cadence 13040 of 13041 logic, 13042 but 13043 that 13044 is 13045 total 13046 academic 13047 nonsense. 13048 4. Medusa 13049 (0 13050 words) 13051 A 13052 series 13053 of 13054 black 13055 and 13056 white 13057 images 13058 from 13059 a 13060 dance/movement 13061 performance 13062 in 13063 a 13064 rocky 13065 landscape. 13066 5. Neutral 13067 Body 13068 (2048 13069 words). 13070 A 13071 brief 13072 history 13073 of 13074 eugenics 13075 in 13076 North 13077 America, 13078 introducing 13079 the 13080 terms 13081 “ableism” 13082 and 13083 describing 13084 how 13085 it 13086 has 13087 been 13088 used 13089 to 13090 create 13091 an 13092 inaccessible 13093 education 13094 system 13095 and 13096 built 13097 environment. 13098 It 13099 gives 13100 credit 13101 to 13102 the 13103 work 13104 being 13105 done 13106 by 13107 Disability 13108 Justice 13109 activists 13110 and 13111 aims 13112 to 13113 build 13114 upon 13115 it. 13116 This 13117 is 13118 the 13119 most 13120 academic 13121 section 13122 of 13123 the 13124 document. 13125 6. Scone 13126 (288 13127 words) 13128 13129 A 13130 short 13131 story 13132 of 13133 eating 13134 a 13135 scone 13136 that 13137 tasted 13138 very 13139 bad. 7. . 13140 Procrastination 13141 (286 13142 words) 13143 A 13144 short 13145 description 13146 of 13147 my 13148 great 13149 ability 13150 to 13151 procrastinate. 13152 8. @moonlightpri nting 13153 (535 13154 words) 13155 A 13156 short 13157 story 13158 about 13159 finding 13160 a 13161 video 13162 I 13163 wanted 13164 to 13165 send 13166 to 13167 my 13168 uncle, 13169 who 13170 passed 13171 away 13172 a 13173 few 13174 years 13175 ago. 13176 9. Unprecedentedl y 13177 business 13178 as 13179 usual 13180 (1188 13181 words) 13182 My 13183 experience 13184 going 13185 to 13186 school 13187 in 13188 a 13189 pandemic 13190 and 13191 various 13192 climate 13193 emergencies 13194 and 13195 trying 13196 to 13197 create 13198 this 13199 thesis 13200 document. 13201 10. Conclusion 13202 (123 13203 words) 13204 A 13205 short 13206 acknowledgment 13207 of 13208 the 13209 work 13210 I 13211 have 13212 done 13213 in 13214 this 13215 document 13216 and 13217 the 13218 work 13219 that 13220 still 13221 needs 13222 to 13223 be 13224 done. 13225 Short 13226 and 13227 sweet. 13228 Nothing 13229 too 13230 fancy. 13231 13232 APPENDIX 13233 D 13234 : 13235 OTHER 13236 WORK A 13237 series 13238 of 13239 links 13240 to 13241 random 13242 bits 13243 of 13244 work 13245 I 13246 did 13247 from 13248 2020-2022. 13249 HEADS 13250 UP 13251 not 13252 all 13253 of 13254 this 13255 extended 13256 work 13257 has 13258 image 13259 descriptions, 13260 ASL, 13261 translation 13262 or 13263 given 13264 formatting 13265 options. 13266 If 13267 you 13268 need 13269 an 13270 alternative 13271 format, 13272 shoot 13273 me 13274 an 13275 email 13276 and 13277 I’m 13278 happy 13279 to 13280 help. 13281 dleenchloe@gmail .com 13282 (dleen 13283 chloe 13284 at 13285 gmail 13286 dot 13287 com) 13288 13289 https://drive.googl e.com/file/d/1fy0h- 13290 GnyMCqRCeQK3r u3LIwc9dYrDAVM/ 13291 view?usp=sharing 13292 13293 https://drive.googl e.com/file/d/1tTqiK 13294 W9xTi-i9DlTYhS4050pj33 13295 bIoJ/view?usp=sh aring 13296 13297 https://drive.googl e.com/file/d/1zSxY 13298 OmYKpxGwHloP8 v1fLobmhA9jR6al/ 13299 view?usp=sharing 13300 APPENDIX 13301 E 13302 : 13303 FLOWCHART 13304 DESCRIPTION Outline 13305 : 13306 The 13307 flowchart 13308 is 13309 designed 13310 to 13311 see 13312 if 13313 you 13314 have 13315 the 13316 time 13317 and 13318 energy 13319 to 13320 engage 13321 in 13322 this 13323 work 13324 today 13325 and 13326 if 13327 you 13328 do 13329 what 13330 kind 13331 of 13332 work 13333 you 13334 would 13335 like 13336 to 13337 engage 13338 with. 13339 At 13340 the 13341 end 13342 of 13343 the 13344 flowchart 13345 there 13346 are 13347 seven 13348 options 13349 for 13350 you 13351 that 13352 direct 13353 you 13354 to 13355 sections 13356 to 13357 read 13358 or 13359 engage 13360 with. 13361 Q: 13362 Would 13363 you 13364 like 13365 to 13366 engage 13367 with 13368 this 13369 document 13370 today? If 13371 “no”; 13372 then 13373 “Then 13374 don’t. 13375 There 13376 is 13377 no 13378 need 13379 to 13380 engage 13381 in 13382 this 13383 work. 13384 Do 13385 what 13386 your 13387 bodymind 13388 needs. 13389 Come 13390 back 13391 if 13392 you 13393 wish.” If 13394 “yes”; 13395 then 13396 Q: 13397 “Do 13398 you 13399 have 13400 the 13401 TIME 13402 and 13403 ENERGY 13404 to 13405 engage 13406 with 13407 this 13408 document 13409 today?” 13410 If 13411 “no”; 13412 then, 13413 “Then 13414 don’t. 13415 There 13416 is 13417 no 13418 need 13419 to 13420 engage 13421 in 13422 this 13423 work. 13424 Do 13425 what 13426 your 13427 bodymind 13428 needs. 13429 Come 13430 back 13431 if 13432 you 13433 wish.” If 13434 “yes”’; 13435 then, 13436 Q: 13437 “Do 13438 you 13439 want 13440 to 13441 engage 13442 with 13443 some 13444 or 13445 all 13446 of 13447 this 13448 document?” If 13449 “some”; 13450 then 13451 Q: 13452 “What 13453 do 13454 you 13455 feel 13456 like 13457 reading 13458 / 13459 engaging 13460 with?” 13461 (4 13462 options) Option 13463 1: 13464 “I 13465 don’t 13466 want 13467 to 13468 read”, 13469 then 13470 follow 13471 table 13472 of 13473 contents 13474 D Option 13475 2: 13476 “something 13477 less 13478 silly”, 13479 then 13480 follow 13481 table 13482 of 13483 contents 13484 C Option 13485 3: 13486 “something 13487 silly”, 13488 then 13489 follow 13490 table 13491 of 13492 contents 13493 B Option 13494 4: 13495 “something 13496 quick”, 13497 then 13498 follow 13499 table 13500 of 13501 contents 13502 A If 13503 “all”; 13504 then 13505 Q: 13506 “How 13507 do 13508 you 13509 feel 13510 like 13511 reading 13512 / 13513 engaging?” 13514 (3 13515 options) Option 13516 1: 13517 “the 13518 order 13519 the 13520 document 13521 is 13522 in 13523 now”, 13524 then 13525 follow 13526 table 13527 of 13528 contents 13529 G Option 13530 2: 13531 “chronological 13532 order”, 13533 then 13534 follow 13535 table 13536 of 13537 contents 13538 F Option 13539 3: 13540 “surprise 13541 me”, 13542 them 13543 follow 13544 table 13545 of 13546 contents 13547 E 13548 Table 13549 of 13550 Contents 13551 A APPENDICES 13552 (page 13553 x) Table 13554 of 13555 Contents 13556 B 13557 PROCRASTINAT E 13558 (page 13559 x) SCONE 13560 (page 13561 x) SOME 13562 PEOPLE’S 13563 (page 13564 x) NONSENSE 13565 (page 13566 x) Table 13567 of 13568 Contents 13569 C INTRODUCTION 13570 (page 13571 x) NEUTRAL 13572 BODY 13573 (page 13574 x) NONSENSE 13575 (page 13576 x) UBAU 13577 (page 13578 x) 13579 CONCLUSIONISH 13580 (page 13581 x) Table 13582 of 13583 Contents 13584 D MEDUSA 13585 (page 13586 x) COURT 13587 (page 13588 x) HOMEGROUND 13589 (page 13590 x) APPENDICES 13591 (page 13592 x) Table 13593 of 13594 Contents 13595 E 13596 PROCRASTINAT E 13597 (page 13598 x) NEUTRAL 13599 BODY 13600 (page 13601 x) NONSENSE 13602 (page 13603 x) UBAU 13604 (page 13605 x) SOME 13606 PEOPLES 13607 13608 (page 13609 x) 13610 CONCLUSIONISH 13611 (page 13612 x) INTRODUCTION 13613 (page 13614 x) MEDUSA 13615 (page 13616 x) SCONE 13617 (page 13618 x) HOMEGROUND 13619 (page 13620 x) 13621 @moonlightprinti ng 13622 (page 13623 x) COURT 13624 (page 13625 x) Table 13626 of 13627 Contents 13628 F HOMEGROUND 13629 (page 13630 x) MEDUSA 13631 (page 13632 x) NEUTRAL 13633 BODY 13634 (page 13635 x) SOME 13636 PEOPLES 13637 13638 (page 13639 x) 13640 PROCRASTINAT E 13641 (page 13642 x) NONSENSE 13643 (page 13644 x) COURT 13645 (page 13646 x) SCONE 13647 (page 13648 x) 13649 @moonlightprinti ng 13650 (page 13651 x) INTRODUCTION 13652 (page 13653 x) UBAU 13654 (page 13655 x) 13656 CONCLUSIONISH 13657 (page 13658 x) Table 13659 of 13660 Contents 13661 G INTRODUCTION 13662 (page 13663 x) 13664 NONSENSE 13665 (page 13666 x) MEDUSA 13667 (page 13668 x) NEUTRAL 13669 BODY 13670 (page 13671 x) 13672 PROCRASTINAT E 13673 (page 13674 x) SOME 13675 PEOPLES 13676 13677 (page 13678 x) SCONE 13679 (page 13680 x) 13681 @moonlightprinti ng 13682 (page 13683 x) COURT 13684 (page 13685 x) UBAU 13686 (page 13687 x) HOMEGROUND 13688 (page 13689 x) 13690 CONCLUSIONISH 13691 (page 13692 x) 13693 APPENDIX 13694 G PHOTO 13695 BOOTH TONE 13696 / 13697 LANGUAGE 13698 [ID] 13699 This 13700 graphic 13701 represents 13702 the 13703 tone 13704 or 13705 language. 13706 A 13707 circle 13708 with 13709 three 13710 gradient 13711 colours. 13712 The 13713 left 13714 of 13715 the 13716 circle 13717 is 13718 yellow 13719 with 13720 text 13721 above 13722 it 13723 that 13724 says 13725 “Personal”, 13726 bottom 13727 is 13728 blue 13729 with 13730 text 13731 that 13732 says 13733 “Movement”, 13734 the 13735 right 13736 is 13737 red 13738 with 13739 text 13740 that 13741 says 13742 “Academic”. 13743 The 13744 colors 13745 merge 13746 over 13747 top 13748 of 13749 one 13750 another. 13751 The 13752 color 13753 chosen 13754 here 13755 is 13756 yellow, 13757 indicating 13758 this 13759 is 13760 written 13761 in 13762 a 13763 personal 13764 tone. 13765 FEELINGS 13766 [ID] 13767 A 13768 gradient 13769 bar 13770 with 13771 two 13772 ends. 13773 The 13774 left 13775 is 13776 white 13777 and 13778 says 13779 “white”, 13780 the 13781 right 13782 is 13783 blue 13784 and 13785 says 13786 “blue”. 13787 The 13788 indicator 13789 is 13790 between 13791 the 13792 middle 13793 and 13794 the 13795 white 13796 side. 13797 [ID] 13798 A 13799 gradient 13800 bar 13801 with 13802 two 13803 ends. 13804 The 13805 left 13806 is 13807 white 13808 and 13809 says 13810 “white”, 13811 the 13812 right 13813 is 13814 red 13815 and 13816 says 13817 “red”. 13818 The 13819 indicator 13820 is 13821 100% 13822 on 13823 the 13824 red 13825 side. 13826 [ID] 13827 A 13828 gradient 13829 bar 13830 with 13831 two 13832 ends. 13833 The 13834 left 13835 is 13836 white 13837 and 13838 says 13839 “white”, 13840 the 13841 right 13842 is 13843 yellow 13844 and 13845 says 13846 “yellow”. 13847 The 13848 indicator 13849 is 13850 100% 13851 on 13852 the 13853 white 13854 side. 13855 SELFIE 13856 [ID] 13857 Chloe 13858 D'Leen 13859 is 13860 in 13861 a 13862 blue 13863 camouflage 13864 shirt, 13865 squinting 13866 and 13867 making 13868 a 13869 “kissy 13870 face”. 13871 They 13872 are 13873 holding 13874 two 13875 peace 13876 signs 13877 up 13878 to 13879 their 13880 eyes. 13881 Blue 13882 cartoon 13883 birds 13884 fly 13885 around 13886 their 13887 head. 13888 The 13889 background 13890 is 13891 a 13892 classroom. MOOD 13893 RING COLOUR 13894 : 13895 RAINBOW all 13896 emotion 13897 [ID] 13898 The 13899 back 13900 of 13901 a 13902 white 13903 child’s 13904 hand 13905 with 13906 three 13907 rings. 13908 The 13909 thumb 13910 and 13911 pointer 13912 finger 13913 have 13914 polka 13915 dot 13916 butterfly 13917 shaped 13918 rings, 13919 the 13920 ring 13921 finger 13922 has 13923 a 13924 mood 13925 ring 13926 with 13927 a 13928 rainbow 13929 ring. 13930 There 13931 is 13932 a 13933 box 13934 around 13935 the 13936 ring 13937 that 13938 highlights 13939 the 13940 rainbow. 13941 [ID] 13942 Chloe 13943 D'Leen’s 13944 got 13945 some 13946 wild 13947 eyes 13948 and 13949 a 13950 big 13951 smile. 13952 Their 13953 untamed 13954 hair 13955 is 13956 flipped 13957 up 13958 and 13959 tucked 13960 into 13961 their 13962 neon 13963 orange 13964 hat 13965 to 13966 look 13967 like 13968 funky 13969 horns. 13970 They 13971 have 13972 a 13973 wide 13974 awkward 13975 smile. 13976 The 13977 background 13978 is 13979 all 13980 white. 13981 [ID] 13982 Chloe 13983 D'Leen 13984 is 13985 back-lit, 13986 smiling 13987 wearing 13988 headphones 13989 and 13990 a 13991 black 13992 hoodie, 13993 and 13994 flashing 13995 a 13996 peace 13997 sign. 13998 The 13999 kitchen 14000 is 14001 lit 14002 up 14003 behind 14004 them. 14005 [ID] 14006 Chloe 14007 D'Leen 14008 wears 14009 a 14010 black 14011 toque 14012 and 14013 yellow 14014 puffy. 14015 They 14016 are 14017 back-lit, 14018 the 14019 background 14020 shows 14021 the 14022 wings 14023 of 14024 a 14025 striped 14026 airplane 14027 and 14028 a 14029 green 14030 and 14031 white 14032 plane. 14033 They’re 14034 in 14035 an 14036 airplane 14037 hanger. 14038 [ID] 14039 Chloe 14040 D'Leen 14041 holds 14042 up 14043 a 14044 tie-dye 14045 fidget 14046 toy 14047 to 14048 the 14049 camera. 14050 They’re 14051 eyes 14052 poke 14053 out 14054 through 14055 a 14056 space 14057 in 14058 the 14059 toy. 14060 They 14061 are 14062 in 14063 a 14064 bright 14065 orange 14066 jacket. 14067 [ID] 14068 Chloe 14069 D'Leen 14070 looks 14071 exhausted 14072 and 14073 wears 14074 a 14075 black 14076 mask, 14077 brown 14078 glasses, 14079 and 14080 a 14081 brown 14082 shirt. 14083 Their 14084 head 14085 is 14086 in 14087 their 14088 hand 14089 and 14090 they 14091 look 14092 away 14093 from 14094 the 14095 camera. 14096 The 14097 background 14098 is 14099 the 14100 ECU 14101 studio 14102 space. 14103 [ID] 14104 Chloe 14105 D'Leen 14106 drinks 14107 tea 14108 from 14109 a 14110 brown 14111 mug. 14112 They 14113 have 14114 a 14115 neon 14116 orange 14117 hat 14118 on 14119 and 14120 a 14121 blue 14122 camouflage 14123 jacket. 14124 The 14125 background 14126 is 14127 the 14128 ECU 14129 studio 14130 space. 14131 [ID] 14132 Chloe 14133 D'Leen 14134 wears 14135 a 14136 pink 14137 cowboy 14138 hat 14139 and 14140 pink 14141 mirrored 14142 sunglasses. 14143 They 14144 look 14145 stoic. 14146 The 14147 bedroom 14148 wall 14149 behind 14150 them 14151 has 14152 a 14153 mural 14154 of 14155 butts 14156 painted 14157 on 14158 it, 14159 one 14160 butt 14161 has 14162 flowers 14163 coming 14164 out 14165 of 14166 it. 14167 [ID] 14168 Chloe 14169 D'Leen 14170 looks 14171 bored, 14172 wearing 14173 a 14174 pink 14175 hoodie 14176 with 14177 the 14178 hood 14179 up. 14180 They’ve 14181 got 14182 brown 14183 glasses 14184 and 14185 have 14186 their 14187 hand 14188 holding 14189 up 14190 their 14191 chin. 14192 The 14193 background 14194 is 14195 a 14196 plain 14197 white 14198 wall. 14199 [ID] 14200 Chloe 14201 D'Leen 14202 uses 14203 their 14204 hands 14205 to 14206 pull 14207 back 14208 their 14209 eyebrows 14210 and 14211 show 14212 the 14213 whites 14214 of 14215 their 14216 eyes. 14217 They 14218 stick 14219 their 14220 tongue 14221 out. 14222 The 14223 background 14224 is 14225 a 14226 plain 14227 white 14228 wall. 14229 [ID] 14230 Chloe 14231 D'Leen 14232 crosses 14233 their 14234 eyes 14235 and 14236 holds 14237 their 14238 mouth 14239 with 14240 their 14241 hand. 14242 They’ve 14243 got 14244 brown 14245 shoulder 14246 length 14247 hair 14248 and 14249 are 14250 in 14251 the 14252 ECU 14253 studio 14254 space. 14255 [ID] 14256 Chloe 14257 D'Leen 14258 wears 14259 an 14260 N95 14261 mask, 14262 a 14263 blue 14264 shirt, 14265 and 14266 red 14267 hat. 14268 They 14269 look 14270 exhausted 14271 and 14272 are 14273 holding 14274 their 14275 temple 14276 with 14277 their 14278 hand. 14279 The 14280 background 14281 is 14282 the 14283 ECU 14284 studio 14285 space. 14286 [ID] 14287 Chloe 14288 D'Leen 14289 puffs 14290 their 14291 cheeks 14292 and 14293 looks 14294 straight 14295 at 14296 the 14297 camera, 14298 while 14299 wearing 14300 a 14301 yellow 14302 puffy 14303 and 14304 red 14305 toque. 14306 I 14307 took 14308 this 14309 picture 14310 30 14311 seconds 14312 ago. 14313 It 14314 marks 14315 what 14316 I 14317 look 14318 like 14319 as 14320 this 14321 document 14322 ends. 14323 14324 14325 THE 14326 END 14327 OF 14328 A 14329 THESIS 14330 PAPER 14331 TO 14332 FULFILL 14333 OF 14334 THE 14335 REQUIREMENTS 14336 FOR 14337 THE 14338 DEGREE 14339 OF 14340 MASTER 14341 OF 14342 DESIGN 14343 14344 [ID] 14345 Behind 14346 a 14347 layer 14348 of 14349 repeating 14350 black 14351 text, 14352 a 14353 white 14354 person 14355 with 14356 long 14357 red 14358 hair 14359 flies 14360 through 14361 the 14362 air 14363 in 14364 a 14365 gray 14366 dress 14367 that 14368 looks 14369 like 14370 wings. 14371 They 14372 are 14373 flying 14374 over 14375 a 14376 transparent 14377 circle 14378 with 14379 three 14380 gradient 14381 colours; 14382 blue 14383 on 14384 the 14385 bottom, 14386 yellow 14387 on 14388 the 14389 left, 14390 and 14391 red 14392 on 14393 the 14394 right. 14395 These 14396 are 14397 the 14398 same 14399 two 14400 images 14401 from 14402 the 14403 first 14404 few 14405 pages 14406 of 14407 the 14408 document. 14409 A 14410 visual 14411 conclusion. 14412